anxious42 wrote:Slaugh, After I got bullied, I felt bad, frustrated, afraid and a very few times angry. Sometimes I was just relieved that the episode was over and tried to get busy in something. I got some support from some friends when they knew what was happening but I did not tell anyone myself. My parents and probably the teachers never knew about it or thought that it was just normal.
These feelings you had, did you ever react to them? You say you felt frustrated, bad, angry sometimes, did you act out your anger and fought back? If yes, what was the response from the bullies and people around you.
If not, can you tell me what it was that held you back reacting?
I believe that anger is an emotion felt by human beings when there is another emotion which is far more difficlut to feel and acknowledge and I wonder what feelings that could have been for you.
When a child learns very early in life that it can not fight back the child begins to feel helpless. When then no one helps the child, the feelings of hopelessness can arise.
You said that this bullying went on for quite sometime and I wonder whether through this bullying your view of the world and people in it had changed and you took this view, behaviour, thoughtpatterns and the feelings through to adulthood.