I created a new, whole person within me.What is wrong?

Postby tndgu » Sat Nov 18, 2017 6:35 pm

I am not a native English speaker, so, with all the apoligies, I would like to start my short-bit boring problem.

Some time ago I was in depression, I was lost. There were too many things, too many futures, voices in my head, what parents except from me, what the world and how I respond them. What would I like to do, did Kierkegaard knew that? I did stand up, and told myself, I am gonna make my life absolute, I am alive. I am in a magnificently huge universe, I am nothing but the uiverse. So I escaped. Left everything behind, my ex girlfriend, my education, all my friends, everything I got. I came to Iceland, to start a new life, I am not sure why I choose here, but my instincs told me that it is going to be amazing. Since I came to this country, I started using my second name which I never let people call me as, and I simply started learning everything from beginning. I have completely changed. I always had anger problems, now when I feel a bit nervous, I take a deep breathe, and focus the air comes through my lungs as meditation taught me, and remember that I am alive. Then I smile, and accept everything happened in the past. I am for some people "the most calm person ever" they met. I remember how I did act my girlfriends, now completely opposite. I truly don't care what they think about me, I just say what I think and be completely honest, and not feeling jealous of them, anyway we can not "have" people. We can only share the life together if they also ask for it. So everytime I am with her, everysecond, I am appericiated to universe letting me experience what is love. It was not me. It's a strange feeling, My problem is written so far already complicated and mixed little bit, just like my mind, so I am not sure If I can explain it very good; I feel like me, now, was feeding inside old me and finally escaped. I kind of did beat my trauvmas, childhood, pains and cut through them, threw them out of my life, I had to be still the same kid, the world, humans, psychology should not affect me. I have the ability and genetics of surviving from my ancestors, I would somehow survive, since they survived.

I truly wanted to change, and did work hard for it, I carried a notebook and wrote my bad habbits there, what I should have said yesterday and didn't to not do it again in the future, anyway I will forget and continue living there is no need to hurt other people feelings or make drama. Now, I am happy by being who am I. But, the personality I left behind, the voice,face, my first name, is still somewhere there. Few days ago I really got mad to someone and lost myself, while I was talking with myself I said, "Are they really want to meet with real me?"

Small things let me discover my journey out of myself, for example when I talk to my ex girlfriend, whome I didn't write for years because I was angry and disappointed of of myself that I gave such love for nothing, sacreficed etc. Now I don't feel any of those things, I ask how she is, if she is okay and happy, then there is nothing to talk about, nothing to remember from past and affect now, as a first message, I told her how ignorant I was and acted her in a way that I shouldn't, I didn't even remember what she did to me, doesn't matter I thought. What matter is what I have done. Now, I feel like I seperated my consicuosness being and human being, and I let my consicuosness take the control.

But there is something still wrong, old me, who loved the darkest rooms, the nightlife, cigarettes, alcohol, still there, and I feel it. I completely act his opposite, I lost weight, choose a healthy life, I do excersise, haven't got drunk since a year. I can control myself. But this change... My entire life, since childhood, I never wanted to sleep. Because stars were there, shining and are alive. The moon was happy, so was I. I lied to myself, it wasn't the night itself I did love, it was the silence in the streets, people were sleeping and I was safe. my whole life, I stayed awake during nights, and woke up as late as I could. I always had problems of not attending the school, work because of my night habbits. Now? I want to wake up early to see the sun, breathe and do my yoga. First thing I go to work, see my oldest college(70yr) and I hug her, and say "today is beutiful.". Last year, same day I kept telling myself, "Another shitty day, just like yesterday."

The problem is, I don't think about past now, sometimes future. Mostly now. Since I focus on now, and anytime my brain reminds me past, I realize how far I did change, and realize that it terrifies me at the same time, makes me proud of myself and I am doing good, I asked for it, and got it. Then this feeling comes... Am I insane? Am I losing myself? If this is a stance of a psychological sickness, what would it be?

Do you think am I actually not changed, just tricking myself? Or acting like I have changed, but actually aware of everything?
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Postby quietvoice » Sun Nov 19, 2017 1:31 pm

Your thoughts create your experience of life. When you think a thought, and believe that thought, and create a scheme of thinking around that thought, in those moments, you are creating the experience of those thoughts.

That of which you are conscious is your reality for you.

You may want to do an Internet search for "Three Principles" which are Mind, Thought, and Consciousness.
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Postby kyrani99 » Mon Nov 20, 2017 9:43 am

Hi tngdu,
from reading what you have written, I would not say you have created any new personality. Rather you have escaped from people, who are related to you in various way, eg relatives, friends, co-workers, who have covertly abused you, so that you have become angry and sought to self-medicate with alcohol to overcome the distress you felt.

