You post seems to indicate that you are fully aware that you are an alcoholic and this alone is about 80 per cent of the cure.
Now there are many approaches in treating alcoholism, but I tend to look at the biological angle as to causes of alcoholism. Please read:
"Why hypoglycemics choose alcohol as their preferred source of energy" at:
http://www.hypoglycemia.asn.au/articles ... cohol.html
If this makes sense to you, it will give you some clues as to how to treat it.
Best of luck.