Anxiety and Love

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Postby Vany311 » Fri Nov 17, 2017 2:54 am

Cric 0624
Try to meditate. I used to go to the bathroom and out my headsphones on. Make it a habit. Even if it’s just for a couple of minutes. Remember that just one thing won’t hwlped. You have to try all kinds of things to help you get out of there. Unfortunately there’s no magic pill that solve our problem we have created in our heads. We have to find the solution. There was a guy that said on a blog the other day “its not my feelings or emotions that determine my love for her but the things I do for my wife determine my love” love is a choice, a constant choice not a feeling. Let’s pretend you were in a normal state of mind no anxiety? Would you leave your boyfriend? I’m pretty sure your answer is no.
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#2266

Postby cric0624 » Fri Nov 17, 2017 1:10 pm

That’s my fear: that I’m in a normal state of mind and that this isn’t anxiety but me truly feeling as though the relationship is over. Though anytime we talk about that or I think about it it makes me so upset to the point of tears. My bf is so wonderful when we discuss this but he did say that he just wants me to be happy, whatever the outcome and that he doesn’t want me to stay in this relationship for the wrong reasons (comfort, scared of leaving etc) which seriously spiked me and its all I can obsess over the past few days. I keep telling myself that love is a choice, so even if i’m having a bad day I’m still choosing my boyfriend and showing up and doing loving things. I just feel like i’m trying to convince myself i love him when that’s not the case
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Postby Vany311 » Fri Nov 17, 2017 6:02 pm

It has happened to be 5 times with 5 different people! And they all feel like I want to run and leave. I don’t want to keep doing that! I ran too much because of my fears. This is the only advise I can give you.
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#2268

Postby cric0624 » Sat Nov 18, 2017 12:23 am

That is true. I know that this is a good relationship and I’m not going to give up on it that easily! How have you been doing?
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Postby Vany311 » Sat Nov 18, 2017 1:17 pm

Me well last weekend I was at bliss I thought I had conquered it all. This weekend I feel just “ok” and yesterday night i did not feel anything. And then j said to my head do you really need to be feeling anything every five minutes??? I said that even if I felt numb I was still going to focus on what Love really is and today I woke up better. I also sign up for a course of meditation. I am really determined to get my mind straight with practice. When my mind is clear of thoughts I feel love towards my boyfriend, and appreciation. I want to learn how to truly meditate. This take time and the only thing that can keep us going is patient and faith.
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Postby andrajackson » Sat Nov 18, 2017 6:13 pm

Hey anxietybucket, I feel that you have mixed thoughts of losing your love and not helping him. I ensure you that you love him very much and you do not want to lose him at any cost. Do not lose hope do whatever you can do for him. He needs your love.
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Postby cric0624 » Mon Dec 11, 2017 7:32 pm

Hi guys, just wanted to send a quick update. I've been struggling recently with the feeling of being "trapped" or, at least that's what I think. I was snowed in with my bf over the weekend and I did enjoy our time together. However, when we were doing cute things like dancing to Christmas music and making a gingerbread house, I just felt nothing at all. I tried to calm myself down and remind myself that you cannot possibly feel everything at every moment, and there were times when I felt some joy return. However I also feel like I need to be by myself for awhile - not a break up! - but just spend some time alone. This freaks me out because I used to love spending every minute with my boyfriend and I get worried that I'll never want to live with him if I can't stand being around him all the time. However, I do know that it is finals week at school and I have a ton of work to do, so my anxiety is most likely being caused by that and projecting onto him. Even though I can name it as a projection, it is hard to convince my mind of it.
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Postby AJ01101996 » Mon Dec 18, 2017 9:02 am

I don't know if this happens to guys as well, I haven't read the entire thread. I'm a 21 year old who has been in a wonderful relationship for the last two years November 12th we celebrated our second anniversary.
It was all good till 1st December, we had a heated argument that morning. We resolved the problem soon and carried on to the rest of the day so in the afternoon me and her we meet up. We had some coffe everything was fine till a guy i knew a while back showed up there and we had a casual conversation, (i hate that dude, he stole something that was very precious to me a couple of years ago, AAAND he's probably better looking than me) so I tell her "yeah that's him, the guy who stole it". For a while I felt like she was checking him out (but she wasn't she keeps repeatedly assuring me that, and I believe it too) I felt a little zoned out, I couldn't get my mind to focus on anything. I came back to my shop and all of a sudden I started getting this fuzzy feeling in my head, my head was spinning and I felt like I was about to pass out, so I drove back home and after a while I started feeling weird altogether, I kept asking myself "do I love her??" And then it all went sour. It has been 3 weeks now and I'm still figuring out what it is. She knows about all of this. I even tried breaking up but I just broke down in front of her.
A part of me says "I love her" the other says "you don't" "you're pretending" "you're gonna hurt her". I felt good for a day once ao we had sex, but I cried even after that(we had a wonderful sex life). I don't know what I'm scared of the anxiety making me feel like I don't love her, or those being my real feelings and giving me anxiety. I have clarity in the evening like "Its all a game your mind is playing!!" And sometimes I'll give myself anxiety like "you weren't thinking of her, you clearly don't love her!!".
I don't know if this is of any relevance but I had a really REALLY bad health anxiety last year (November to May) I was convinced that I had lung cancer, even after repeated doctors visits I'd still be looking up every little thing happening on/in my body on the internet.
Sometimes I have the urge to call her and say "Dude, I love you so much!" But then I wonder again "Am I saying this to convince myself that I love her??"
Then I think I should go see my GP and tell them what's happening but then I again fear "what if they say that I really am not in love anymore".
She's the beam of light that saved me from myself last year, she stood by me everytime I'd have a breakdown about my health.
Please.. have any of you ever had thoughts lile I do??
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Postby AJ01101996 » Thu Dec 21, 2017 3:27 am

