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The maximum allowed filesize set in php.ini could not be determined. [AVATAR_PHP_SIZE_OVERRUN] => The avatar’s filesize is too large. The maximum allowed upload size is %1$d %2$s.
Please note this is set in php.ini and cannot be overridden. [AVATAR_URL_INVALID] => The URL you specified is invalid. [AVATAR_URL_NOT_FOUND] => The file specified could not be found. [AVATAR_WRONG_FILESIZE] => The avatar’s filesize must be between 0 and %1d %2s. [AVATAR_WRONG_SIZE] => The submitted avatar is %5$d pixels wide and %6$d pixels high. Avatars must be at least %1$d pixels wide and %2$d pixels high, but no larger than %3$d pixels wide and %4$d pixels high. [BACK_TO_TOP] => Top [BACK_TO_PREV] => Back to previous page [BAN_TRIGGERED_BY_EMAIL] => A ban has been issued on your e-mail address. [BAN_TRIGGERED_BY_IP] => A ban has been issued on your IP address. [BAN_TRIGGERED_BY_USER] => A ban has been issued on your username. [BBCODE_GUIDE] => BBCode guide [BCC] => BCC [BIRTHDAYS] => Birthdays [BOARD_BAN_PERM] => You have been permanently banned from this board.

Please contact the %2$sBoard Administrator%3$s for more information. [BOARD_BAN_REASON] => Reason given for ban: %s [BOARD_BAN_TIME] => You have been banned from this board until %1$s.

