Arsenal99 wrote: The problem is that I feel like iv achieved everything I need to in life,
....iv worked hard for the last 20 years and iv gone no where,
How do you reconcile the conflict in the above? You have achieved everything you need, but gone nowhere? No, you are full of cr*p. There are still things you want to achieve. You didn't work 20 years to achieve "nowhere". There is a difference between having what you need and having what you want. You are simply rationalizing to convince yourself of your own b.s.
Id like to go on my own terms.
Who doesn't? Of course we want to go out on our own terms. Most people want to go out peacefully, in their sleep after a long, full life. Most people make their peace and get their affairs in order.
So if you are an adult with sound mind and you are ready, then have at it, but have the courtesy to do it legally. I realize that might inconvenience you a bit, but it is preferable to being a jerk about it and having other people clean up what you leave behind. There are countries that allow euthanasia. If you are serious, then take the time to do your research and go through the process. That's the least you can do.