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#30

Postby George from UK » Wed Apr 25, 2018 11:41 am

I'm so lucky to even have a driving licence still to be honest. I've been going out driving while drunk. The police followed me into asda car park the other day while drunk, i thought i was defo screwed at that point

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Postby George from UK » Wed Apr 25, 2018 4:42 pm

Just had a cry, i feel i little stupid for typing this but i hope when i read this back in years to come it'll help to keep me sober

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#32

Postby George from UK » Wed Apr 25, 2018 7:22 pm

I was so fed up of constantly relapsing on weed and alcohol i remember the other night drunk praying to god to let me die in my sleep and never to wake up again

This all might seem like babble but i'm just getting these thoughts and memories down for future record

Hopefully it can help inspire others also reading this

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Postby tokeless » Thu Apr 26, 2018 9:59 am

Hopefully it can help inspire others also reading this

Try doing things for you George because this is all about you. The drunk driving is your wake up call. Manslaughter will last long after you get sober... Heed the warning.
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#34

Postby George from UK » Thu Apr 26, 2018 10:37 am

DAY 6

Hi everyone. So day 6 and i still couldn't manage to get up for work. Feeling aweful. guilt. I feel cold sweaty clammy.

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#35

Postby tokeless » Thu Apr 26, 2018 10:41 am

Are you alcohol dependent? Could be withdrawal if so.
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#36

Postby George from UK » Thu Apr 26, 2018 10:55 am

tokeless wrote:Are you alcohol dependent? Could be withdrawal if so.


No i didn't drink everyday. I feel like iv'e got no energy. All i do all day is sit in my room drinking tea and orange juice smoking cigarettes feeling down

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Postby George from UK » Thu Apr 26, 2018 10:55 am

tokeless wrote:Hopefully it can help inspire others also reading this

Try doing things for you George because this is all about you. The drunk driving is your wake up call. Manslaughter will last long after you get sober... Heed the warning.


Thankyou!

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#38

Postby George from UK » Thu Apr 26, 2018 11:10 am

I haven't left my home in days. Just can't face the world. I need to get up for work tomorrow else i'll be letting people down again and again and again!

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#39

Postby George from UK » Thu Apr 26, 2018 12:28 pm

I let down a brand new customer today. I just phoned them with an excuse. They were understanding. Which makes me feel even more guilty

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#40

Postby George from UK » Thu Apr 26, 2018 12:34 pm

I can't remember the last time i showered. Maybe 6 or 7 days ago!?

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#41

Postby George from UK » Thu Apr 26, 2018 4:53 pm

I've managed to start eating food again the last couple of days. Yesterday i had two rustlers burgers, the day before i had a sunday dinner And today I've just eaten a chicken Tikka microwave meal. Day 7 tomorrow!

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#42

Postby George from UK » Fri Apr 27, 2018 1:36 pm

DAY 6

.. Off of weed and alcohol. Just got back from work. It's the first day iv'e managed to get out of bed to go to work. My mental state is picking up. Less guilt etc.

I hope everyone is getting better too?

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#43

Postby George from UK » Fri Apr 27, 2018 6:11 pm

George from UK wrote:DAY 6

.. Off of weed and alcohol. Just got back from work. It's the first day iv'e managed to get out of bed to go to work. My mental state is picking up. Less guilt etc.

I hope everyone is getting better too?

George


Typo... I'm actually on DAY 7. Not DAY 6.

P.S. Is there anyway to edit my posts instead of having to make a new post all the time?

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Postby George from UK » Sat Apr 28, 2018 7:18 am

DAY 8

....Off weed and alcohol. It's saturday, day off work. I got out of bed at a reasonable hour. 8 am. I'll add more soon

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