My problem is strange i dont know how to describe it but here is what i can tell.
iam working as an Auditor in a Government Tax department since Oct 2001.
i have never been sereous with my work i dont know why i isolaed myself from work and people spent time on net watching porno etc.
currently iam not going office for 6 months and office has issued an expanation letter to me to show reasons of negligence but till now i have'nt replied that nor went back to office.
the reason is iam afraid of my bosses.
iam afraid of co-workers.
its destryong my life badly .i have to pay debts which are mounting day by day and if i lost this job in country like mine its not easy to find other job.
plz help me know how can i overcome the fear of being punished by bosses?
fear of being abused for long absense?
and mostly how can i change my attitude.
plz help me someone before its too late plzzz.