noganja
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Joined: 07 Jul 2010
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Sat Jul 24, 2010 9:14 pm
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3 weeks! Longest i've gone without weed in 20 years!
First week or two was hardest. So much easier now.
Only problem i have now is dealing with crazy, vivid dreams.
Stay strong & positive my fellow quitters.
Keep active. Go for walks. Go to library. Read books.
Treat yourself with money you save.
Weed is not necessary for a productive "happy" life. |
Nelson80
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Joined: 30 Dec 2008
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Sun Jul 25, 2010 1:47 am
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So I am on day number 6 for the third time in two years. I've got to say this is absolutely boring! I know from the past that it will get better but really sucks dealing with this much boredom. Good thing is that I am much more (but not normally) motivated to do normal life things again which is pretty good. Regular life is a good thing to be motivated about. I've also quit drinking as well, while it was not as rampant as my weed addiction it was still an issue. For the first time in my attempts I have sought out professional assistance - I think it will help and keep me on track. Personally I find the initial phase of quiting weed to be the easiest. For me it was always the long term that I had trouble with. Once I was motivated to get off I could do it with relative ease, despite the withdrawal symptoms I just white-knuckled my way through it. After a few months or so and seeing that there was still some type of void missing in my life I figured I would go back to doing it "once in a while". Well that ALWAYS will turn back into your previous usage patterns from my experience and from reading of other peoples experience. Me seeking professional help this time is to try to figure out what this void is, where it comes from and how I can make it go away so I can get on with my life. This bouncing between using and not using is terrible. When I'm high I don't want to be and when I'm not I want to be. Very weird. Anyway, that ramble was comparable to a weed ramble, but trust me - no weed behind this one. Anyway, yeah - six days and bored as ****.
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Leeeds
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Joined: 28 Jul 2010
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Wed Jul 28, 2010 5:14 pm
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2 months in now.. Ive taken a few breaks before, but they was awhile back..
All i can say is, now i definitely don't wanna get back into it. While smoking it, i never found it completely ruined me in ways that people would look down at me as a complete waster, i was still able to go out work, go to university, play plenty of sports, hit the gym, etc.. you get the picture.
However i wasted plenty of money on it, missed out on holidays, never could settle down long enough with girl, as id rather smoke a bowl, have a spliff..
The best advice i can give you is, don't smoke it. It may be nice to take your problems away, chill to a film to, play games with, but really it's not. It's just a complete waste in my eyes, if you can't have it as something you do on special occasions, once in awhile.. It will just keep adding to your problems, trust me.
Before i smoked it, i had a really good relationship going, i was getting good grades, i had money to travel, hell i actually money in my bank every day for when i wanted to do something. Well for the 6 years I've been smoking it, I've missed out on a hell of a lot of things. I messed up my courses at college, never hit the grades i should of been. Failed 2 years in a row at university, as all i did was smoke up, and miss too many lessons. Id normally hit a spliff before i attempted my work, yet afterward never got round to it.
After reading what people had to say here and a few other places, i realized i have very similar situations to the rest of you guys. All i wish now is that i could gone back in time, stay with those girls i never bothered with, visited those places i had the chance to and bought those things i wanted.
I'm not in such a bad way now, and could easily aim to reach those goals again. However if i fall back into the smoking it every routine, ill once again loose those oppurtunites and the next thing you know ill be in my late 3x, working the odd dead end job (Not saying that's a bad thing) but just depressing over the things i could of done, if i never picked up that stuff again.
The only thing is even though i truly believe I'm on the right track now, i still feel I've lost a lot of confidence in myself. So telling you guys this, may just help with getting it out. Even when you quit, your still going to need to give yourself that extra push again. I've decided I'm going back to University, I'm pushing to play more sports again after a recent injury, this time without weed. I'm gonna give this next girl a shot with a relationship, even if she isn't the one. I'm going to work and save, and start traveling again. I really do miss the person i used to be without weed, although i also appreciate many of things cannabis has helped me with.
It does have its benefits, only those benefits slowly start to turn into disadvantages. I'm not sure if what i've wrote has made much sense, or even helped anyone. I just hope maybe someone had a similar situation to me, like i did when reading things here and decides to quit this nasty habit. |
GreenSince17
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Joined: 23 Jul 2010
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Thu Jul 29, 2010 12:42 am
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17 years on, 1 month off. Pride is wrong.
who am I? 'Why' is the problem now. Weed is not the enemy. I battle my soul.
Kudos to all of you off for fractions of time on, but me, I now fear myself. Longest time off in my time but the void is deepening. Instrospection, unresolved emotions, all the reasons I stayed on for 17 years, clarity isn't my ally.. half my life burnt. but I wanted it that way. The physical pain will disipate, but the internal flaw remains unhealed...what recourse>? drink? who am I?
