"We become what we think"
If you are continually thinking and listening to that mind chatter, then you will become those thoughts. You will become confused and frustrated. You are effectively creating this situation you find yourself in (as do millions of others). It's nobody elses responsibility but yours.
Finding a way to get in touch with your true feelings, rather than attaching yourself to those thoughts is the way forward.
Recognise the mind chatter as being a separate entity to you. As separate from your true self. After all, if you can do that, that negative mind chatter can't actually be you can it, as you can't separate yourself.
Also, experience your feelings by 'just being', rather than listening to your thoughts, is most important.
Meditation is useful. Clears the mind weeds away, and gets you back in touch with yourself.
You will find in time, that you have no need to 'make' people understand you. They either do or they don't, but thankfully you can lose that need to make them.
~ Do creative things, that you enjoy.
~ Surround yourself with things that are your very essence. What do you like?
~ Remove yourself from vexed souls - they are draining.
~ STOP thinking, and just do (and feel).
~ The addiciton to the mind will dissolve and the rest will follow.
Stuff like that