Megan thanks for writing what you did. The residue even after many many years is so sad. I still feel hurt (turned into anger) about my dad. We were never allowed to talk about it, no counciling...nothing. Same with my husband. He was 13 when his mom hung herself.
We ended up working on healing together. Then we take a nice walk along a beach and find this other woman in her car
! I had to hold her hand through the broken window while my husband ran for help, 45 minutes later the help came. It brought it all back for a review. I cried so hard that I collapsed on the beach.
With the lady, she had no idea what we all went through to rescue her. My husband ran down a desolate beach, round trip was 3 miles. 2 helicopters came and landed on a dangerous beach with a sheer cliff, around 7 rescuers came down the beach. Then there was all of the emotional turmoil. When she got out of the hospital she called and told us she was broke and asked us what we both did for a living. No "thank you's" nothing. We both felt so flat and sick to our stomachs. I actually felt hatred towards her until I dug deep and found what was really going on.
There really is no closure in that situation. I can only speak for myself and my husband, the guilt, sadness, and anger a suicide leaves behind has been hard to recover from, we feel bewildered and shocked. We both never got a chance to understand "why"??? they did it (attempt in my dads case).
All around it is the worse experience for everyone involved....