So first off, I've always been a little impatient with the world in general, and largely anti-social. Not that I hated people so much as I just didn't want to be around them much. Which is just part of me, I'm an introvert and that's not gonna change and frankly I wouldn't want it to. I'm comfortable with that part of myself.
But lately it's been getting out of hand. I've been increasingly angry at people and the world, for maybe a year now? Just every little thing sets me off, even things that ultimately don't matter. I'm just fed up with the state of the world, the state of the U.S., how everyone is so blissfully ignorant of the things that truly matter. How people celebrate mediocrity and belittle and shun intelligence and any kind of dissenting voice.
I know that ultimately doesn't matter on this site, but it's something that's just getting to me a lot lately. It makes it hard for me to be optimistic about the future when there's still so much prejudice and anti-intellectualsim out there. Like...a LOT of it.
How do I keep my anger at this sort of thing in check? It just totally consumes me now, and makes me want to scream and punch a wall or something equally destructive. I can't channel my frustration or anger or anything into a positive outlet.
If something sets me off, I go into an angry, seething inner rage during which I feel like I just lose all control. I've never acted out physically due to this, I've never hit or hurt anyone, never done anything rash like that. Just a few outbursts on message boards or YouTube or whatever wherever I see the kind of thing that gets under my skin. And then whenever I eventually simmer down I feel like during that brief period of anger I wasn't even myself, but rather a manifestation of all my inner anger.
What should I do? How do I adopt a more positive outlook amidst all this negativity? How do I freakin' CONTROL this crap? Nothing seems to be working and I'm sick of letting this anger control me rather than the other way round.
So, any help is really appreciated. Thanks.