but are bringing joy to both you
I don't see there any joy somehow :/
I say smile back at them. What's the worst thing that could happen? You both have fun?
I don't feel comfortable doing this, I even stop looking at that peoples face and try to look somewhere else. Just don't feel confortable.
Or...could be your zipper's down. Have you checked your zipper?
Thasts what I am talking about, but its not a zipper, its not down so often
They are there with you and they see the same events that you do.
Ask for their interpretation of what they saw and its meaning. With more people with you, you may get more interpretations of the same 'stimuli'.
I believe they will say or at least think "they are laughing at you, you stupid" and therefore again I will not feel confortable, so I don't wanna do that.
What exactly is the source of your discomfort in doing this?
I believe its some complex when people laugh and I cannot see the reason, and they see me, I start believing they are laughing at me.
I envy your situation. I put in so much effort to make people around me laugh. And you do it just by your presence.
If I could I probably give this "gift" to you
Because when I walk at the street and don't make some reactions witouth trying to do so, I feel better
You see for example there is some bad singers:
and people laugh at them.
But me is not a singer, I just lets say walk at the street, or go shopping. Am I bad at walking or at shopping?
I cannot understand