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The maximum allowed filesize set in php.ini could not be determined. [AVATAR_PHP_SIZE_OVERRUN] => The avatar’s filesize is too large. The maximum allowed upload size is %1$d %2$s.
Please note this is set in php.ini and cannot be overridden. [AVATAR_URL_INVALID] => The URL you specified is invalid. [AVATAR_URL_NOT_FOUND] => The file specified could not be found. [AVATAR_WRONG_FILESIZE] => The avatar’s filesize must be between 0 and %1d %2s. [AVATAR_WRONG_SIZE] => The submitted avatar is %5$d pixels wide and %6$d pixels high. Avatars must be at least %1$d pixels wide and %2$d pixels high, but no larger than %3$d pixels wide and %4$d pixels high. [BACK_TO_TOP] => Top [BACK_TO_PREV] => Back to previous page [BAN_TRIGGERED_BY_EMAIL] => A ban has been issued on your e-mail address. [BAN_TRIGGERED_BY_IP] => A ban has been issued on your IP address. [BAN_TRIGGERED_BY_USER] => A ban has been issued on your username. [BBCODE_GUIDE] => BBCode guide [BCC] => BCC [BIRTHDAYS] => Birthdays [BOARD_BAN_PERM] => You have been permanently banned from this board.

Please contact the %2$sBoard Administrator%3$s for more information. [BOARD_BAN_REASON] => Reason given for ban: %s [BOARD_BAN_TIME] => You have been banned from this board until %1$s.

Please contact the %2$sBoard Administrator%3$s for more information. [BOARD_DISABLE] => Sorry but this board is currently unavailable. [BOARD_DISABLED] => This board is currently disabled. [BOARD_UNAVAILABLE] => Sorry but the board is temporarily unavailable, please try again in a few minutes. [BROWSING_FORUM] => Users browsing this forum: %1$s [BROWSING_FORUM_GUEST] => Users browsing this forum: %1$s and %2$d guest [BROWSING_FORUM_GUESTS] => Users browsing this forum: %1$s and %2$d guests [BYTES] => Bytes [CANCEL] => Cancel [CHANGE] => Change [CHANGE_FONT_SIZE] => Change font size [CHANGING_PREFERENCES] => Changing board preferences [CHANGING_PROFILE] => Changing profile settings [CLICK_VIEW_PRIVMSG] => %sGo to your inbox%s [COLLAPSE_VIEW] => Collapse view [CLOSE_WINDOW] => Close window [COLOUR_SWATCH] => Colour swatch [COMMA_SEPARATOR] => , [CONFIRM] => Confirm [CONFIRM_CODE] => Confirmation code [CONFIRM_CODE_EXPLAIN] => Enter the code exactly as it appears. All letters are case insensitive. [CONFIRM_CODE_WRONG] => The confirmation code you entered was incorrect. [CONFIRM_OPERATION] => Are you sure you wish to carry out this operation? [CONGRATULATIONS] => Congratulations to [CONNECTION_FAILED] => Connection failed. [CONNECTION_SUCCESS] => Connection was successful! [COOKIES_DELETED] => All board cookies successfully deleted. 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[EXPAND_VIEW] => Expand view [EXTENSION] => Extension [EXTENSION_DISABLED_AFTER_POSTING] => The extension %s has been deactivated and can no longer be displayed. [FAQ] => FAQ [FAQ_EXPLAIN] => Frequently Asked Questions [FILENAME] => Filename [FILESIZE] => File size [FILEDATE] => File date [FILE_COMMENT] => File comment [FILE_NOT_FOUND] => The requested file could not be found. [FIND_USERNAME] => Find a member [FOLDER] => Folder [FORGOT_PASS] => I forgot my password [FORM_INVALID] => The submitted form was invalid. Try submitting again. [FORUM] => Forum [FORUMS] => Forums [FORUMS_MARKED] => Forums have been marked read. 