for years now ive constantly made up complex stories and characters. its like there's a never ending film playing in my head with lots of different plots which i cant stop. its always the same characters, and i know them all down to age, date of birth and eye colour ect. Its like i know them, sometimes i smile and laugh at what they do, or even cry when im alone in bed. i have complete control over them though, its not like a voice in my head or anything.
its not like its taking over my life, i have a social life and i get work and stuff done when i need to, but just whenever im alone or not talking to anyone i just let myself go back to my characters. it happens especially when i listen to music or films, sometimes i include parts of films in my story but warp them slightly. Sometimes I might kill a character as a part of the ‘story’ but after a few days I get upset that they arnt there and bring them back.
I don’t really want to go into what happens in the ‘story’ (I really don’t like calling it a story because to me it isn’t, but I cant think of another word for it) because it feels personal to me, but all I know is that I deffinatly know that they are not real people and ive never actually spoken to them myself or anything like that.
All I want to know is if there is something terribly wrong or if it is weird that I do this. Like I said, it doesn’t interfere with my real life at all. And also, if you think I should stop doing this. Ive thought about just trying to stop but to be honest I really don’t want to, its a kind of entertainment when im bored too . So yeah, please if you have any help or advice id love to hear
Ps. Im really sorry how badly written this is, I find it really difficult to describe.