Please contact the %2$sBoard Administrator%3$s for more information. [BOARD_DISABLE] => Sorry but this board is currently unavailable. [BOARD_DISABLED] => This board is currently disabled. [BOARD_UNAVAILABLE] => Sorry but the board is temporarily unavailable, please try again in a few minutes. [BROWSING_FORUM] => Users browsing this forum: %1$s [BROWSING_FORUM_GUEST] => Users browsing this forum: %1$s and %2$d guest [BROWSING_FORUM_GUESTS] => Users browsing this forum: %1$s and %2$d guests [BYTES] => Bytes [CANCEL] => Cancel [CHANGE] => Change [CHANGE_FONT_SIZE] => Change font size [CHANGING_PREFERENCES] => Changing board preferences [CHANGING_PROFILE] => Changing profile settings [CLICK_VIEW_PRIVMSG] => %sGo to your inbox%s [COLLAPSE_VIEW] => Collapse view [CLOSE_WINDOW] => Close window [COLOUR_SWATCH] => Colour swatch [COMMA_SEPARATOR] => , [CONFIRM] => Confirm [CONFIRM_CODE] => Confirmation code [CONFIRM_CODE_EXPLAIN] => Enter the code exactly as it appears. All letters are case insensitive. [CONFIRM_CODE_WRONG] => The confirmation code you entered was incorrect. [CONFIRM_OPERATION] => Are you sure you wish to carry out this operation? [CONGRATULATIONS] => Congratulations to [CONNECTION_FAILED] => Connection failed. [CONNECTION_SUCCESS] => Connection was successful! [COOKIES_DELETED] => All board cookies successfully deleted. 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[EXPAND_VIEW] => Expand view [EXTENSION] => Extension [EXTENSION_DISABLED_AFTER_POSTING] => The extension %s has been deactivated and can no longer be displayed. [FAQ] => FAQ [FAQ_EXPLAIN] => Frequently Asked Questions [FILENAME] => Filename [FILESIZE] => File size [FILEDATE] => File date [FILE_COMMENT] => File comment [FILE_NOT_FOUND] => The requested file could not be found. [FIND_USERNAME] => Find a member [FOLDER] => Folder [FORGOT_PASS] => I forgot my password [FORM_INVALID] => The submitted form was invalid. Try submitting again. [FORUM] => Forum [FORUMS] => Forums [FORUMS_MARKED] => Forums have been marked read. 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[FTP_FSOCK_TIMEOUT] => FTP timeout [FTP_FSOCK_TIMEOUT_EXPLAIN] => The amount of time, in seconds, that the system will wait for a reply from your server. [FTP_FSOCK_USERNAME] => FTP username [FTP_FSOCK_USERNAME_EXPLAIN] => Username used to connect to your server. [FTP_HOST] => FTP host [FTP_HOST_EXPLAIN] => FTP server used to connect your site. [FTP_PASSWORD] => FTP password [FTP_PASSWORD_EXPLAIN] => Password for your FTP username. [FTP_PORT] => FTP port [FTP_PORT_EXPLAIN] => Port used to connect to your server. [FTP_ROOT_PATH] => Path to phpBB [FTP_ROOT_PATH_EXPLAIN] => Path from the root to your phpBB board. [FTP_TIMEOUT] => FTP timeout [FTP_TIMEOUT_EXPLAIN] => The amount of time, in seconds, that the system will wait for a reply from your server. [FTP_USERNAME] => FTP username [FTP_USERNAME_EXPLAIN] => Username used to connect to your server. [GENERAL_ERROR] => General Error [GB] => GB [GIB] => GiB [GO] => Go [GOTO_PAGE] => Go to page [GROUP] => Group [GROUPS] => Groups [GROUP_ERR_TYPE] => Inappropriate group type specified. [GROUP_ERR_USERNAME] => No group name specified. [GROUP_ERR_USER_LONG] => Group names cannot exceed 60 characters. The specified group name is too long. 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[LEGEND] => Legend [LOCATION] => Location [LOCK_POST] => Lock post [LOCK_POST_EXPLAIN] => Prevent editing [LOCK_TOPIC] => Lock topic [LOGIN] => Login [LOGIN_CHECK_PM] => Log in to check your private messages. [LOGIN_CONFIRMATION] => Confirmation of login [LOGIN_CONFIRM_EXPLAIN] => To prevent brute forcing accounts the board requires you to enter a confirmation code after a maximum amount of failed logins. The code is displayed in the image you should see below. If you are visually impaired or cannot otherwise read this code please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s. [LOGIN_ERROR_ATTEMPTS] => You exceeded the maximum allowed number of login attempts. In addition to your username and password you now also have to solve the CAPTCHA below. [LOGIN_ERROR_EXTERNAL_AUTH_APACHE] => You have not been authenticated by Apache. [LOGIN_ERROR_PASSWORD] => You have specified an incorrect password. Please check your password and try again. If you continue to have problems please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s. [LOGIN_ERROR_PASSWORD_CONVERT] => It was not possible to convert your password when updating this bulletin board’s software. Please %srequest a new password%s. If you continue to have problems please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s. [LOGIN_ERROR_USERNAME] => You have specified an incorrect username. Please check your username and try again. If you continue to have problems please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s. [LOGIN_FORUM] => To view or post in this forum you must enter its password. [LOGIN_INFO] => In order to login you must be registered. Registering takes only a few moments but gives you increased capabilities. The board administrator may also grant additional permissions to registered users. Before you register please ensure you are familiar with our terms of use and related policies. Please ensure you read any forum rules as you navigate around the board. [LOGIN_VIEWFORUM] => The board requires you to be registered and logged in to view this forum. [LOGIN_EXPLAIN_EDIT] => In order to edit posts in this forum you have to be registered and logged in. [LOGIN_EXPLAIN_VIEWONLINE] => In order to view the online list you have to be registered and logged in. 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[NOT_AUTHORISED] => You are not authorised to access this area. [NOT_WATCHING_FORUM] => You are no longer subscribed to updates on this forum. [NOT_WATCHING_TOPIC] => You are no longer subscribed to this topic. [NOTIFY_ADMIN] => Please notify the board administrator or webmaster. [NOTIFY_ADMIN_EMAIL] => Please notify the board administrator or webmaster: %1$s [NO_ACCESS_ATTACHMENT] => You are not allowed to access this file. [NO_ACTION] => No action specified. [NO_ADMINISTRATORS] => There are no administrators. [NO_AUTH_ADMIN] => Access to the Administration Control Panel is not allowed as you do not have administrative permissions. [NO_AUTH_ADMIN_USER_DIFFER] => You are not able to re-authenticate as a different user. [NO_AUTH_OPERATION] => You do not have the necessary permissions to complete this operation. [NO_CONNECT_TO_SMTP_HOST] => Could not connect to smtp host : %1$s : %2$s [NO_BIRTHDAYS] => No birthdays today [NO_EMAIL_MESSAGE] => E-mail message was blank. [NO_EMAIL_RESPONSE_CODE] => Could not get mail server response codes. [NO_EMAIL_SUBJECT] => No e-mail subject specified. [NO_FORUM] => The forum you selected does not exist. [NO_FORUMS] => This board has no forums. [NO_GROUP] => The requested usergroup does not exist. [NO_GROUP_MEMBERS] => This group currently has no members. [NO_IPS_DEFINED] => No IP addresses or hostnames defined [NO_MEMBERS] => No members found for this search criterion. [NO_MESSAGES] => No messages [NO_MODE] => No mode specified. [NO_MODERATORS] => There are no moderators. [NO_NEW_MESSAGES] => No new messages [NO_NEW_PM] => 0 new messages [NO_NEW_POSTS] => No new posts [NO_ONLINE_USERS] => No registered users [NO_POSTS] => No posts [NO_POSTS_TIME_FRAME] => No posts exist inside this topic for the selected time frame. [NO_FEED_ENABLED] => Feeds are not available on this board. [NO_FEED] => The requested feed is not available. [NO_STYLE_DATA] => Could not get style data [NO_SUBJECT] => No subject specified [NO_SUCH_SEARCH_MODULE] => The specified search backend doesn’t exist. [NO_SUPPORTED_AUTH_METHODS] => No supported authentication methods. [NO_TOPIC] => The requested topic does not exist. [NO_TOPIC_FORUM] => The topic or forum no longer exists. [NO_TOPICS] => There are no topics or posts in this forum. [NO_TOPICS_TIME_FRAME] => No topics exist inside this forum for the selected time frame. [NO_UNREAD_PM] => 0 unread messages [NO_UNREAD_POSTS] => There are no new unread posts for this topic. [NO_UPLOAD_FORM_FOUND] => Upload initiated but no valid file upload form found. [NO_USER] => The requested user does not exist. [NO_USERS] => The requested users do not exist. [NO_USER_SPECIFIED] => No username was specified. 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[POST_BY_AUTHOR] => by [POST_BY_FOE] => This post was made by %1$s who is currently on your ignore list. %2$sDisplay this post%3$s. [POST_DAY] => %.2f posts per day [POST_DETAILS] => Post details [POST_NEW_TOPIC] => Post new topic [POST_PCT] => %.2f%% of all posts [POST_PCT_ACTIVE] => %.2f%% of user’s posts [POST_PCT_ACTIVE_OWN] => %.2f%% of your posts [POST_REPLY] => Post a reply [POST_REPORTED] => Click to view report [POST_SUBJECT] => Post subject [POST_TIME] => Post time [POST_TOPIC] => Post a new topic [POST_UNAPPROVED] => This post is waiting for approval [POWERED_BY] => Powered by %s [PREVIEW] => Preview [PREVIOUS] => Previous [PREVIOUS_STEP] => Previous [PRIVACY] => Privacy policy [PRIVATE_MESSAGE] => Private message [PRIVATE_MESSAGES] => Private messages [PRIVATE_MESSAGING] => Private messaging [PROFILE] => User Control Panel [RANK] => Rank [READING_FORUM] => Viewing topics in %s [READING_GLOBAL_ANNOUNCE] => Reading global announcement [READING_LINK] => Following forum link %s [READING_TOPIC] => Reading topic in %s [READ_PROFILE] => Profile [REASON] => Reason [RECORD_ONLINE_USERS] => Most users ever online was %1$s on %2$s [REDIRECT] => Redirect [REDIRECTS] => Total redirects [REGISTER] => Register [REGISTERED_USERS] => Registered users: [REG_USERS_ONLINE] => There are %d registered users and [REG_USERS_TOTAL] => %d registered, [REG_USERS_TOTAL_AND] => %d registered and [REG_USERS_ZERO_ONLINE] => There are 0 registered users and [REG_USERS_ZERO_TOTAL] => 0 registered, [REG_USERS_ZERO_TOTAL_AND] => 0 registered and [REG_USER_ONLINE] => There is %d registered user and [REG_USER_TOTAL] => %d registered, [REG_USER_TOTAL_AND] => %d registered and [REMOVE] => Remove [REMOVE_INSTALL] => Please delete, move or rename the install directory before you use your board. If this directory is still present, only the Administration Control Panel (ACP) will be accessible. 