Ive just been here for 15 minutes, and have been reading the posts and I can relate to a lot of what people say and have been through.
Anyway my problems this, Im 20 no girl, no job, no life basically (I very rarely go out.)
My thing is, im into the Occult, things such as Wicca and Satanism, I collect Horror films on DVD, and my "taste" im music is basically heavy goth rock (not Manson trash, I mean proper goth rock.)
I have symbols all over my room, I go out in black, and I like to spend my lunch breaks at the Graveyard (Because im forced to go on a course to keep my money from the government.)
Im not a goth or mosher, im just myself, the problem is I dont relate to anyone.
Townies hate me cos they think im a goth/mosher, and goths and moshers hate me because im "weird."
I mean Ive done bible burning, animal sacrifice and a few other things I wouldnt rather mention, but I guess the worst part of me is how I think.
I find dying funny, when i see bombs on the news, or people suffering, I find it hilarious, im not a bad person I dont aim to be a bad person, its just I guess ive been through so much cr@p in my life I like to see others suffering.
I mean I dont want to be "normal" becuase thats boring, but I dont want to be on my own either, I like company, and on the rare occasion when ive known someone its only lasted 2 weeks maximum, im not afraid of commitment, im just afraid im going to have to "change" for a girl who doesnt understand me anyway.