If you want to understand how these foul games are played you can view this series of 5 videos (1hr 40mins total)here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nxUl19 ... AuxWZ2DzEg

In these 5 videos I discuss all aspects of the foul games that are played, how inhumane people relate to humane people and how a humane person can overcome their problems and suffering. Breaking bad relationships and having no more contact with inhumane people is a very necessary step to take to regain your equanimity and health, both mental and physical.

If you re-establish contact with people from your past, they may try to affect you in the present. Inhumane people are all networked and there are networks of networks, so with some contact number, they can find you again and continue to adversely affect you. Once you have cut your ties, you need to not look back.

So the verdict is you have found the real you!
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Postby quietvoice » Mon Nov 20, 2017 12:57 pm

Inhumane people are all networked and there are networks of networks, so with some contact number, they can find you again and continue to adversely affect you.

Amazing statement. All of them are networked to each other?
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Postby kyrani99 » Wed Nov 22, 2017 2:43 am

quietvoice wrote:
Inhumane people are all networked and there are networks of networks, so with some contact number, they can find you again and continue to adversely affect you.

Amazing statement. All of them are networked to each other?


It does sound incredible and it did to me too, when I first heard it. I have since found that what I was told though does add up from my own experiences as an activist. Most people do not see what an activist sees because they are not so actively targeted.

What I was told was that the inhumane people, like humane people, have a circle of friends BUT the friends of the inhumane are their partners in crime. This arises out of necessity. To trouble another person many like-minded people are needed. Some approach the person and befriend them. This gains them relationship, which enables ESP. It gains them trust, which allows them to become close to the person and thus gain access. And most importantly it gains them information about the person. Personal information is freely exchanged among friends. So the false friends gains the ammunition, which is used covertly to hurt the person.

A circle of friends is a network. So how are these networks linked. They are linked owing to the way humans live. People don't stay in the one place all of their lives. They may move house from one side of town to another or to another city and sometimes even to another country. Those people, who are inhumane and who want to gain power and influence over others around them, need like-minded friends. Thus they look around for people like them and soon become part of a new network. As such they become hubs between the old network and the new one.

If a humane person moves away and breaks their ties with all the people they left behind they are like to, at least for a time, live without being covertly troubled, manipulated and exploited etc. Of course they will eventually be befriended by an inhumane person or two. Don't forget the inhumane look for people to trouble and hurt in order to get their narcissistic supply, i.e., to get pleasure from seeing the pain and suffering of another person or persons.

If however the person makes contact with anyone they have left behind, they can be easily targeted again. This happens if they give away information about where they are or where they work etc., i.e., personal information. But even a phone number can be traced. It won't happen over night but eventually, using hubs, they can finally find one or two people, who can approach the "target" as they say, to again trouble them and cause problems in their life. And it may be done for revenge, i.e., for having moved away from them, but it is most often done for "fun and games".

I first noticed this when I left Cairns, where I had moved for work, back to my home town of Sydney. I had left behind, people I thought at the time, were "bad influences". To my surprise several of them contacted me as they knew my Sydney number and a couple even made the effort to come to Sydney to try to see me. I rejected them and they were no longer able to adversely affect me.

However with the benefit of hindsight, I now realised that it was inhumane relatives and false friends, who had initially acted against me. I had innocently told them where I was going, where I would be working etc., not realising they were inhumane. This gave them information that enabled them to find people in Cairns, whom I had only seen as bad influences, and thus cause me some serious problems, including health problems. In fact serious efforts were made (and are still being made) to destroy my life.

JFK was absolutely right, way back in April 27, 1961, when he said "for we are opposed around the world by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy". It is in a sense monolithic, in that though there are no leaders and no signed up memberships, they are all "like-minded" and committed to the same codes of behaviour. That is to say all of them have no conscience and lack empathy. And all of them are committed to use, abuse and hurt other people around them. And for a variety of reasons.

High on the list is what they call "the quintessential", i.e., their narcissistic supply, then there is the reason, which they justify as "needed to manage their lives". This reason is to gain power and influence over all those with whom they have significant or significant enough relationships. Through gaining power and influence, they are able to manipulate and control others in relationship.

Then there are the reason of revenge or "making someone go away permanently", i.e., essentially killing but underhandedly so it is not apparent, perhaps for the purpose of taking their spouse or for an inheritance etc.. You can view my videos on how they operate, if you are interested here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nxUl19 ... AuxWZ2DzEg There are 5 videos, in which I discuss all aspects of the foul game play.