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[SORRY_AUTH_READ] => You are not authorised to read this forum. [SORRY_AUTH_VIEW_ATTACH] => You are not authorised to download this attachment. [SORT_BY] => Sort by [SORT_JOINED] => Joined date [SORT_LOCATION] => Location [SORT_RANK] => Rank [SORT_POSTS] => Posts [SORT_TOPIC_TITLE] => Topic title [SORT_USERNAME] => Username [SPLIT_TOPIC] => Split topic [SQL_ERROR_OCCURRED] => An SQL error occurred while fetching this page. Please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s if this problem persists. [STATISTICS] => Statistics [START_WATCHING_FORUM] => Subscribe forum [START_WATCHING_TOPIC] => Subscribe topic [STOP_WATCHING_FORUM] => Unsubscribe forum [STOP_WATCHING_TOPIC] => Unsubscribe topic [SUBFORUM] => Subforum [SUBFORUMS] => Subforums [SUBJECT] => Subject [SUBMIT] => Submit [TB] => TB [TERMS_USE] => Terms of use [TEST_CONNECTION] => Test connection [THE_TEAM] => The team [TIB] => TiB [TIME] => Time [TOO_LARGE] => The value you entered is too large. [TOO_LARGE_MAX_RECIPIENTS] => The value of Maximum number of allowed recipients per private message setting you entered is too large. [TOO_LONG] => The value you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_AIM] => The screenname you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_CONFIRM_CODE] => The confirm code you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_DATEFORMAT] => The date format you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_ICQ] => The ICQ number you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_INTERESTS] => The interests you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_JABBER] => The Jabber account name you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_LOCATION] => The location you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_MSN] => The MSNM/WLM name you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_NEW_PASSWORD] => The password you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_OCCUPATION] => The occupation you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_PASSWORD_CONFIRM] => The password confirmation you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_USER_PASSWORD] => The password you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_USERNAME] => The username you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_EMAIL] => The e-mail address you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_EMAIL_CONFIRM] => The e-mail address confirmation you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_WEBSITE] => The website address you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_YIM] => The Yahoo! Messenger name you entered is too long. [TOO_MANY_VOTE_OPTIONS] => You have tried to vote for too many options. [TOO_SHORT] => The value you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_AIM] => The screenname you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_CONFIRM_CODE] => The confirm code you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_DATEFORMAT] => The date format you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_ICQ] => The ICQ number you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_INTERESTS] => The interests you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_JABBER] => The Jabber account name you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_LOCATION] => The location you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_MSN] => The MSNM/WLM name you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_NEW_PASSWORD] => The password you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_OCCUPATION] => The occupation you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_PASSWORD_CONFIRM] => The password confirmation you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_USER_PASSWORD] => The password you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_USERNAME] => The username you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_EMAIL] => The e-mail address you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_EMAIL_CONFIRM] => The e-mail address confirmation you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_WEBSITE] => The website address you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_YIM] => The Yahoo! Messenger name you entered is too short. [TOO_SMALL] => The value you entered is too small. [TOO_SMALL_MAX_RECIPIENTS] => The value of Maximum number of allowed recipients per private message setting you entered is too small. [TOPIC] => Topic [TOPICS] => Topics [TOPICS_UNAPPROVED] => At least one topic in this forum has not been approved. [TOPIC_ICON] => Topic icon [TOPIC_LOCKED] => This topic is locked, you cannot edit posts or make further replies. [TOPIC_LOCKED_SHORT] => Topic locked [TOPIC_MOVED] => Moved topic [TOPIC_REVIEW] => Topic review [TOPIC_TITLE] => Topic title [TOPIC_UNAPPROVED] => This topic has not been approved [TOTAL_ATTACHMENTS] => Attachment(s) [TOTAL_LOG] => 1 log [TOTAL_LOGS] => %d logs [TOTAL_NO_PM] => 0 private messages in total [TOTAL_PM] => 1 private message in total [TOTAL_PMS] => %d private messages in total [TOTAL_POSTS] => Total posts [TOTAL_POSTS_OTHER] => Total posts %d [TOTAL_POSTS_ZERO] => Total posts 0 [TOPIC_REPORTED] => This topic has been reported [TOTAL_TOPICS_OTHER] => Total topics %d [TOTAL_TOPICS_ZERO] => Total topics 0 [TOTAL_USERS_OTHER] => Total members %d [TOTAL_USERS_ZERO] => Total members 0 [TRACKED_PHP_ERROR] => Tracked PHP errors: %s [UNABLE_GET_IMAGE_SIZE] => It was not possible to determine the dimensions of the image. [UNABLE_TO_DELIVER_FILE] => Unable to deliver file. [UNKNOWN_BROWSER] => Unknown browser [UNMARK_ALL] => Unmark all [UNREAD_MESSAGES] => Unread messages [UNREAD_PM] => %d unread message [UNREAD_PMS] => %d unread messages [UNREAD_POST] => Unread post [UNREAD_POSTS] => Unread posts [UNWATCH_FORUM_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you wish to unsubscribe from this forum? [UNWATCH_FORUM_DETAILED] => Are you sure you wish to unsubscribe from the forum “%s”? [UNWATCH_TOPIC_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you wish to unsubscribe from this topic? [UNWATCH_TOPIC_DETAILED] => Are you sure you wish to unsubscribe from the topic “%s”? [UNWATCHED_FORUMS] => You are no longer subscribed to the selected forums. [UNWATCHED_TOPICS] => You are no longer subscribed to the selected topics. [UNWATCHED_FORUMS_TOPICS] => You are no longer subscribed to the selected entries. [UPDATE] => Update [UPLOAD_IN_PROGRESS] => The upload is currently in progress. [URL_REDIRECT] => If your browser does not support meta redirection %splease click HERE to be redirected%s. [USERGROUPS] => Groups [USERNAME] => Username [USERNAMES] => Usernames [USER_AVATAR] => User avatar [USER_CANNOT_READ] => You cannot read posts in this forum. [USER_POST] => %d Post [USER_POSTS] => %d Posts [USERS] => Users [USE_PERMISSIONS] => Test out user’s permissions [USER_NEW_PERMISSION_DISALLOWED] => We are sorry, but you are not authorised to use this feature. You may have just registered here and may need to participate more to be able to use this feature. 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[WATCH_FORUM_DETAILED] => Are you sure you wish to subscribe to the forum “%s”? [WATCH_TOPIC_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you wish to subscribe to this topic? [WATCH_TOPIC_DETAILED] => Are you sure you wish to subscribe to the topic “%s”? [WELCOME_SUBJECT] => Welcome to %s forums [WEBSITE] => Website [WHOIS] => Whois [WHO_IS_ONLINE] => Who is online [WRONG_PASSWORD] => You entered an incorrect password. [WRONG_DATA_COLOUR] => The colour value you entered is invalid. [WRONG_DATA_ICQ] => The number you entered is not a valid ICQ number. [WRONG_DATA_JABBER] => The name you entered is not a valid Jabber account name. [WRONG_DATA_LANG] => The language you specified is not valid. [WRONG_DATA_WEBSITE] => The website address has to be a valid URL, including the protocol. For example http://www.example.com/. [WROTE] => wrote [YEAR] => Year [YEAR_MONTH_DAY] => (YYYY-MM-DD) [YES] => Yes [YIM] => YIM [YOU_LAST_VISIT] => Last visit was: %s [YOU_NEW_PM] => A new private message is waiting for you in your Inbox. [YOU_NEW_PMS] => New private messages are waiting for you in your Inbox. [YOU_NO_NEW_PM] => No new private messages are waiting for you. 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1. You are a well-known spammer.
2. Last time a well-known spammer was using the dynamic IP address which you got from your ISP (Internet Service Provider), your e-mail address or the username you have choosen.
3. Your ISP is well-known for a lot of spamming customers and is not fighting against spammers enough. [CONTACT_BLACKLISTED] => If you are not a spammer you can contact the board administration. [DOMAIN_BLACKLISTED] => The domain %1$s you have posted has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %2$s. [EMAIL_DOMAIN_BLACKLISTED] => The e-mail domain %1$s you have used for your e-mail address has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %2$s. [HTTPBL_BLACKLISTED] => Your IP %1$s or your username %2$s or your e-mail address %3$s has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %4$s. [RECHECK_SPAM] => Re-Check spam [RECHECK_SPAM_BREAK] =>
Normally spam check would been stopped here!

