Hello, this might be in the wrong forum as I really wasn't sure.
I'm 20 and I've never been able to determine my ambitions. Whenver I've been asked or thought about the direction to take my future my thoughts always turn up blank. I've just never known so I've had to take the generic approach so I work underemployed in an office job for poor pay.
Naturally this lead to a quarter-life crisis when I was 19 and has been going on and off since then. I just get the feeling that there are so many avenues out there to explore yet not knowing which one I want to take gives me the impression the doors are closing the longer I waste away here when I could still have time to make a better life for myself.
Is there a reason why some people have no clue to their futures whilst others know straight away from a young age which avenue to take? Is it as simple as lack of confidence and fear or does it go deeper than that. Is it a realisation on the unpredictability of the future and avoidance of having all the eggs in one basket or lack of creativity?
I've been examining what I'm good at and what I'm not, but these of course are subjective viewpoints and may not be accurate or appreciated in real life. I don't even know the positions I could take with these skills. To be honest, I've always imagined my dream job of being non-target driven yet challenging, with a vibrant atmosphere and above minimum wage in terms of payment. Having a position where I can create, innovate or invent is also appealing too. I know, this is most people's dreams and the real world isn't so kind!
If you can't help me, would you know any websites I could try and find a good ambition for myself? I really feel lost at the moment adrift in society.