Update
Tomorrow, it will have been three complete weeks since the problems began. The first week was tough. I'd cry,. I'd wake up at 3:30-4. All day I'd be jittery! The second week I went to see a doctor and told her about what had been happening to me, and told her about the health anxiety I had last year. She gave me some meds. Sleep is a little better now, I have doubts in the morning which gradually subside over the day till night when I have some clarity.
The day before yesterday we met after her foreign language class, we laughed, we had a good time we kept driving around on her scooter. But at the back of my head I still had some doubts and confusion and despite the fun I was having. My question is, I don't feel as much trouble as I did a week ago when the thoughts like "you don't love her" "DO you love her??". Now I'm not anxious, so THIS gives me anxiety again. Like "Oh god!!! Am I being okay with not feeling for her all the time??" I work 10 am to 8-9 pm at my shop most of the time I spend looking and lurking on the internet if somebody has the same feelings, Even in this forum I've gone as back as post 1965 there's 2000+ posts on her and I'm going back in a reverse order. I cannot have enough!
I will have moments of clarity like "f*** yeah!! I love her!!!!!" An I'll also have moments of doubt "You weren't worrying about you and her, you really think you love her?"
And I'm down with suffering in this pit. What troubles me is, she suffers too, we met everyday for at least two hours before all of this!! Now we meet once a week.
Also the first week I was having trouble even saying "I love you" to her but now it's relatively easy.
Gid help us all.
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Postby seekingpeace23 » Fri Dec 29, 2017 5:57 pm

Hey

I am lost and need help. I am in contact unhappy mode since 6 months. This will be little long post.

I have been with my boyfriend for 3.5 years. He is Canadian and I am Indian.I live in canada. I was born and brought up in india. I live with my boyfriend past 2 years. Last november, I had a small incident where i live that just threw me off and put me in panic mode. I decided to go to india for a visit. My parents came back with me to stay with us (me and my boyfriend)for 4 months. Few days then i use to feel sad. like i remember calling my boyfriend and just crying and saying"i dont feel good". Thats all i knew. But i use to smoke that time, so i use to feel better once i was home.

as my parents were leaving, me and my bf got in big fight(biggest we had so far). and then for 2 weeks i was just disconnected with world. Like i felt no feelings. I felt numb. When we went to drop of my parents, i was sad but not crying. I started questioning myself that why m not crying, something is off. I stopped smoking since then, as it made me very anxious and feeling like im going crazy and will die.
I kept researching online that do i have some mental disorder? All day at work, i just did one thing-google!
All i was doing was trying to find a reason for me feeling"off". Like someone just switched off a button in my mind, where i stopped feeling the connection with my family, my sister, my boyfriend. Then i went to hospital one day thinking im getting a heart attack, all it was a panic attack. I got a relief and then a question popped- DO I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND? is my unhappiness/ off feeling because i dont want to live with him and just want my family? Like i know i love my family and miss them being around-but i need to realise that i am 28 and cant live with them all the time.
I kept comparing my feelings, checking how im feeling with him, I dnt feel like having sex with him. I just feel like cuddling him, hugging him. But then a voice comes"are you acting? "I feel anxious when i hear I love you. I ask my friend, who are married that how they feel about there husband? and then i feel-why i dont feel like that-that menas i dont love him? Sometimes i feel i have anxiety and thats making me not feel the love, I feel better after that (but still this off feeling doesn't go away). And then i worry "of its not anxiety-may be i dont love hima and just trying to fool everyone and live in denial"

I am going for CBT, but she doesn't get it. She focuses only on my relationship and how to make it better. I am very scared. I just want to be like i was 6 months back. Happy with him!

one thing that has got stuck in my head is that-may be i should marry someone from my culture? May be then i will not have these issues. May be we are not meant t be together and i am just in denial? May be i will just break up one day. Now i am getting convinced that i dont want him. But i really dont want to lose him. He is the best person i ever know.

I hope to get some help there?
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Postby hart123 » Fri Jan 05, 2018 12:12 pm

It been 6 months since I was last on here I stopped coming on as I seemed to get over my relationship anxiety I was so happy I even got engaged but Me been silly I stopped thearpy and my anxiety meds then ended up going through really stressful time now my anxiety and depression are back and these awful doubts creeped back in I hope I can get through it for a second time I found last time as I started to feel happier within myself all the doubts just went
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