[RECHECK_SPAM_DNSMX] => E-mail domain would been blocked by DNS MX check.
E-mail domain: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL] => E-mail domain would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL_NEXT] => E-mail domain also would been found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the Domain-RBL DNS Blacklists would been different then it would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL_NOT] => E-mail domain would not been blocked but found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL_URI] => E-mail domain: %1$s • Domain-RBL: %2$sLookup

[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST] => Posted domains would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST_NEXT] => Posted domains also would been found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the Domain-RBL DNS Blacklists would been different then the posted domains would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST_NOT] => Posted domains would not been blocked but found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST_URI] => Posted domain: %1$s • Domain-RBL: %2$sLookup
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE] => Domains used in signature would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE_NEXT] => Domains used in signature also would been found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the Domain-RBL DNS Blacklists signature would been different then it would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE_NOT] => Domains used in signature would not been blocked but found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE_URI] => Signature: %1$s • Domain-RBL: %2$sLookup
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE] => Domain of website profile field would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE_NEXT] => Domain of website profile field also would been found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the Domain-RBL DNS Blacklists website profile field would been different then it would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE_NOT] => Domain of website profile field would not been blocked but found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE_URI] => Domain of website: %1$s • Domain-RBL: %2$sLookup

[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINS] => Posted domains: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_EMAILDOMAIN] => E-mail domain: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_EMAIL] => E-mail: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_FOR] => Re-Check spam for %s [RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL] => Would been blocked by following HTTP Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL_DATA] => HTTP-BL: %1$s • found values: %3$sLookup
[RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL_NEXT] => Also would been found by following HTTP Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the HTTP Blacklists would been different then it would been blocked by following HTTP Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL_NOT] => Would not been blocked but found by following HTTP Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_IP] => IP: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL] => Would been blocked by following IP-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL_IP] => IP-RBL: %1$sLookup
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL_NEXT] => Also would been found by following IP-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the IP-RBL DNS Blacklists would been different then it would been blocked by following IP-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL_NOT] => Would not been blocked but found by following IP-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_NO] => Not blocked or found by any feature. Seems not to be spam or spammer. [RECHECK_SPAM_USERNAME] => Username: %s
[REPORT_SPAM_POST] => Report and delete spam post [SIGNATURE_BLACKLISTED] => The domain %1$s you have used for your signature has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %2$s. [WEBSITE_BLACKLISTED] => The domain %1$s you have used for your website has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %2$s. [WRONG_TIMEZONE] => You entered an incorrect timezone. Please stay on earth! [ATTACHMENT] => Attachment [ATTACHMENT_FUNCTIONALITY_DISABLED] => The attachments feature has been disabled. [BOOKMARK_ADDED] => Bookmarked topic successfully. [BOOKMARK_ERR] => Bookmarking the topic failed. Please try again. [BOOKMARK_REMOVED] => Removed bookmarked topic successfully. [BOOKMARK_TOPIC] => Bookmark topic [BOOKMARK_TOPIC_REMOVE] => Remove from bookmarks [BUMPED_BY] => Last bumped by %1$s on %2$s. [BUMP_TOPIC] => Bump topic [CODE] => Code [COLLAPSE_QR] => Hide Quick Reply [DELETE_TOPIC] => Delete topic [DOWNLOAD_NOTICE] => You do not have the required permissions to view the files attached to this post. [EDITED_TIMES_TOTAL] => Last edited by %1$s on %2$s, edited %3$d times in total. [EDITED_TIME_TOTAL] => Last edited by %1$s on %2$s, edited %3$d time in total. [EMAIL_TOPIC] => E-mail friend [ERROR_NO_ATTACHMENT] => The selected attachment does not exist anymore. [FILE_NOT_FOUND_404] => The file %s does not exist. [FORK_TOPIC] => Copy topic [FULL_EDITOR] => Full Editor [LINKAGE_FORBIDDEN] => You are not authorised to view, download or link from/to this site. [LOGIN_NOTIFY_TOPIC] => You have been notified about this topic, please login to view it. [LOGIN_VIEWTOPIC] => The board requires you to be registered and logged in to view this topic. [MAKE_ANNOUNCE] => Change to “Announcement” [MAKE_GLOBAL] => Change to “Global” [MAKE_NORMAL] => Change to “Standard Topic” [MAKE_STICKY] => Change to “Sticky” [MAX_OPTIONS_SELECT] => You may select up to %d options [MAX_OPTION_SELECT] => You may select 1 option [MISSING_INLINE_ATTACHMENT] => The attachment %s is no longer available [MOVE_TOPIC] => Move topic [NO_ATTACHMENT_SELECTED] => You haven’t selected an attachment to download or view. [NO_NEWER_TOPICS] => There are no newer topics in this forum. [NO_OLDER_TOPICS] => There are no older topics in this forum. [NO_VOTE_OPTION] => You must specify an option when voting. [NO_VOTES] => No votes [POLL_ENDED_AT] => Poll ended at %s [POLL_RUN_TILL] => Poll runs till %s [POLL_VOTED_OPTION] => You voted for this option [PRINT_TOPIC] => Print view [QUICK_MOD] => Quick-mod tools [QUICKREPLY] => Quick Reply [QUOTE] => Quote [REPLY_TO_TOPIC] => Reply to topic [RETURN_POST] => %sReturn to the post%s [SHOW_QR] => Quick Reply [SUBMIT_VOTE] => Submit vote [TOTAL_VOTES] => Total votes [UNLOCK_TOPIC] => Unlock topic [VIEW_INFO] => Post details [VIEW_NEXT_TOPIC] => Next topic [VIEW_PREVIOUS_TOPIC] => Previous topic [VIEW_RESULTS] => View results [VIEW_TOPIC_POST] => 1 post [VIEW_TOPIC_POSTS] => %d posts [VIEW_UNREAD_POST] => First unread post [VOTE_SUBMITTED] => Your vote has been cast. [VOTE_CONVERTED] => Changing votes is not supported for converted polls. [CLOSE_NOTIFICATION] => Report closed notification [DELETE_NOTIFICATION] => Report deleted notification [EDIT_NOTIFICATION] => Post edit notification [POST_APPROVE] => Post approval notification [POST_DISAPPROVE] => Post disapproval notification [POST_GLOBAL] => Global [POST_NOTIFICATION] => New post notification [POST_NOTIFY_EDIT] => edited post [POST_NOTIFY_NEW] => new post [POST_NOTIFY_REPLY] => reply [POST_QUEUE] => Post queue [POST_QUEUE_NOTIFICATION] => Queued post notification [QUEUE_NOTIFICATION] => Queued reply notification [QUEUED_POST] => queued post [REPLY_NOTIFICATION] => Post reply notification [REPORT_NOTIFICATION] => New report notification [REPORTED] => Reported [TOPIC_QUEUE] => Topic queue [PM_POST] => Hello %s You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following %s has been made in the topic %s Author : %s Topic URL : %s Subject : %s Topic type : %s Queued : %s Message : %s %s [PM_POST_APPROVE] => Hello %s, You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following queued post has been approved by %s in the topic %s Author : %s Topic URL : %s Subject : %s Topic type : %s Queued : %s Message : %s %s [PM_POST_DISAPPROVE] => Hello %s, You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following queued post has been disapproved by %s in the topic %s Author : %s Reason : %s Subject : %s Topic type : %s Topic type : %s Queued : %s Message : %s %s [PM_REPORT] => Hello %s, You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following report has been made by %s in the topic %s Topic URL : %s Report URL : %s Subject : %s Report reason : %s Report message : %s %s [PM_REPORT_CLOSE] => Hello %s, You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following report has been closed by %s in the topic %s Topic URL : %s Report URL : %s Subject : %s Report reason : %s Report message : %s %s [ADVERTISEMENT_MANAGEMENT_CREDITS] => Advertisements by Advertisement Management [MY_ADS] => My Advertisements [ABOVE_FOOTER] => Above Footer [ABOVE_HEADER] => Above Header [ABOVE_POSTS] => Above Posts [AFTER_EVERY_POST] => After Every Post Except First [AFTER_FIRST_POST] => After First Post [BELOW_FOOTER] => Below Footer [BELOW_HEADER] => Below Header [BELOW_POSTS] => Below Posts [0_OR_NA] => 0 or N/A [ACP_ADVERTISEMENT_MANAGEMENT_EXPLAIN] => Here you can change the Advertisement Management Settings, Add/Remove/Edit Advertisement Positions, and Add/Remove/Edit Advertisements. [ACP_ADVERTISEMENT_MANAGEMENT_SETTINGS] => Advertisement Management Settings [ADS_ACCURATE_VIEWS] => Accurate View Counts [ADS_ACCURATE_VIEWS_EXPLAIN] => Makes counting of Ad Views much more accurate, but increases server load. [ADS_COUNT_CLICKS] => Count Ad Clicks [ADS_COUNT_CLICKS_EXPLAIN] => If set to no, advertisement clicks will not be counted (less server load). [ADS_COUNT_VIEWS] => Count Ad Views [ADS_COUNT_VIEWS_EXPLAIN] => If set to no, advertisement views will not be counted (less server load). [AD_CREATED] => Ad Created [ADS_ENABLE] => Enable Advertisements [ADS_GROUP] => Advertisement Owner Group [ADS_GROUP_EXPLAIN] => Group the advertisement owners will be added to (not required, only if you want to add them to a specific group to keep track of them). [ADS_RULES_FORUMS] => Use Forum Rules for Ads [ADS_RULES_FORUMS_EXPLAIN] => If enabled, it allows you to control which forums each advertisement is displayed in. If you do not plan on using this you should set this to no so it uses less resources. [ADS_RULES_GROUPS] => Use Group Rules for Ads [ADS_RULES_GROUPS_EXPLAIN] => If enabled, it allows you to control which groups do/don't see specific advertisements. If you do not plan on using this you should set this to no so it uses less resources. [ADS_VERSION] => Advertisement Management Version [ADVERTISEMENT] => Advertisement [ADVERTISEMENT_MANAGEMENT_UPDATE_SUCCESS] => The Advertisement Management settings have been updated successfully! [AD_ADD_SUCCESS] => Advertisement Added Successfully! [AD_CLICK_LIMIT] => Ad Clicks Limit [AD_CLICK_LIMIT_EXPLAIN] => 0 to disable, otherwise the ad will become disabled after this number of clicks. [AD_CLICKS] => Ad Clicks [AD_CLICKS_EXPLAIN] => The current number of clicks for this advertisement (if setup correctly). [AD_CODE] => Ad Code [AD_CODE_EXPLAIN] => The Advertisement code you would like shown goes here. All code should be put in a raw HTML form, BBcodes are not supported.
If you would like to enable the click counter, use the {COUNT_CLICK} in any place where the onclick attribute is allowed (the a tag for example). [AD_EDIT_SUCCESS] => Advertisement Edited Successfully! [AD_ENABLED] => Ad Enabled [AD_ENABLED_EXPLAIN] => Uncheck to disable this advertisement from displaying. [AD_FORUMS] => Forum List [AD_FORUMS_EXPLAIN] => Select the forums where you would like this ad to be displayed. You may select multiple forums by holding down the CTRL key. [AD_GROUPS] => Groups [AD_GROUPS_EXPLAIN] => Select the groups you do NOT want this advertisement to be shown to. You may select multiple groups by holding the CTRL key while clicking more groups. [AD_LIST_NOTICE] => Ad Clicks will only be available if you used the {COUNT_CLICK} in a place that works with the onclick attribute. [AD_MAX_VIEWS] => Max Views [AD_MAX_VIEWS_EXPLAIN] => The maximum views before this advertisement will no longer be shown. 0 means no max limit. [AD_NAME] => Ad Name [AD_NAME_EXPLAIN] => This is only used for your recognition of the ad. [AD_NOT_EXIST] => The selected advertisement does not exist. [AD_NOTE] => Ad Notes [AD_NOTE_EXPLAIN] => Enter any notes for this advertisement if you'd like. These notes are not shown anywhere except in the ACP. [AD_OWNER] => Ad Owner [AD_OWNER_EXPLAIN] => The user who owns this advertisement (can see it in their advertisements panel). [AD_POSITIONS] => Positions [AD_POSITIONS_EXPLAIN] => Select the positions where you would like this advertisement to show. [AD_PRIORITY] => Ad Priority [AD_PRIORITY_EXPLAIN] => The higher the number the more likely the advertisement will be displayed. For example, an ad with a priority of 2 will be 2x as likely as an ad with a priority of 1 to be shown, 3 would be 3x as likely, etc, etc. [AD_TIME_END] => Run until [AD_TIME_END_BEFORE_NOW] => The end time you entered is before the time right now. Please make sure you are using a strtotime compatible date. [AD_TIME_END_EXPLAIN] => Enter a valid date to end the advertisement at. After the entered time the ad will be disabled automatically. Note that this uses the PHP strtotime function, so be sure to format it correctly or it will not be set.