These days however, and for some decades past, there is a quiet war being waged by the inhumane against the humane. So this is a significant reason why they may act to trouble or even kill if they can, another person or persons. Events like 9/11 could only be orchestrated by such networks of networks, while all the time remaining both silent and invisible to the public.
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Postby laureat » Wed Nov 22, 2017 4:44 am

We donnot create new person
But we learn new ways
We learn how to
We feel more loved
We feel better
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Postby kyrani99 » Thu Nov 23, 2017 2:26 am

@ laureat,
You can lead a horse to water,
but you can't make it drink!
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Postby quietvoice » Thu Nov 23, 2017 5:59 am

kyrani99 wrote:These days however, and for some decades past, there is a quiet war being waged by the inhumane against the humane.

**One aspect of the war, the greatest and most important aspect of it, is teaching our so-called experts the wrong way to live in regards to health.**

We are the only species that cooks our food. This is the downfall of man. (There are also four other ways we do our food wrong.) We should be eating a raw vegan diet, and if a large enough number of people in this world did live correctly by way of diet, this world would be a different place by far. We are dumbed down and kept sick through our food, and this is done by design, with an untold number of references through advertising and, again, the teaching of our experts, keeping us from the true knowledge. (See the John Rose YouTube channel.)

Would love to hear your view on this, kyrani99.

kyrani99 wrote:Events like 9/11 could only be orchestrated by such networks of networks, while all the time remaining both silent and invisible to the public.

Are you aware of the concept of media fakery, by which I mean that what was seen on the television (tell-lie-vision) regarding this event on that day and since was/is in essence a Hollywood production, figuratively speaking?
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Postby kyrani99 » Thu Nov 23, 2017 1:32 pm

quietvoice wrote:
kyrani99 wrote:These days however, and for some decades past, there is a quiet war being waged by the inhumane against the humane.

**One aspect of the war, the greatest and most important aspect of it, is teaching our so-called experts the wrong way to live in regards to health.**

We are the only species that cooks our food. This is the downfall of man. (There are also four other ways we do our food wrong.) We should be eating a raw vegan diet, and if a large enough number of people in this world did live correctly by way of diet, this world would be a different place by far. We are dumbed down and kept sick through our food, and this is done by design, with an untold number of references through advertising and, again, the teaching of our experts, keeping us from the true knowledge. (See the John Rose YouTube channel.)

Would love to hear your view on this, kyrani99.

Hi, Quietvoice,
I tried to listen to several of his videos. I did find them hard to follow, maybe because of his accent and maybe because he says everything in the same excited voice.

To me, he is a typical New Ager. There is a perception that "we are all one" and that for every ailment we need to look at what we do and eat and think etc. I don't agree with this view. Though I do agree that what we eat does have an effect. However from the time I was a teenager, through my twenties and thirties, I drank coca-cola medicinally! I had an alkaline stomach and the doctor asked me "what makes it better" I told him coca-cola, which made him jerk.

I told him that I drank a family size bottle of coke with lunch and dinner and a medium sized one for breakfast although in later years I only had coffee for breakfast. He laughed and said "don't quote me, but if coke does it then continue using it. I was just going to prescribe a different acid". So the drink most people say is one of the worst did me good! Hence I am not a fanatic on food but I do appreciate food is important.

We are in many and various relationships with others. Some are humane and some are inhumane, meaning they lack empathy and treat others like objects. I have found their methods of influencing other people is to affect their thinking. This means relationship, which enables telepathy. What we think are our own thoughts are often not our own thoughts as in thoughts we have called forth from the Mind. Some thoughts are only the perceptions of suggestions made by related others. This is critical to health. And these "thoughts" (perceptions really) are cunningly made.

For example years ago a very good friend of mine was attacked and she ended up with cancer that killed her in six months. She told me that there were mates of her boss's coming into the office while he was away and stressing her. And she kept saying "they're ramming it down my throat." At the time I accepted this as her thought. But later in thinking about it, and especially when I had seen some of the same people try to adversely influence me, I realised the idea was presented to her in a way that would seem like her own assessment of the situation.

They then used this idea, which she was accepting as true, creatively in presenting ideas of something being rammed down her throat. And she developed oesophageal cancer that then spread very quickly as more an more issues were created.

Since my friend passed, I have been working as an activist for Justice, to expose the foul games and the people who play them. It is about 20 years now and from the word "go", I have come under attack by many people. All of them used this same sort of methods. I have overcome incredible odds because it is not that I too didn't develop cancer. There were 8 episodes including the first one before my friend got sick.

In all cases I overcome them and had remissions. The first two I did not understand why but had taken intuitive moves. Then with the third one I decided to throw caution to the wind and used it to investigate what was going on in my body. I had had the advantage of having mastered well enough Vipassana or Insight Meditation many years earlier. What I discovered was that what we think and feel are the keys to how our body reacts and responds.

