I have been trying to ignore my drama and study for finals. Took a study break and saw your post. I have two things to say about this that I hope will help you. The first is to help you appreciate your situation and the second is my solution for everything
I have been struggling all my life with emotional issues. See it is like there is this bell curve and all the average people are in the middle and there is on side of the spectrum and the other. You and I, we are not in the middle. What really sucks about not being in the middle is how pressing it is to understand other people sometimes or for them to understand you.
I feel everything! It is a curse! Ever since I was young it has been this way and of course as I got older it got worse. I have talked to spiders in the shower, tried to negotiate where my land starts and theirs begins...because I can't kill them. I have taken pigeons on train rides to animal hospitals for treatment...did you know that no form of rescue will pick up a pigeon..apparently there are so many stupid pigeons that if you see one squabbling on the side of the road you are to watch it die or inconvenience yourself while at work risking your job to take it to the closest animal hospital which happens to be 125th street and you work downtown! Then there was that time when I was ten and of all the yards on our street the suffering pigeon had to be in mine so I could adamantly refuse to get into my mothers car until she called someone to pick up the pigeon...she literally dragged me kicking and screaming slapping at me and cursing to the heavens "why today" and grounded me! Then there was the time all my friends wanted to egg the mean old ladies house next door, I didn't want to look as crazy as I was so I went...the next morning I woke up early, went over to their house...one of them was always outside...and my lucky day watering the lawn...so I pointed out the house had something on the side of it and I would wash it off for them...so who drives by while I am washing the side of their house..one of my friends who tells everyone else and the entire neighborhood finds out....aside of everyone laughing at me I was never invited to egg a house again. I could go on and on....but I will end with this last one that crawls up my but on a day to day basis...I take the subway everyday and every now and then..sometimes frequently there will be someone with a kid in a stroller or some sort of big heavy bag to climb up a huge flight of stairs with...who grabs it to help them ....me...as my hands hurt or my arm or maybe it doesn't even hurt that day...I am cursing all the guys that walk right by these women on a day to day basis....I am 5 feet plus an inch holding steady at 120...not the toughest or strongest girl you ever came across.
Anyway, I can't not do these things because I can like feel how these people feel...I feel bad for bugs...I feel bad all the time for everything. I am divorced (sort of...but it is a long story) but when I asked my husband what made him fall in love with me...his response was "I thought you were God's gift to this Earth...I never met anyone who cares so much about other people...even people they don't know...just imagine how different things were be if there were more people like you'" It was the nicest thing I had ever heard anyone say not just to me but to anyone else...that moment was the one and only time I appreciated being me. I hate being me!! I would rather stay home and not deal with anything! I can't watch the news because I cry and it puts me in severe depression. This is what you get when you feel. In fact, my quote on facebook states it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a sick society...when I found that quote I loved it because I get sick all the time...watching people do harm to other people...sometimes I feel like I can't adjust because we live in a profoundly sick society so maybe it ok. Sorry back to the point...when you are feeling down because you can't feel anything...please think of me...think of how miserable it would be if you felt for everyone and every emotion you had seemed more heightened than everyone else. I would trade with you in a heart beat ....even if it meant losing my sex drive...which by the way brings me to the second thing I was hoping would help you.
My sex drive is also a curse....I swear I am hornier than most men! The only time it is not a curse is when I am with someone in an extremely passionate relationship and we have great sexual chemistry...which I happen to be in the situation right now so I looooooooooove my sex drive... but if he goes anywhere I might just jump off my building. What I am trying to say is PASSION!! It is amazing how different your relationship can be...your life can be ...if there is a lot of passion between you and your partner. All those happy chemicals are sure to come out and drown your brain so at the very least you will feel euphoria.
Good luck to you and I hope this helps!