My problem is strange i dont know how to describe it but here is what i can tell.
iam working as an Auditor in a Government Tax department since Oct 2001.
i have never been sereous with my work i dont know why i isolaed myself from work and people spent time on net watching porno etc.
currently iam not going office for 6 months and office has issued an expanation letter to me to show reasons of negligence but till now i have'nt replied that nor went back to office.
the reason is iam afraid of my bosses.
iam afraid of co-workers.
its destryong my life badly .i have to pay debts which are mounting day by day and if i lost this job in country like mine its not easy to find other job.
plz help me know how can i overcome the fear of being punished by bosses?
fear of being abused for long absense?
and mostly how can i change my attitude.
plz help me someone before its too late plzzz.
6 months is a long absence. Back at my place, if you are absent for 48hrs, you need to give a written explaination.
Maybe you do not like what you are doing. Maybe you do not want to be an auditor and work in the government.
I suggest you look at what you are good at and what you really like to do. What is it that interests you. Go for that.
Your debts are not going to disappear and evaporate in thin air. You better start searching for something and go for it. Otherwise, you are going to be more depressed. And then you will have another problem to look into.
Don't be too concern about bosses. It is you that you need to worry about. Bosses are not mean if you do what you have to do. They will be pleased if you do more than what you are supposed to do.
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Your bosses have every right and reason to question your absence from work, particularly after such a long time. You mention you are scared of your bosses and co-workers - this fear is understandable, however it will not go away if you continue to ignore letters from your employers. It is time to face up to your actions and take responsibility for making things right with your employers again. I would consider 6 months of unexplained absence extremely patient and lenient!
The best way to change your attitude is to is to make contact with your employers. This can be by letter, phone, fax, email - it doesn't matter how, just make contact. This small step will start your journey back to taking control of your life and not letting your life control you.
Wishing you had a better attitude will not work - take action instead. Remember back to a time when you successfully made contact with somenone and use that experience to give you confidence to do it now.