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[FTP_FSOCK_TIMEOUT] => FTP timeout [FTP_FSOCK_TIMEOUT_EXPLAIN] => The amount of time, in seconds, that the system will wait for a reply from your server. [FTP_FSOCK_USERNAME] => FTP username [FTP_FSOCK_USERNAME_EXPLAIN] => Username used to connect to your server. [FTP_HOST] => FTP host [FTP_HOST_EXPLAIN] => FTP server used to connect your site. [FTP_PASSWORD] => FTP password [FTP_PASSWORD_EXPLAIN] => Password for your FTP username. [FTP_PORT] => FTP port [FTP_PORT_EXPLAIN] => Port used to connect to your server. [FTP_ROOT_PATH] => Path to phpBB [FTP_ROOT_PATH_EXPLAIN] => Path from the root to your phpBB board. [FTP_TIMEOUT] => FTP timeout [FTP_TIMEOUT_EXPLAIN] => The amount of time, in seconds, that the system will wait for a reply from your server. [FTP_USERNAME] => FTP username [FTP_USERNAME_EXPLAIN] => Username used to connect to your server. [GENERAL_ERROR] => General Error [GB] => GB [GIB] => GiB [GO] => Go [GOTO_PAGE] => Go to page [GROUP] => Group [GROUPS] => Groups [GROUP_ERR_TYPE] => Inappropriate group type specified. [GROUP_ERR_USERNAME] => No group name specified. [GROUP_ERR_USER_LONG] => Group names cannot exceed 60 characters. The specified group name is too long. 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[LEGEND] => Legend [LOCATION] => Location [LOCK_POST] => Lock post [LOCK_POST_EXPLAIN] => Prevent editing [LOCK_TOPIC] => Lock topic [LOGIN] => Login [LOGIN_CHECK_PM] => Log in to check your private messages. [LOGIN_CONFIRMATION] => Confirmation of login [LOGIN_CONFIRM_EXPLAIN] => To prevent brute forcing accounts the board requires you to enter a confirmation code after a maximum amount of failed logins. The code is displayed in the image you should see below. If you are visually impaired or cannot otherwise read this code please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s. [LOGIN_ERROR_ATTEMPTS] => You exceeded the maximum allowed number of login attempts. In addition to your username and password you now also have to solve the CAPTCHA below. [LOGIN_ERROR_EXTERNAL_AUTH_APACHE] => You have not been authenticated by Apache. [LOGIN_ERROR_PASSWORD] => You have specified an incorrect password. Please check your password and try again. If you continue to have problems please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s. [LOGIN_ERROR_PASSWORD_CONVERT] => It was not possible to convert your password when updating this bulletin board’s software. Please %srequest a new password%s. If you continue to have problems please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s. [LOGIN_ERROR_USERNAME] => You have specified an incorrect username. Please check your username and try again. If you continue to have problems please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s. [LOGIN_FORUM] => To view or post in this forum you must enter its password. [LOGIN_INFO] => In order to login you must be registered. Registering takes only a few moments but gives you increased capabilities. The board administrator may also grant additional permissions to registered users. Before you register please ensure you are familiar with our terms of use and related policies. Please ensure you read any forum rules as you navigate around the board. [LOGIN_VIEWFORUM] => The board requires you to be registered and logged in to view this forum. [LOGIN_EXPLAIN_EDIT] => In order to edit posts in this forum you have to be registered and logged in. [LOGIN_EXPLAIN_VIEWONLINE] => In order to view the online list you have to be registered and logged in. 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[NOT_AUTHORISED] => You are not authorised to access this area. [NOT_WATCHING_FORUM] => You are no longer subscribed to updates on this forum. [NOT_WATCHING_TOPIC] => You are no longer subscribed to this topic. [NOTIFY_ADMIN] => Please notify the board administrator or webmaster. [NOTIFY_ADMIN_EMAIL] => Please notify the board administrator or webmaster: %1$s [NO_ACCESS_ATTACHMENT] => You are not allowed to access this file. [NO_ACTION] => No action specified. [NO_ADMINISTRATORS] => There are no administrators. [NO_AUTH_ADMIN] => Access to the Administration Control Panel is not allowed as you do not have administrative permissions. [NO_AUTH_ADMIN_USER_DIFFER] => You are not able to re-authenticate as a different user. [NO_AUTH_OPERATION] => You do not have the necessary permissions to complete this operation. [NO_CONNECT_TO_SMTP_HOST] => Could