I have started to make some videos to help others have spontaneous remission of cancer. Here is the gist of what I found https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owoFpAzBock&t=928s You will need to start it at the beginning. I haven't worked out yet how to do this, sorry. Maybe you know and you can help me get it right. Has it something to do with the link?

quietvoice wrote:
kyrani99 wrote:Events like 9/11 could only be orchestrated by such networks of networks, while all the time remaining both silent and invisible to the public.

Are you aware of the concept of media fakery, by which I mean that what was seen on the television (tell-lie-vision) regarding this event on that day and since was/is in essence a Hollywood production, figuratively speaking?


Yes media fakery is for sure a part of deceiving the public. The problem is not only that there are those "elitists" at the top, who own the media outlets. There are also those of the subculture, who are employed. This is not only in the media. A lot of government bodies as well as large businesses suffer the same problem.

The inhumane of the subculture, covertly trouble those who are humane, and thus either force them into a mould or force them out of a job. And it is all done by causing emotional problems, which sometimes eventuate to physical disease. So then the affected person is blamed for the anxiety or depression etc., and thus are either deemed unfit for work or "disciplined". That is to say that if they speak up about anything, they get a bout of worsened depression or an anxiety attack. Hence to be able to function and keep their job a lot of people go along with the what whatever is happening, whether they agree or not. And of course don't speak up, because that brings on more health problems.

We can win against this. That is what I am working for. To help every humane person understand what underhanded games are played and how they are being affected. That knowledge enables a humane person to recover/ retain their health AND become vocal. We can win against it. :D
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Postby quietvoice » Thu Nov 23, 2017 1:55 pm

kyrani99 wrote:I don't agree with this view. Though I do agree that what we eat does have an effect. However from the time I was a teenager, through my twenties and thirties, I drank coca-cola medicinally! I had an alkaline stomach . . .

Are you eating cooked foods? That is the downfall of man. How raw in your eating are you? That is what would have and still can take of your stomach, eating raw. John talks of trying out on a temporary basis a "solid food vacation" which is a period on raw juices only. Then you will find out for yourself what raw can do for you. It's easier than eating raw, and easier than fasting. It will do you a world of good . . . you are what you eat.

No matter if you don't. Those that are ready to hear this will do it and find out for themselves, and the rest will look on and ask them "How did you come to look and be so healthy and vibrant?"
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Postby kyrani99 » Thu Nov 23, 2017 2:30 pm

quietvoice wrote:
kyrani99 wrote:I don't agree with this view. Though I do agree that what we eat does have an effect. However from the time I was a teenager, through my twenties and thirties, I drank coca-cola medicinally! I had an alkaline stomach . . .

Are you eating cooked foods? That is the downfall of man.


I am a woman. And I eat cooked food. On a serious note, the body is not a machine. The body is purpose-driven. Thoughts are the source of everything. Food is only fuel and some repair materials.

quietvoice wrote:How raw in your eating are you? That is what would have and still can take of your stomach, eating raw. John talks of trying out on a temporary basis a "solid food vacation" which is a period on raw juices only. Then you will find out for yourself what raw can do for you. It's easier than eating raw, and easier than fasting. It will do you a world of good . . . you are what you eat.

No matter if you don't. Those that are ready to hear this will do it and find out for themselves, and the rest will look on and ask them "How did you come to look and be so healthy and vibrant?"


Hi Quietvoice.
The coca-cola was only medicine not a cure. The cure was a long overdue action. I took distance from some of my relatives, who I later realised were inhumane. "Toxic" wouldn't even say the half of it. I have since ditched them all. So my stomach has been good now for the last 30 years. It was due to stress and not any food. I am getting close to 70 and have never been in better health! And I am up against a cyclone's worth of inhumane people.

I eat some cooked and some raw. I eat fruit raw. I eat meat, fish and most vegies cooked. And what about cheese? It is raw milk really, though if it is pasteurised, I guess it is cooked. Bread is cooked. Toast I like charred with two heaped tablespoons worth of butter, one for each side!

I can understand that you are getting good benefits from eating raw. But I am getting good benefits from eating some cooked and some raw.

Thank you for your information and the videos. I will watch more of them when I get more time. Enjoy your good health, as I enjoy mine! :)
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Postby HumanB » Thu Nov 23, 2017 3:10 pm

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_p ... paranormal

Strangely enough no-one has been able to claim ANY of the mountains of cash on offer for merely demonstrating telepathy or any ESP. I guess that must be part of the conspiracy? And no credible scientific evidence for telepathy... also conspiracy? How else could it be explained?

Also not sure why you are quoting JFK, as he was refering to the cold war, with communism/communists.

Did you draw your own graphics (in the videos)?
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