This end date is not entirely accurate with timezones and such, so exact times should not be relied on. It is recommended that you plan on an accuracy of within 1 day of the given time. [AD_VIEW_LIMIT] => Ad Views Limit [AD_VIEW_LIMIT_EXPLAIN] => 0 to disable, otherwise the ad will become disabled after this number of views. [AD_VIEWS] => Ad Views [AD_VIEWS_EXPLAIN] => The current number of views of this advertisement. [ALL_FORUMS_EXPLAIN] => Select to show in all forums and pages. Note that if this is unchecked the advertisement will not show on non-forum related pages (like the FAQ page for example). [CREATE_AD] => Create Ad [CREATE_POSITION] => Create Position [COPY] => Copy [DELETE_AD] => Delete Advertisement [DELETE_AD_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you want to remove this advertisement? [DELETE_AD_SUCCESS] => The advertisement has been successfully deleted! [DELETE_POSITION] => Delete Position [DELETE_POSITION_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you want to remove this position? If you remove a position, any advertisements that were shown in that position will no longer be shown. [DELETE_POSITION_SUCCESS] => The position has been successfully deleted! [FALSE] => False [NO_ADS_CREATED] => No Ads Created [NO_AD_NAME] => You must set a name for the advertisement. [NO_POSITIONS_CREATED] => No Positions Created [POSITION] => Position [POSITION_CODE] => Position Code [POSITION_EDIT_SUCCESS] => Position Edited Successfully! [POSITION_NAME] => Position Name [POSITION_NAME_EXPLAIN] => The name of the position. [POSITION_NOT_EXIST] => The selected position does not exist. [POSTITION_ADD_SUCCESS] => Position Added Successfully! [POSTITION_ALREADY_EXIST] => You already have a position by that name. [TRUE] => True [PST_TITLE_ACP] => Similar Topics [PST_TITLE] => Precise Similar Topics II [PST_LEGEND1] => General Settings [PST_ENABLE] => Enable Similar Topics [PST_LEGEND2] => Load Settings [PST_LIMIT] => Number of Similar Topics to display [PST_LIMIT_EXPLAIN] => Here you can define how many similar topics to display. The default is 5 topics. [PST_TIME] => Search Period [PST_TIME_EXPLAIN] => This option allows you to configure the Similar Topics search period. For example, if set to “5 days” the system will only show similar topics from within the last 5 days. The default is 1 year. [PST_YEARS] => Years [PST_MONTHS] => Months [PST_WEEKS] => Weeks [PST_DAYS] => Days [PST_CACHE] => Similar Topics cache length [PST_CACHE_EXPLAIN] => Cached similar topics will expire after this time, in seconds. Set to 0 if you want to disable the similar topics cache. [PST_LEGEND3] => Forum Settings [PST_NOSHOW_LIST] => Do Not Display In [PST_NOSHOW_TITLE] => Do not display similar topics in [PST_IGNORE_SEARCH] => Do Not Search In [PST_IGNORE_TITLE] => Do not search for similar topics in [PST_ADVANCED] => Advanced [PST_ADVANCED_TITLE] => Click to set up advanced similar topic settings for [PST_ADVANCED_EXP] => Here you can select specific forums to pull similar topics from. Only similar topics found in the forums you select here will be displayed in %s.