not connect to smtp host : %1$s : %2$s [NO_BIRTHDAYS] => No birthdays today [NO_EMAIL_MESSAGE] => E-mail message was blank. [NO_EMAIL_RESPONSE_CODE] => Could not get mail server response codes. [NO_EMAIL_SUBJECT] => No e-mail subject specified. [NO_FORUM] => The forum you selected does not exist. [NO_FORUMS] => This board has no forums. [NO_GROUP] => The requested usergroup does not exist. [NO_GROUP_MEMBERS] => This group currently has no members. [NO_IPS_DEFINED] => No IP addresses or hostnames defined [NO_MEMBERS] => No members found for this search criterion. [NO_MESSAGES] => No messages [NO_MODE] => No mode specified. [NO_MODERATORS] => There are no moderators. [NO_NEW_MESSAGES] => No new messages [NO_NEW_PM] => 0 new messages [NO_NEW_POSTS] => No new posts [NO_ONLINE_USERS] => No registered users [NO_POSTS] => No posts [NO_POSTS_TIME_FRAME] => No posts exist inside this topic for the selected time frame. [NO_FEED_ENABLED] => Feeds are not available on this board. [NO_FEED] => The requested feed is not available. [NO_STYLE_DATA] => Could not get style data [NO_SUBJECT] => No subject specified [NO_SUCH_SEARCH_MODULE] => The specified search backend doesn’t exist. [NO_SUPPORTED_AUTH_METHODS] => No supported authentication methods. [NO_TOPIC] => The requested topic does not exist. [NO_TOPIC_FORUM] => The topic or forum no longer exists. [NO_TOPICS] => There are no topics or posts in this forum. [NO_TOPICS_TIME_FRAME] => No topics exist inside this forum for the selected time frame. [NO_UNREAD_PM] => 0 unread messages [NO_UNREAD_POSTS] => There are no new unread posts for this topic. [NO_UPLOAD_FORM_FOUND] => Upload initiated but no valid file upload form found. [NO_USER] => The requested user does not exist. [NO_USERS] => The requested users do not exist. [NO_USER_SPECIFIED] => No username was specified. 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[POST_BY_AUTHOR] => by [POST_BY_FOE] => This post was made by %1$s who is currently on your ignore list. %2$sDisplay this post%3$s. [POST_DAY] => %.2f posts per day [POST_DETAILS] => Post details [POST_NEW_TOPIC] => Post new topic [POST_PCT] => %.2f%% of all posts [POST_PCT_ACTIVE] => %.2f%% of user’s posts [POST_PCT_ACTIVE_OWN] => %.2f%% of your posts [POST_REPLY] => Post a reply [POST_REPORTED] => Click to view report [POST_SUBJECT] => Post subject [POST_TIME] => Post time [POST_TOPIC] => Post a new topic [POST_UNAPPROVED] => This post is waiting for approval [POWERED_BY] => Powered by %s [PREVIEW] => Preview [PREVIOUS] => Previous [PREVIOUS_STEP] => Previous [PRIVACY] => Privacy policy [PRIVATE_MESSAGE] => Private message [PRIVATE_MESSAGES] => Private messages [PRIVATE_MESSAGING] => Private messaging [PROFILE] => User Control Panel [RANK] => Rank [READING_FORUM] => Viewing topics in %s [READING_GLOBAL_ANNOUNCE] => Reading global announcement [READING_LINK] => Following forum link %s [READING_TOPIC] => Reading topic in %s [READ_PROFILE] => Profile [REASON] => Reason [RECORD_ONLINE_USERS] => Most users ever online was %1$s on %2$s [REDIRECT] => Redirect [REDIRECTS] => Total redirects [REGISTER] => Register [REGISTERED_USERS] => Registered users: [REG_USERS_ONLINE] => There are %d registered users and [REG_USERS_TOTAL] => %d registered, [REG_USERS_TOTAL_AND] => %d registered and [REG_USERS_ZERO_ONLINE] => There are 0 registered users and [REG_USERS_ZERO_TOTAL] => 0 registered, [REG_USERS_ZERO_TOTAL_AND] => 0 registered and [REG_USER_ONLINE] => There is %d registered user and [REG_USER_TOTAL] => %d registered, [REG_USER_TOTAL_AND] => %d registered and [REMOVE] => Remove [REMOVE_INSTALL] => Please delete, move or rename the install directory before you use your board. If this directory is still present, only the Administration Control Panel (ACP) will be accessible. 