Those who overcame depression might understand this feeling. The feeling of returning back to the pre-depression self/identity. Ive also heard that those who had depression since an early age struggle with finding their identity because they have little or nothing to return to.
No way am I happy with the idea of turning back the clock twenty years to my 9 year old self, before I started losing my identity to depression.
Its been 8 years of climbing uphill from the depression I once had. I struggle everyday, not knowing who Im supposed to be or if anything Im doing is the right thing. Sometimes it makes me want to sink back into depression with all the social issues and lack of humor I seem to feel. I know that once I find my self identity, I can start to feel happy, enjoy life, have friends and lots of fun!
I really want to get my life back on track, just not sure how to make the rubber meet the road. Anyone have any suggestions on how to find oneself after going through pretty severe and lifelong depression episodes?