Will power intact, but for what? devoid of emotion, nadir now...fear, angst. Who is there? Solo flight through the storm.
the void is cold.
thank you all for your posts. I find sanctuary here...from myself. |
DazedRob
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Joined: 04 Jun 2010
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Thu Jul 29, 2010 5:55 pm
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Lifestyle change is the only answer. It’s a new life post weed days and you have many tools in hand, like time, clear mind. Thing need to improve and change to sustain and appreciate this state. But it’s on us to do that, to put effort and take responsibility. Quitting is just one part of healing process. At least I realized this after several unsuccessful attempts. |
DazedRob
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Joined: 04 Jun 2010
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Thu Jul 29, 2010 6:00 pm
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quote:
Originally posted by GreenSince17
17 years on, 1 month off. Pride is wrong.
who am I? 'Why' is the problem now. Weed is not the enemy. I battle my soul.
Kudos to all of you off for fractions of time on, but me, I now fear myself. Longest time off in my time but the void is deepening. Instrospection, unresolved emotions, all the reasons I stayed on for 17 years, clarity isn't my ally.. half my life burnt. but I wanted it that way. The physical pain will disipate, but the internal flaw remains unhealed...what recourse>? drink? who am I?
Will power intact, but for what? devoid of emotion, nadir now...fear, angst. Who is there? Solo flight through the storm.
the void is cold.
thank you all for your posts. I find sanctuary here...from myself.
Great.. Keep it up!! |
noganja
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Thu Jul 29, 2010 8:28 pm
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This last week has been hard.
I've been smoking a lot of cigarettes & drinking most evenings.
The major problem is vivid, disturbing dreams, often apocalyptic.
How long will these dreams go on for?
I think i'd rather smoke some weed at nights than continue like this.
Anyone got any advice? Any help would be appreciated. |
Leeeds
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Joined: 28 Jul 2010
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Thu Jul 29, 2010 9:26 pm
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quote:
Originally posted by noganja
This last week has been hard.
I've been smoking a lot of cigarettes & drinking most evenings.
The major problem is vivid, disturbing dreams, often apocalyptic.
How long will these dreams go on for?
I think i'd rather smoke some weed at nights than continue like this.
Anyone got any advice? Any help would be appreciated.
i've had a few weird dreams like, from what i remember they go on for a few weeks, maybe a month. Mine are very uncommon, like once every other night.. One thing that is annoying me, is my sleep pattern. Then again it was no better when smoking it.
Don't give in mate, i know it sounds hard as you like the rest of are trying to get off it. One main thing id recommend is going for a night run in the night time, play some relaxing music.. have a shower before you crash. Just remember it will eventually go away, keep it up! |
noganja
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Fri Jul 30, 2010 11:04 pm
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Thanks for your encouragement Leeeds. (I used to live in Leeds UK).
Since i gave up my 28 year ganja habit a month ago i have been smoking loads of cigarettes & drinking most evenings, so i have'nt really saved that much money.
I've also been having 2 or 3 very disturbing dreams a night for past week.
Now i think i'd rather be a ganja addict who gets a good nights sleep, than a nicotine & alcohol addict who can't sleep without nightmares. (lesser of two evils?)
This has always been the reason i started smoking weed again the other times i've tried to quit.
I really dont want to discourage other quitters on this forum (there have been many succesful quitters here) but it does'nt seem to be working for me.
Also my partner & baby step-daughter will be leaving the country in 2 months, so i ain't really got a good reason to quit.
Looks like i'm going to leave this body in a haze of ganja smoke (the sooner the better). |
polrg11
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Joined: 09 Jan 2008
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Sat Jul 31, 2010 2:42 pm
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hey no ganja.....the dreams will pass and get easier...even enjoyablemine took 3 to four weeks before they dstarted getting bearablr. i have been there. Replacing the dope with smoking and drinking, well, it aint the best thign to do but i for one wouldnt blame u too miuch, im sure u have enough sence to npt exchange one addcition for another. Good going mate!!!!!!!!!!hang on in there. and yea, the dreams are bad, they made me relapse a few timrs, and when u get REM rebound from stopping the dope, i think ur mind is busy while u dream, so u wake up tired...but then im no slepp doc. but hang on in there!!!!!
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polrg11
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Joined: 09 Jan 2008
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Sat Jul 31, 2010 3:02 pm
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um people....i really like the idea of counting how much money i wud save when i give up dope, but theres a thought at the back of my head thinking, well, if i gave up for a month, that would sort me out with enough cash for a weekend trip to amsterdam. do uthik that is a good goal?or just me fooling myslf? |
noganja
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Mon Aug 02, 2010 11:05 am
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Thanks for responding to my last post fluke. How are you doing?
Well, i made it to day 30 without any weed.
The vivid dreams have not been so bad last couple of days.
Now i just got to try and stay off the alcohol and nicotene. |
whoopsadaisyangel
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Joined: 08 Feb 2010
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Mon Aug 02, 2010 12:30 pm
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noganja you made it through those dark days - are you feeling proud of yourself? I think we all go through the should I or shouldn't I question. A numbers of times I did and caved in. This time I haven't and neither have you - nice one! |
sTuPiD HeAd
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Joined: 09 Jul 2010
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Mon Aug 02, 2010 5:50 pm
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4 weeks...
dreams are back. I quite enjoy them.
the only sad thing is that I am now constantly stuffed up. When i smoked weed I could always blow my nose. I am living in the same dry climate as I was before I smoked. |
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