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suburbanite
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Joined: 07 Nov 2009
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Sat Nov 07, 2009 8:52 am
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| Ever feel like a snake in the grass? |
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So, I of course have an issue I'd like an opinion on otherwise this is simply a meaningless rant. This is my freshman year of college and already I feel like I created and destroyed so many relationships. After months of awkwardness and feeling a bit 'odd-man-out' with my so-called friends, everything came to a head tonight.
While walking with two of my guy pals, guy #1, we'll call him Jeff had a row with me. Jeff and guy #2, Zach, had just come from a party and were mildly intoxicated. Jeff was pushing me about, nothing too terrible, just enough to really bug me and hurt a bit, so I threatened to hit him if he persisted. He did, and so I jokingly swung at him, actually landing a blow, and he tripped onto the street. Zach and I had a good laugh, but Jeff was offended, getting into my face and finally yelling:
"No one wants you here. Go, leave, now. You're such a prick, you think you're better than everyone with your big words and Zach only wants you for your pussy." Sadly, Zach and Jeff had a fight, with Zach defending me to the point of violence while I apologized, and walked away to cry on a bench for an hour. What a night.
Needless to say, this really bothered me, because I have felt increasing alienation from my friends. I can't even say this is an unwarranted response. I've been taking interest in the guys of our little group, dating Seth for two weeks before I decided it wasn't right, then taking an interest in Bryce even though he has a girlfriend, and finally Zach and I have been hanging around every weekend. I feel like I've been so destructive dating/playing around with 6 different boys over the summer, and a similar situation here at school.
It's not really that I get bored with them, I just want all of them, I like all of them, but that is not socially acceptable, and would offend several of their moral codes. My relationship with Bryce is still going on, and I really fancy him AND Zach, which is an issue. I know other girls who liked Seth and Zach, and Bryce has told me he's leaving his girlfriend for me. I really do like all of the other boys, but I didn't really care for the feelings of other girls who wanted them. I went after someone when I wanted him, and so now I feel like a lowly snake, no use to anyone, just slipping after the next meal. I'm not a mean person, in fact I care deeply about what others think, but I really have no idea how to handle this situation. it feels like everything I touch..dies, to be very depressive. I'm quite upset, and at a loss. Any help would be appreciated (slightly criticism sensitive I might add though -_-) |
studentofthegame
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Sun Nov 08, 2009 9:50 am
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you could put it down to age. learn from how this makes you feel. |
XXMisanthropistXX
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Sun Nov 08, 2009 2:43 pm
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sounds like typical highschool girl behavior. no offence, but maybe your reasons are why alot of them act like this. |
VicariousAquarius
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Joined: 05 Nov 2009
Posts: 8
Mon Nov 09, 2009 7:02 am
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well thats kinda mean miss! I think she just doesn't feel love yet.
So the best advice in the world is just follow your own heart. Your instincts are going to show you where you will be happy. B might be cool and all but cheating isnt, and it will follow you forever. Mistakes happen but you are supposed to learn from them!!
Once a cheater, always a cheater. Variety is the spice of life but sluts get treated light mutts  Thats how life rolls.
Good luck!! |
rabidbaboon
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Joined: 09 Nov 2009
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Mon Nov 09, 2009 6:38 pm
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I guess the trick with this one is self-control.
Often we want things, but wanting isn't the same as needing. Sometimes if we let our urges, our desires rule how we behave we, get stung.
Your situation is tricky. I definitely agree with our wise Aquarian friend here. Cheating ain't the way, and most of the time what goes around comes around.
Best plan, as has been said, is chalk it up to experience. Carefully analyse what you want from a guy before going for it. Window-shopping is fun, but try to take home the whole shop and you'll probably find you didn't want half the stuff in the first place. |
suburbanite
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Joined: 07 Nov 2009
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Mon Nov 09, 2009 9:41 pm
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Thanks for your responses. I appreciate all the input, and now that things have settled down a bit it all seems clearer. When I told Bryce what happened he 'vowed to defend my honor' in a corny old fashioned way. I'm thinking maybe the boy who should be off limits is the one who means the most to me, the right one. Thank you everyone.  |
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