Guys....wanted to give a big thank you to you all, for your help. tournalmine, if your reading this pal, a special thanks to you as well
Its been over 6 weeks now since Ive...."strayed from the path". And you know what? It hasn't been as tough as I thought it would be. I thought I would be spending every waking moment being tempted. Sure, the urge is there occassionally, and I do get a little tempted but it is nowhere nearly as intense as before.
I took your advice guys, and I did a lot of soul searching. Sat down with pen and paper, and listed WHY i did it. I learned a lot about myself in the process, and it wasn't pretty. It seems that I am even more monstrous than I thought, and the reasons for it are pretty damn dark. That saddened and scared me in equal measure, but I am reassured now because now that I know the dragon within me, I can slay it.
Thanks once again guys.