I had been fired half year ago for low productivity. Now I am in new job, passed 3 months trial period but still trial does not tell everything, because from previous job I was fired after like 8 months.
For example I had a task recently which was estimated for 1 day and now I had worked 2.5 days and did not finish. And it might look for colleagues like a simple task.
Another complex task, estimated for 4 hours, but also working for like 3 days or so, but at least it is much more complex and estimation might be bad.
I have read a book
The Blueprint for a Productive Programmer: How to Write Great Code Fast and Prevent Repetitive Strain Injuries
and I found some new things and applying them. But still when I see those late tasks and knowing that I was fired this makes me worry.
Plus I see in other team they look a lot at some colleagues productivity and complain how they slowly do things. I would not be surprised that one of them would be fired soon.
Now I am in a "good" company according to my friend. He says if the previous company fired me, that was bad company. Sounds weird to blame the company, since there are people who worked like 8 years. If that would be bad, they would not work for that long.
And I am afraid to relax now and forget the job after work day, I am thinking how else I could improve productivity but do not know how to find a good answer. I had read lot of articles on productivity, and when I read, I do not find new things.
I might be getting disctracted often by talking people in the office. It is so fun to listen. So it should be their fault if they disctract me by talking, but bosses might not care. Like if I am disctracted by others talking, its my problem and I might be fired.
But today I was not disctracted by talks as much, but still took lot of time.
It damn annoying
It would be so bad to be fired 2 times in a row, especially because in job interviews they ask - why did you leave the job. Usually people go to interviews while having old job and I might be suspicious.
Is the job the thing where I have to be like always focused 100 % besides breaks? Is that possible? I think no, I have heard stories that people do the minimum in the workplace to not get fired. But for me it looks that I do close to maximum. If I would force myself to not listen what others talk, probably it would be maximum.
I also tried to do bit overtime, but I get stressed by knowing that I will need to tell next morning what I did, and they might say - oh you did this so long time. And when I am stressed, my productivity gets worse. And so I decide to not do much overtime, because it might be worthless time spending.
I really do not wan to be fired and hardly get some shitty job and even from shitty job I might be fired like I was during first year of my carreer - had a bad job, and even there they fired me after like 9 months of working and again they said same reason - low productivity.
I learn new things, technologies. But no matter how much technologies I learn, looks like its not as important as productivity for them
I do not want to struggle like that all my life. I want to finally learn that secret so I never get complaints about productivity.
I want to program, I do not know what else could I do besides some shitty job. I would also like some things where I could use my brain, like forex, or stocks or poker or something like that alternative. But to learn to make money from them to support myself and maybe kids in future I am not sure if I am able.
Now I would be afraid to take a loan from bank for flat. I cannot have kids when I can be fired so soon. How my kids would live if I would not be able to find a job.
I hate that my friend said - of do not worry, programmers are on high demand. So if they are on high demand, then we should not be fired and should not get complaints about productivity. For him there is no such problems, and for him its easy to say.
And my friends are not studyting more after work I believe but they manage to be ok in the market. Why I am not able? I might be putting even more hours into study then them. But who the **** cares how much I study