Dear God, the amount of times I've told myself 'I'll feel better in the tomorrow' and NEVER f***ing did!!! pardon my frech but I swear a lot more since getting GAD, I quite enjoy it. I have read a lot of blogs on cipralex so thought I would share my knowledge. I was on 10mg two years ago and it did work for me, however I felt slightly bad a year ago andwent up to 20mg. The side effects were horrible and I cried for days and didn't know why and that is the scariest thing in the world. After a couple of months i could really tell the difference and of course 6 months later, felt ver cocky, to the point of coming off them. They were reat, however sometimes even after having a great nights sleep I would feel tired, as an insomniac this is just no good. I thought I was ready to come off so I went down to 10mg and then to 5mg and then went back to the doctors with my anxious tail between my legs and said 'MAYBE I'M NOT READY'. I went back on 10mg but didn't really do much so I've gone back up to 15mg (are you still with me?) and right now, even afetr 8 hours sleep, I am f***ing drained, ratty, moody, scared and my eyes won;t focus, however, I suffer in the knowledge that in a couple weeks, I'll feel invincable again!. Oh and another quick note, don't feel ashamed or intimidated by a doctor, they all sh** and wipe their own backsides so don't take crap from any of them. I have been dicked around by so many and put up with it beacuse I was depressed and thought I porbably deserved, until one day I was sat crying in in the surgery and the nurse said 'it's just something you'll have to live with' I was begging for sleeping pills beacuse I had my dissertation and I needed to sleep and she said 'no, they're not good for you' so I looked at her and said 'do you have insomnia, deppression or anxiety' to which she said 'no' I said, 'well find me a doctor who has' 5 minutes later I had my sleeping pills, the doctor explained I shouldn;t beon them long term, but he understood what an acomplishment it was for me to finish university with this dreaded disease.
This has helped me in a great way.... whether yo are religious or not, there is a book by DOREEN VIRTUE Called ANGEL THERAPY and it is amazing, simply beautiful. It has helped me through some very tough nights and days, and before I stop whittering on, just remember, there was a time when we slept well, weren't anxious or depressed and that will come again. So hang on people I don;t know but feel we share more than I do with most of my friends, beacuse everyday is another day closer to being better x