Do not select any forums if you want similar topics from all searchable forums to be displayed in this forum. [PST_DESELECT_ALL] => Deselect all [PST_LEGEND4] => Optional Settings [PST_WORDS] => Special words to ignore [PST_WORDS_EXPLAIN] => Add special words unique to your forum that should be ignored when finding similar topics. (Note: Words that are currently regarded as common in your language are already ignored by default.) Separate each word with a space. Case insensitive. Max. 255 characters. [PST_SAVED] => Similar Topics settings updated [PST_FORUM_INFO] => “Do Not Display In”: Will not show similar topics in the selected forums.
“Do Not Search In” : Will not search the selected forums for similar topics. [PST_WARNING] => Similar Topics will not work with your forum. Similar Topics requires a MySQL 4 or MySQL 5 database. [PST_LOG_MSG] => Altered similar topics settings [PST_FULLTEXT_ADD] => Adding FULLTEXT index: topic_title [PST_FULLTEXT_DROP] => Dropped FULLTEXT index: topic_title [PST_FULLTEXT_PASS] => Your database is compatible with this MOD. Enjoy :-) [PST_FULLTEXT_FAIL] => WARNING: You should not install this MOD! Your database does not support FULLTEXT indexes. This usually means your topics table is not using the MyISAM storage engine required for this MOD to work. More information. [PST_DATABASE_FAIL] => WARNING: You should not install this MOD! Your database is not MySQL as required by this MOD. 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[image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_report_spam] => Array ( [image_id] => 638 [image_name] => icon_post_report_spam [image_filename] => icon_post_report_spam.gif [image_lang] => [image_height] => 16 [image_width] => 16 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_moved] => Array ( [image_id] => 639 [image_name] => topic_moved [image_filename] => topic_moved.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 640 [image_name] => topic_read [image_filename] => topic_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 641 [image_name] => topic_read_mine [image_filename] => topic_read_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_hot] => Array ( [image_id] => 642 [image_name] => topic_read_hot [image_filename] => topic_read_hot.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_hot_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 643 [image_name] => topic_read_hot_mine [image_filename] => topic_read_hot_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 644 [image_name] => topic_read_locked [image_filename] => topic_read_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 645 [image_name] => topic_read_locked_mine [image_filename] => topic_read_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 646 [image_name] => topic_unread [image_filename] => topic_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 647 [image_name] => topic_unread_mine [image_filename] => topic_unread_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_hot] => Array ( [image_id] => 648 [image_name] => topic_unread_hot [image_filename] => topic_unread_hot.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_hot_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 649 [image_name] => topic_unread_hot_mine [image_filename] => topic_unread_hot_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 650 [image_name] => topic_unread_locked [image_filename] => topic_unread_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 651 [image_name] => topic_unread_locked_mine [image_filename] => topic_unread_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 652 [image_name] => sticky_read [image_filename] => sticky_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_read_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 653 [image_name] => sticky_read_mine [image_filename] => sticky_read_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_read_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 654 [image_name] => sticky_read_locked [image_filename] => sticky_read_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_read_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 655 [image_name] => sticky_read_locked_mine [image_filename] => sticky_read_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 656 [image_name] => sticky_unread [image_filename] => sticky_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_unread_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 657 [image_name] => sticky_unread_mine [image_filename] => sticky_unread_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_unread_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 658 [image_name] => sticky_unread_locked [image_filename] => sticky_unread_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_unread_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 659 [image_name] => sticky_unread_locked_mine [image_filename] => sticky_unread_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 660 [image_name] => announce_read [image_filename] => announce_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_read_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 661 [image_name] => announce_read_mine [image_filename] => announce_read_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_read_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 662 [image_name] => announce_read_locked [image_filename] => announce_read_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_read_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 663 [image_name] => announce_read_locked_mine [image_filename] => announce_read_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 664 [image_name] => announce_unread [image_filename] => announce_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_unread_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 665 [image_name] => announce_unread_mine [image_filename] => announce_unread_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_unread_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 666 [image_name] => announce_unread_locked [image_filename] => announce_unread_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_unread_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 667 [image_name] => announce_unread_locked_mine [image_filename] => announce_unread_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 668 [image_name] => global_read [image_filename] => announce_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_read_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 669 [image_name] => global_read_mine [image_filename] => announce_read_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_read_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 670 [image_name] => global_read_locked [image_filename] => announce_read_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_read_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 671 [image_name] => global_read_locked_mine [image_filename] => announce_read_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 672 [image_name] => global_unread [image_filename] => announce_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_unread_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 673 [image_name] => global_unread_mine [image_filename] => announce_unread_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_unread_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 674 [image_name] => global_unread_locked [image_filename] => announce_unread_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_unread_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 675 [image_name] => global_unread_locked_mine [image_filename] => announce_unread_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [subforum_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 676 [image_name] => subforum_read [image_filename] => subforum_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [subforum_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 677 [image_name] => subforum_unread [image_filename] => subforum_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [pm_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 678 [image_name] => pm_read [image_filename] => topic_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [pm_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 679 [image_name] => pm_unread [image_filename] => topic_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_back_top] => Array ( [image_id] => 680 [image_name] => icon_back_top [image_filename] => icon_back_top.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 11 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_aim] => Array ( [image_id] => 681 [image_name] => icon_contact_aim [image_filename] => icon_contact_aim.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_email] => Array ( [image_id] => 682 [image_name] => icon_contact_email [image_filename] => icon_contact_email.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_icq] => Array ( [image_id] => 683 [image_name] => icon_contact_icq [image_filename] => icon_contact_icq.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_jabber] => Array ( [image_id] => 684 [image_name] => icon_contact_jabber [image_filename] => icon_contact_jabber.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_msnm] => Array ( [image_id] => 685 [image_name] => icon_contact_msnm [image_filename] => icon_contact_msnm.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_www] => Array ( [image_id] => 686 [image_name] => icon_contact_www [image_filename] => icon_contact_www.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_yahoo] => Array ( [image_id] => 687 [image_name] => icon_contact_yahoo [image_filename] => icon_contact_yahoo.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_delete] => Array ( [image_id] => 688 [image_name] => icon_post_delete [image_filename] => icon_post_delete.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_info] => Array ( [image_id] => 689 [image_name] => icon_post_info [image_filename] => icon_post_info.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_report] => Array ( [image_id] => 690 [image_name] => icon_post_report [image_filename] => icon_post_report.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_target] => Array ( [image_id] => 691 [image_name] => icon_post_target [image_filename] => icon_post_target.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_target_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 692 [image_name] => icon_post_target_unread [image_filename] => icon_post_target_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_topic_attach] => Array ( [image_id] => 693 [image_name] => icon_topic_attach [image_filename] => icon_topic_attach.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 10 [image_width] => 7 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_topic_latest] => Array ( [image_id] => 694 [image_name] => icon_topic_latest [image_filename] => icon_topic_latest.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_topic_newest] => Array ( [image_id] => 695 [image_name] => icon_topic_newest [image_filename] => icon_topic_newest.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_topic_reported] => Array ( [image_id] => 696 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Why do I always feel so alone and worthless?