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[SORRY_AUTH_READ] => You are not authorised to read this forum. [SORRY_AUTH_VIEW_ATTACH] => You are not authorised to download this attachment. [SORT_BY] => Sort by [SORT_JOINED] => Joined date [SORT_LOCATION] => Location [SORT_RANK] => Rank [SORT_POSTS] => Posts [SORT_TOPIC_TITLE] => Topic title [SORT_USERNAME] => Username [SPLIT_TOPIC] => Split topic [SQL_ERROR_OCCURRED] => An SQL error occurred while fetching this page. Please contact the %sBoard Administrator%s if this problem persists. [STATISTICS] => Statistics [START_WATCHING_FORUM] => Subscribe forum [START_WATCHING_TOPIC] => Subscribe topic [STOP_WATCHING_FORUM] => Unsubscribe forum [STOP_WATCHING_TOPIC] => Unsubscribe topic [SUBFORUM] => Subforum [SUBFORUMS] => Subforums [SUBJECT] => Subject [SUBMIT] => Submit [TB] => TB [TERMS_USE] => Terms of use [TEST_CONNECTION] => Test connection [THE_TEAM] => The team [TIB] => TiB [TIME] => Time [TOO_LARGE] => The value you entered is too large. [TOO_LARGE_MAX_RECIPIENTS] => The value of Maximum number of allowed recipients per private message setting you entered is too large. [TOO_LONG] => The value you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_AIM] => The screenname you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_CONFIRM_CODE] => The confirm code you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_DATEFORMAT] => The date format you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_ICQ] => The ICQ number you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_INTERESTS] => The interests you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_JABBER] => The Jabber account name you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_LOCATION] => The location you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_MSN] => The MSNM/WLM name you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_NEW_PASSWORD] => The password you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_OCCUPATION] => The occupation you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_PASSWORD_CONFIRM] => The password confirmation you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_USER_PASSWORD] => The password you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_USERNAME] => The username you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_EMAIL] => The e-mail address you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_EMAIL_CONFIRM] => The e-mail address confirmation you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_WEBSITE] => The website address you entered is too long. [TOO_LONG_YIM] => The Yahoo! Messenger name you entered is too long. [TOO_MANY_VOTE_OPTIONS] => You have tried to vote for too many options. [TOO_SHORT] => The value you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_AIM] => The screenname you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_CONFIRM_CODE] => The confirm code you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_DATEFORMAT] => The date format you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_ICQ] => The ICQ number you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_INTERESTS] => The interests you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_JABBER] => The Jabber account name you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_LOCATION] => The location you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_MSN] => The MSNM/WLM name you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_NEW_PASSWORD] => The password you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_OCCUPATION] => The occupation you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_PASSWORD_CONFIRM] => The password confirmation you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_USER_PASSWORD] => The password you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_USERNAME] => The username you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_EMAIL] => The e-mail address