Hi, I know what this feels like. One time (of many) I went to the doc's and was very anxious and had a BP of 209/92 during a near panic attack and HR of 160 at the time. So whenever, thereafter, I had to get BP taken, I freaked out in fear that it would be that high again. Sure enough, my BP readings were very high, for example 169/116 etc. So even while at home, i would have panic doing it because I was still scared. So one day my husband said, "Why don't you stop taking your BP?" It was like a lightbulb went on. Sure enough I stopped and relaxed about it and TRIED not to think about it. I work at a hospital, so everytime I passed a BP machine, I would even start to panic. Long story short, I have very fast heartrates, and one day (of many) I ended up the ER. There they put me on a blood pressure med to control my Heartrate and it ended up calming me down, in addition to other meds for anxiety. So now it's only mildly high at the doc's as long as I don't panic, but I still get anxious--even days before the appointment sometimes. I feel better once I get one or more good readings at the doc's. Then my fear of it gets to be less. Hope this helps.