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Postby tiger » Sat Jan 10, 2004 5:02 pm

I have a wonderful boyfriend who I love dearly and a stress free life. But I hate myself most of the time and can´t understand what he sees in me. We really love each other but everytime he starts to get closer I push him away. I do it cause I don´t feel I deserve to be loved. I´m also extremely jealous and see every woman as a threat. He can´t understand any of this and thinks I´m suffering from stress.

Everytime we argue it´s my fault. When things are going well as they usually are I just don´t know how to deal with happiness and I constantly look for problems. When I´ve found one that in reallity doesn´t exist it sets off trigers and I get panick attacks and become extremely aggressive verbally and attack him. For a short moment I´m overwhelmed with negative emotion and I get out of control. I feel enraged and I say whatever I can to hurt him and myself. Then I feel totally alone and see myself as a monster and I imagine myself dead and the peace that this would bring to everyone who has to put up with me.

Every little thing in everyday life feels like a huge obstacle and I feel that I´m under water the whole time I´m awake. I´m tormented by nightmares at night and negative thoughts during the day. I´m physically exhausted most of the time and can´t see a way out.

I love him so much and I know we´re made for each other. He doesn´t understand because he´s such a happy possitive person. He doesn´t deserve this. My family have suffered for years from my depression.

I need help. Depression is ruining my life and every year it gets harder to deal with. I´m starting to feel so tired of fighting it and I know that if I don´t get help soon something´s going to push me over the edge and that will be it.

I live in Spain and don´t know where to go for help. The system here is so crap for these sort of things.

Is there anyone out there that suffers like this?

Is there an explanation for all this, I´ve always had a loving family and my life´s been quite normal - why am I so misserable?

Please help me

This is not only destroying me but it´s hurting those that love me and that´s the hardest thing of all to deal with.

I feel so alone.

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Postby Rex » Sat Jan 10, 2004 8:00 pm

Have you told your boyfriend how you feel? Maybe just printing out your posting here and showing it to him - may help him understand you better and as he knows you well he may have some ideas that may really begin to help you.

Reading through your posting I was thinking how I would be reacting if my girl friend was suffering in the same way. And as you describe your reactions to problems I would probably see it from a different perspective than you had described it. I think I would be quite negative about her outbursts - and really frustrated. But then if I had read a posting like yours on this forum, it would have made look at her situation in a new light and really begin to give me ideas of how I may be able to help her.

For him to see what you have written may help him understand better what you are going through. I think writing is such a good way to develop new understandings of problems - sometimes like a self therapy - it really helps to clarify why problems have arisen - and sometimes develop aha's.

Sorry I cant be more helpful.

Good luck.

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Postby Mark Tyrrell » Sat Jan 10, 2004 11:00 pm

Hello Natalie. Wellcome to the forum :D

Have you looked at www.clinical-depression.co.uk?

Take a look. Once you know what is happening you wont feel so alone.

Best wishes

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Postby Skepticg18 » Sun Jun 22, 2008 10:32 pm

I'm a 25 year old female living in Florida. I am fairly cute and intelligent, yet I am never happy with myself. I always remain isolated from the social world and until this day I have an inability to make female friends, and yet I want to. I am clingy and scared to show people how weak I can be.

I grew up an only child. I can't even finish my thoughts today. My mind is so scattered. I am in such a rut. I have a lot of education, but I can't find a job. I suffer from anxiety, and employers can sense this even when I try to hide my nervousness. Now I have this crazy idea to apply to teach English in China. I wish I could travel to Europe, but here I am, pinning away in my room.

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Postby drmiller » Mon Jun 23, 2008 2:02 am

Hi, Skepticg18.



Skepticg18 wrote:I am clingy and scared to show people how weak I can be.


You seem very strong to me, in that you are dealing with your issues as well as you can on your own. This requires a great deal of strength of character, and a high level of individuality (and stubbornness!!).





Skepticg18 wrote:I suffer from anxiety, and employers can sense this even when I try to hide my nervousness.


Try not to worry too much about this. Everyone suffers from anxiety, especially with bosses! Bosses know that employees suffer from anxiety 'when the boss is around'.

Perhaps this is why you want to teach abroad, as it is less easy to be judged in these terms when in a different culture (as there will be far more outstanding things about you (i.e. you are not Chinese!! Some villages in China have never seen a non-native before)).

Have you completed a TEFL course? You should try it and see if you like it.

If you go abroad, you will, for sure, get noticed. This can be a positive and a negative. If you do go, just make sure that people get to know 'you', as well as what you represent (i.e. Western culture).

There will be a high level of curiosity from people regarding yourself, which will be very encouraging for the first few months. But - and do take note of this - the interest will wear off when you become 'routine' to people. This can have a very isolating effect on you, as you will now be viewed as 'part of the routine' in a place where you truly don't know anyone well, or have anyone close to turn to.

If teaching abroad interests you, then by all means go for it - but make sure you are doing it because you want to teach English abroad. This should be the primary motivating factor.


Many people go abroad every year to teach English, and absolutely love it. Just make sure you are aware of the potential negatives, as well as the positives.

However, the positives could be life-changing - you could see the world in a whole new light, and re-prioritise what is important in life.





What does travelling represent to you? Is it freedom from what you know (i.e. daily life), or freedom from the situation you see yourself in just now?



Sometimes the most difficult thing can be making a decision. But not making a decision is also a choice. It is choosing to keep things as they are.

There is comfort in a routine, in knowing that certain things can be relied upon, but there is also familiarity, which can lead to a great sense of ennui.


Start small - change little things e.g. try going for a walk, listen to a completely new style of music, study a subject you would not consider studying etc etc

Changing even one thing can shed a new light on everything.
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Postby jurplesman » Mon Jun 23, 2008 5:19 am

When you have endogenous depression the first victim is your self-esteem, which is bombarded with stress hormones. This low esteem - caused by an inner metabolic disorder - can have serious consequences in personal relationships.

You can help yourself to a great degree if you understand the underlying biochemistry of depression and how it can affect your self-image.

Please read:

Depression is a Nutritional Disorder here

and

Self-help Personal Growth Psychotherapy

and discuss with a Nutritional Doctor, a Clinical Nutritionist or a Nutritional Psychologist if you want to.
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Postby Skepticg18 » Tue Jun 24, 2008 3:52 am

I really appreciate your advice. I think going to China would be a way to escape the dread I feel from my "routine"

I am not sure what it will take to awaken me at this point in life. I wish I could hold myself, if there was such a way. I can't seem to step outside of myself. I am always preoccupied and can never "live in the moment"
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Postby juanlo » Tue Jul 08, 2008 1:14 pm

To tiger and skepticg18:

Sometimes depression/anxiety is a clinical issue, in the sense that it stems from a hormonal or chemical imbalance. Sometimes it is a mental issue, which stems from unproductive or negative thought patterns.

While the hormones and chemicals in your body take a while to adjust (if ever), and can be affected by drugs or food, the negative thought patterns are easier to change. Notice I said easier, not easy.

Without the money to pay for full-on psychiatric care - and even then finding a GOOD therapist - the answers lie among two paths: direct help and indirect help.

Direct help:
Books detailing exactly what you need to do to help yourself. While I tend to not appreciate the escapist/metaphysical approach, it does seem to work for some people, so you can try that. There are other books which are less new-age, and more practical, such as Emotional Intelligence (which will help you identify the exact feeling you are experiencing, which helps you identify in turn how to deal with it), and Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway - great book about objective reasoning in the face of anxiety. Ayn Rand and Terry Goodkind also have entertaining books with an objectivist philosophy which may show you some alternate (and better in my opinion) ways of looking at the world.

