I'm so unhappy and all I can do when I get home from work the last few months is drink. I feel better until I run out. I've run out now and by the time I get to the shop they will have stopped serving and I'm panicing. All I look forward to every day is the drinks I will have when I get home. I feel like I've turned into a complete freak. Everyone comments on how much I drink and I don't even let on - they must guess. I'm scared as there's little else to live for right now but a few drinks each day which give me an hour or so of carefreeness. Don't know what to do anymore am stuck in this hell hole. It's not just the alcohol, it's my whole life. But I feeling I'm becoming too dependant. I don't know how else to feel better.