I have discovered this forum since a few weeks and it has already helped me in many ways to read empowering words from others that have gone through the same path.
I have been smoking weed for several years, with some periods (lasting a few weeks) of abstinence that all got me to the beginning for the same reason (oh, maybe I can have just one now, that won't do any harm... hmm sure... very fast, I go back to a crazy daily use, pretty classic !).
Now I feel that I want some big change in my life. I have used weed as a crutch for some time, for the sake of being able not to feel, to avoid facing and living my emotions. In a way it is what I needed and some form of self-therapy, but I can no longer go on with the tiredness, the dizziness, the lack of perspectives associated to this behaviour. And I have decided a few days ago to go back on a new work (and life-searching) activity for which I will need a lot of energy to develop it in the coming months. and I have already wasted a lot of my energy to a plant, this has no sense to go on and on.
I stopped smoking during 10 days, at Christmas time, when I went to see my family. It was actually very enjoyable to be able to FEEL real feelings again, even negative ones (a lot of sadness went back to me, I cried a lot but it felt like liberating all those feelings that have been locked up inside of me all the time that I smoked), and to find very quickly joy in positive activities without finding the urge to smoke. I spent very few time thinking of weed, actually.
But back home, I very rapidly stumbled back on the smoking habit with my boyfriend.
Now I want to stop again, but I will not be able to isolate myself from home for a few weeks, since I have quite a lot of work and training in the coming weeks. I would appreciate your support and if you have any tips with helping not being too tempted to smoke at home (as I cannot get rid of the stuff since my boyfriend smokes and doesn't want to give up, given that he is pretty moderate and can control his habit). Anyway, I will use this thread to write advancements on my smoke-free journey throughout life. I deeply feel it's time for new positive habits in my way of life. Even if pot has helped me in some ways in the past, it's not possible anymore to go on and on with this, and I am willing to let it go. Good luck to all of you in the liberation process