Indirect help:
Often it is not facing our fears that puts us in this cycle of needing help but never fully committing to a course of action that would truly help. One solution that has worked for me is rock climbing. Although the rock climbing gym I go to has suspension ropes to prevent me from falling, it took a while before I felt comfortable enough to climb to the top of my course. But once I did, and conquered that fear of going all the way up, I noticed that attitude affect my life in other ways. I started to view other challenges as courses to be conquered, not things that would ruin my life if I failed. This is been one of the best things I have done for myself.

Out of the two approaches, the indirect has been the best. I feel like it has changed both my mental patterns, as well as my hormones (there is a rush I get after leaving the climbing gym... I feel like I have conquered the world and can do anything). Pairing the indirect approach with some reading has been exponentially more helpful than doing either one alone.

So my advice to both of you is to find a physical, intimidating challenge and do it. Boxing, rock climbing, working out, are some of the best ones I can think of. Notice that these sports are things you rarely find women participating in, and that women tend to have higher rates of depression. I feel that the hormones released by these sports (testosterone, adrenaline, etc.) help counteract the pre-existing hormonal imbalances in some people, especially women. Notice also, that what makes these so effective, is that each of these contains a confrontational element to it - an opponent, a wall of rocks/cliff side, a physical challenge (no easy yoga/pilates workouts - I mean sweaty, tiring, make you want to cry at times workouts). Also, the intensity of each one is only half controlled by you, and half controlled by your circumstance/opponent. It's up to you to have your qualities overpower the other... like life.

There is a lot to be said to facing your physical fears and prevailing through intense challenges. Your physical fears manifest themselves mentally, and your unwillingness to prevail means you accept all the bad things life can throw at us. And running away through suicide or going to another country is not going to solve the problems. And since the both of you are on here, I know you are looking to solve the problems... and I think you will find all the help you need. Thanks to the internet, we are never alone!
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Postby jenny88 » Tue Jul 08, 2008 3:08 pm

I totally understand how you feel. I too have come from a descent unbringing and have always had a great life. The only thing is I have always felt not good enough and have kept surpressed feelings of depression inside for so long. The good thing is that now you are finally confronting your depression.

It is so hard to think of yourself as such a negative and unpleasant person. But as soon as you recognize that and tell yourself, " I am beautiful and he loves me because of who I am." you will also change your mind about yourself. We are our own worst critic. I can find a million things wrong with me and feel depressed. But if you were really undeserving of your boyfriends love do you think he would be with you??? let alone deal with your emotional issues? That in itself not only shows that he loves you, but that he will be there in the good and the bad! Thats awesome and hard to find.

I think with a bit of talking and expressing your inner most feelings things will shift and you will begin to see how wonderful and priceless you truly are.

Good luck and God bless.
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Postby Yellowcoaching » Wed Jul 09, 2008 10:33 am

There are some free tips and advice articles on my site that may help you to overcome these feelings of worthlessness.

www.yellowcoaching.com

If you like them then you can look into buying the E-book Not A dress Rehearsal: How to Make the Most of Your Life here

http://www.yellowcoaching.com/nl1/yp2.html[/url]
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Postby ron213 » Wed Dec 30, 2009 12:59 am

I understand where your coming from, and it's frustrating to think that you are alone and there is no way out, but there is, every minute that i feel so alone and down it affects my siblings and I don't want this it's hard enough that my mother has problems of her own by paying for my tuition and I don't want to be a bother to her, and certainly not disappoint but it feels like i'm disappointing everybody wherever i go
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Postby NeverHappy1979 » Tue Mar 02, 2010 10:34 pm

Wow this is exactly how I feel. In my life I don't feel there's anything else to do. I had a wonderful boyfriend that I just broke up with last week because of my crazy emotions. One minute I love him and the next I hate him and if he gets mad I say he doesn't love me. I wish I could give you some advise. But just hang in there and take it day by day - that's what I'm doing - it doesn't seem to be helping me any, but maybe it can help you! I wish you the best!!!
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Postby the_moonman » Sat Mar 13, 2010 10:02 pm

Hello Uncommon Knowledge forum,

Firstly, you folks seem pretty cool, just from reading one thread, and I consider myself a good judge of character. :)

Secondly,juanlo: I like the way you outlined/defined "indirect help" in your post. I took a lot from those few paragraphs...thanks, and will be utilising the City swimming pool next door to my workplace starting next week. Thanks.

To Skepticg18, ron213 and NeverHappy1979:

All I can say, anonymous stranger that I am, is that it is very liberating to be recently diagnosed as depressed (self- and clinically), but to also immediately find yourself in a community of others who are experiencing VERY similar things. When I read a forum like this I do take solace in the fact that someone else might want to talk about it, and that would get ME talking and, well, talking it through is important. It's helping me so far.

I'm almost 38, I have a healthy beautiful family and I'm buying/owning my own guitar store after 15 years of working here. I have a lot to be thankful for, but here I am, afraid to set goals, burying my head under covers on another grey morning, and it seems I've spent all my life, almost masochistically, making problems and sabotaging the very things that should make me happy. Unreal. I'm a smart guy, social (enough, I suppose), but with no REAL friends, from childhood or otherwise. I make more excuses than friends. Why? No idea...and that just makes me more worried. It's indescribable to most people, but maybe someone in this forum can identify, a little, in the ramblings of a nice guy who is broken, but can't quite nail down the problem.

I have family who love me dearly, but I push them away and then feel terrible for it. WTF!? Maybe some of you do as well, but I'm old/wise/smart-ass (<--cool swear-filter there) enough to know that I CAN change , but Im lost when it's happening so...unconsciously.

So, sorry for the TL;DR rant, but it was cathartic to write, even if it's only a fraction of what was going on in my head. If you can measure/define it, you can manage it, but the measuring comes first. Hang in there, talk it through with someone if you can, and know that there are plenty of people feeling EXACTLY the same way. It helps a little.

Oh, and keep using the forum...I hope to. :)

Cheers~
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Postby topaz88 » Sat Mar 27, 2010 12:31 am

Hi everyone, I just wanted to post on here because I'm not someone who finds it easy to talk to people about things that matter, I don't really know what to do. I think I might be or have some symptoms of depression, I know I should go to a doctor if I think that but I don't want to be given drugs and if I go then it's like it's real..

I get really depressed sometimes, well it's happening more and more really, I have some really good friends but lately social situations make me feel really anxious, I frek myself out over nothing. I know it's nothing, but I still feel anxious and stressed and I don't want to go out, when I do make myself I panic a lot of the time and end up making excuses to leave. I don't know why or how it happens and I try and stop myself doing it but it just gets..I dont know what. So I'm not hanging out with my friends as much, and sometimes I think that's ok, but then other times I'm like, well I need them. I'm pretty shy and don't make friends easily. And I don't want to be alone, but I think I'm pushing people away.

So yeah.. I guess as well I'm not sure if I am depressed or I'm just slightly fecked/stressed up, I'm in my last yr at uni atm and I do stress myself out easily. But It has gotten quite bad and I just can't see the way out, I havn't been able to eat lately, especially not in social situations where I feel like I'm going to be sick. I just feel -well, alone and worthless. Writing this has kinda helped so thanks for the forum for letting me rant on
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Postby Annie7788 » Sun Mar 28, 2010 12:17 am

Has anyone noticed the op was 6 years ago? For some reason someone responded four years later and again now...
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