Journal: Not knowing why I am here!

Postby Zanoni » Tue May 09, 2017 8:16 am

08 May 2017
Song of the day - The Marshall Tucker Band - Can't You See

I got up at 7.30am. Took a shower. Made some breakfast. Got dressed. Drove to work. I did a goods day work from 9 to 5. After work I went for a long walk in the sun. I'm 32 years old. Male. Single. What to tell? What to talk about?

I cleaned the house. Went to bed around 9pm and dreamed about suicide.

My name is Zanoni and I am waiting for Mejnor.
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Postby Zanoni » Tue May 09, 2017 9:13 am

09 May 2017
Song of the day Supergrass - Pumping On Your Stereo

I got up at 7.30am. Took a shower. Made some breakfast. Got dressed. Drove to work. Still at work. I am still 32 years old. Still male. I live in UK. On a break.

Cause you can walk right by me, look right through me and never knoiw I'm there. Never even know!

Its a great day outside.

My name is whoever you want it to be.
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Postby Zanoni » Wed May 10, 2017 8:20 am

10 May 2017
Robbie Williams and Kylie Minogue - Kids

I got up at 7.30am. Took a shower. Made some breakfast. Got dressed. Drove to work.
Currently at work. I had a dream about suicide. Very graphic makes me sick thinking about it.

Maybe its a vision.

Who knows? Who cares?

Ban me!
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Postby Zanoni » Wed May 10, 2017 8:52 am

I want to die. That is the feeling I have.

I have no family or friends.

All I do is work!
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Postby Zanoni » Fri May 12, 2017 8:16 am

I don't have anything to live for. I have no reason to be alive. I've nothing real to say about my life.
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Postby Candid » Fri May 12, 2017 11:44 am

Zanoni wrote:I am still 32 years old.


Let me guess: you'll be 33 next month.

Still male.


Are you considering a change?

It's good to see you here, anyway. Keep writing!
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Postby Zanoni » Fri May 12, 2017 2:22 pm

I'll be 33 in December.

No I like being male.

Who the hell are you? Do you know me? I don't write much on here but I'll keep posting.
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Postby Candid » Sat May 13, 2017 12:06 pm

Zanoni wrote:Who the hell are you?


Just a long-term poster here.

Do you know me?


In a way yes, because we 'meet' a lot of depressed, lonely and demotivated people here. But I don't know you personally. Of course I don't.

If you simply want to express yourself here without feedback, that's fine. I felt empathy for your circumstances and thought you might like a hello.
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Postby HumanB » Sun May 14, 2017 11:04 pm

It's not too late to make new connections and find new loves/passions. For in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, love is as perennial as the grass (desiderata).
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Postby Zanoni » Mon May 15, 2017 10:16 am

What would those connections and passions be?

I've put in anextra shift at work. I've been really busy with sorting documents and filing. Management is very important at my place of work. I've been there 20 years. Some of the stories I could tell you. This one time I put Smyth under Smith...good times.
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Postby Candid » Mon May 15, 2017 10:37 am

Zanoni wrote: I've been there 20 years.


Since you were 12? Is it a family business?

This one time I put Smyth under Smith...good times.


Sweet indeed when we can get a kick out of our work, even if it's fleeting and involves an act of deliberate naughtiness. :D
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Postby Zanoni » Mon May 15, 2017 10:39 am

Sorry I meant 10 years. It fees like 20.

It was an honest mistake about the Smyth and Smith. My failed attempt at sarcasm.
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Postby Zanoni » Mon May 15, 2017 10:43 am

Because it won't make much sense to swithch folders as a joke knowing it would cause trouble later on when going to look for the right folder...so deliberate naughtiness No! Mistake Yes!

Looking back now what a story to tell. I use it as a pick up line. No sucess so far. I've other work stories but no one wants to listen. Sometimes I say I've a job and no one even cares to ask me what it is. Its odd or at least I find it to be odd.

Today I've paper work and numbers to crunch.

Mr Cellophane.
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Postby Candid » Mon May 15, 2017 10:57 am

It all sounds a bit dull when I know you have a good literary mind.
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Postby Zanoni » Mon May 15, 2017 10:59 am

Thats work. Just work. Work isdull. I can't describe bells and whistles when there isn't any.

Literary mind?
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