With more time thought into this my path is clear. My previous relationship (unmarried, throw your stones) was very abusive, so I left. There's absolutely nothing wrong with looking out for myself and if you think so...well too bad.
The fact is, I got married in a hurry, thought I was happy but I was really just putting on my game face. As soon as he left for basic training, I felt this relief, I thought it was wrong that I should feel happy that my husband is gone, but that's simple truth. I don't feel depressed, anxious, sad, angry, or anything but relaxed and happy. This was before me & they other guy got involved.
I'm just not in love with my husband. The things he does, the things he says, "You make me so frustrated I want to hit you...but I wouldn't". That's grounds enough for me, I will not stand for abuse, even in the lower forms. I am not saying I am a perfect wife, but I don't hit my husband or do any sort of physical abuse, I hardly even nag. If I want to talk about the problems in our relationship he gets mad and says I'm pouting or making excuses. We've been together 3 years, married 1 year. I can't stay in a relationship if I'm not happy. Even if this other man was not in the picture, I would still end up getting a divorce somewhere down the road.
Not to mention my dreams have been telling me all along its a horrible pair, not to sound like a hippie, but dreams are your subconscious thoughts.
I have dreams about tornadoes or multiple tornadoes about every night, if not every week.
To see a tornado in your dream, suggests that you are experiencing some extreme emotional outbursts and temper tantrums. Is there a situation or relationship in your life that may be potentially destructive?
To dream that you are in a tornado, means that you are feeling overwhelmed and out of control. Your plans will be filled with much complications and you will be met with a series of disappointments.
To see several tornadoes in your dream, represent people around you who are prone to violent outbursts and shifting mood swings. It may also symbolize a volatile situation or relationship.
Recurring dreams repeat themselves with little variation in story or theme. These dreams may be positive, but most often they are nightmarish in content. Dreams may recur because a conflict depicted in the dream remains unresolved or ignored. Once you find a resolution to the problem, your recurring dreams will cease.
A few days ago I had a dream of the tornado cloud, but no tornado. Before I went to bed I had decided I was getting a divorce. You can't deny that.
Call me crazy, call me niave, but I want to be happy. Even if I am by myself, I just want happiness. That is one of the most basic needs, I don't doubt any of you would want less.
I am not doing anything until he comes back, I do not want to stress him out while he's in basic training.