Firstly, thank you for clicking my post, this is the first time I've ever wrote something like this.
I don't really know where to start, I feel so low and it's all my fault.
I went to my work Christmas party, and at first I was having a great night. It was unlimited drinks and I told myself I was leaving at 11pm.
After the meal we had, I just about remember leaving the place but I didn't go home, we all went out to some bars instead. I've had a coworker, he is much older than me and for a couple of month now he has made my friend really upset and always speaks down to her, to be honest I've heard him speak to loads of people like crap.
So after a couple of drinks I told him I don't like the way he's been making everyone feel and that he should think about peoples feelings more often (obviously probably not said as good as that, probably a lot more vicious too)
So after that, I only spoke to that guy one more time during the night but this was totally the wrong thing to do. I'm so worried about everyone talking about me on Monday that I've hardly slept and I have so much panic... anyway the night goes on...
So after this (which I shouldn't have done) I then spend more time with my other coworker, I remember we were laughing outside and we kept joking with each other and this is all I remember (I've suffered from a horrible black out of most the night) my coworker rang me the next day and said I tried to kiss him! This is NOT like me, I love my husband so so so so so so much and I'm not even attracted to this guy. I remember kissing him on the cheek when I was having some banta but nothing like he said. Which leads me to my next question, do I tell my husband? We're always very honest with each other and I think he will forgive me but I think he will then struggle to let me carrying on working where I am now, I'm not sure.
I know all the above Is my own fault, I should have left when I did. How do I handle the above? I'm really struggling to ask advice from my friends because I'm so shameful.
I'm thinking of ringing the first guy and apologising first thing on Monday, I just thought that would be the best way to get it out in the open, but when I told my husband about that part he has told me not too becuse I said something I should have said just maybe not in the right way.
Thank you all for reading.
Any advice would be appreciated and any real stories of a similar situation would be appreciated too.