As of tomorrow, I'm officially 365 days clean. It was far from easy, but I did it!
I'm in a far better place mentally and physically. My mental clarity is 100%, I no longer get lost half way through a sentence/conversation and forget what i was saying, I am 10 times more positive than I was before, my memory has returned 100%, I now become naturally happy and excited again and I'm completely in touch with all my emotions - something that I thought I would never be again at the worst point of my depersonalisation/derealisation. The reality check I had this time last year provided me with the desire to change, and that is what kept me going all this time.
The thing is, unless YOU yourself really want to change; you wont succeed. ( The worst part is most people have to hit rock bottom in their lives until they realise - I know i did) No-one can make you quit weed, or any addiction. Only yourself. Theres a lot of helpful information on preparing to quit knocking around on this site and the rest of the net that is vital to changing your lifestyle - but unless you have the underlying desire and willpower to push yourself and turn your life around and say NO when someone you associate with offers "just one drag cause it won't hurt", you won't last. Plenty of people relapse (I have on 4 occassions) but you gotta pick yourself back up and persevere, its surprising what you can acheive through hard work and determination.
Although the past few months have been tough due to being depressed (split up with my long term gf recently as well as other sh** going off) I've now beaten my addiction for good and I'm now facing my fears head on without the hazy crutch weed provides.
If anyone has any questions you're more than welcome to email me (firstname.lastname@example.org
I won't be posting for a while, recently I've spent too much time sitting at home surfing the net reading posts and while they have been really helpful i havent been actively working on lifting this depression thats hanging on.
Thanks for reading, I hope this post helps others realise they can beat their addiction, no matter how the odds are stacked against them.
No going back now. Me: 1 - Weed: - 0