you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_EMAIL_CONFIRM] => The e-mail address confirmation you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_WEBSITE] => The website address you entered is too short. [TOO_SHORT_YIM] => The Yahoo! Messenger name you entered is too short. [TOO_SMALL] => The value you entered is too small. [TOO_SMALL_MAX_RECIPIENTS] => The value of Maximum number of allowed recipients per private message setting you entered is too small. [TOPIC] => Topic [TOPICS] => Topics [TOPICS_UNAPPROVED] => At least one topic in this forum has not been approved. [TOPIC_ICON] => Topic icon [TOPIC_LOCKED] => This topic is locked, you cannot edit posts or make further replies. [TOPIC_LOCKED_SHORT] => Topic locked [TOPIC_MOVED] => Moved topic [TOPIC_REVIEW] => Topic review [TOPIC_TITLE] => Topic title [TOPIC_UNAPPROVED] => This topic has not been approved [TOTAL_ATTACHMENTS] => Attachment(s) [TOTAL_LOG] => 1 log [TOTAL_LOGS] => %d logs [TOTAL_NO_PM] => 0 private messages in total [TOTAL_PM] => 1 private message in total [TOTAL_PMS] => %d private messages in total [TOTAL_POSTS] => Total posts [TOTAL_POSTS_OTHER] => Total posts %d [TOTAL_POSTS_ZERO] => Total posts 0 [TOPIC_REPORTED] => This topic has been reported [TOTAL_TOPICS_OTHER] => Total topics %d [TOTAL_TOPICS_ZERO] => Total topics 0 [TOTAL_USERS_OTHER] => Total members %d [TOTAL_USERS_ZERO] => Total members 0 [TRACKED_PHP_ERROR] => Tracked PHP errors: %s [UNABLE_GET_IMAGE_SIZE] => It was not possible to determine the dimensions of the image. [UNABLE_TO_DELIVER_FILE] => Unable to deliver file. [UNKNOWN_BROWSER] => Unknown browser [UNMARK_ALL] => Unmark all [UNREAD_MESSAGES] => Unread messages [UNREAD_PM] => %d unread message [UNREAD_PMS] => %d unread messages [UNREAD_POST] => Unread post [UNREAD_POSTS] => Unread posts [UNWATCH_FORUM_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you wish to unsubscribe from this forum? [UNWATCH_FORUM_DETAILED] => Are you sure you wish to unsubscribe from the forum “%s”? [UNWATCH_TOPIC_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you wish to unsubscribe from this topic? [UNWATCH_TOPIC_DETAILED] => Are you sure you wish to unsubscribe from the topic “%s”? [UNWATCHED_FORUMS] => You are no longer subscribed to the selected forums. [UNWATCHED_TOPICS] => You are no longer subscribed to the selected topics. [UNWATCHED_FORUMS_TOPICS] => You are no longer subscribed to the selected entries. [UPDATE] => Update [UPLOAD_IN_PROGRESS] => The upload is currently in progress. [URL_REDIRECT] => If your browser does not support meta redirection %splease click HERE to be redirected%s. [USERGROUPS] => Groups [USERNAME] => Username [USERNAMES] => Usernames [USER_AVATAR] => User avatar [USER_CANNOT_READ] => You cannot read posts in this forum. [USER_POST] => %d Post [USER_POSTS] => %d Posts [USERS] => Users [USE_PERMISSIONS] => Test out user’s permissions [USER_NEW_PERMISSION_DISALLOWED] => We are sorry, but you are not authorised to use this feature. You may have just registered here and may need to participate more to be able to use this feature. 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[WATCH_FORUM_DETAILED] => Are you sure you wish to subscribe to the forum “%s”? [WATCH_TOPIC_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you wish to subscribe to this topic? [WATCH_TOPIC_DETAILED] => Are you sure you wish to subscribe to the topic “%s”? [WELCOME_SUBJECT] => Welcome to %s forums [WEBSITE] => Website [WHOIS] => Whois [WHO_IS_ONLINE] => Who is online [WRONG_PASSWORD] => You entered an incorrect password. [WRONG_DATA_COLOUR] => The colour value you entered is invalid. [WRONG_DATA_ICQ] => The number you entered is not a valid ICQ number. [WRONG_DATA_JABBER] => The name you entered is not a valid Jabber account name. [WRONG_DATA_LANG] => The language you specified is not valid. [WRONG_DATA_WEBSITE] => The website address has to be a valid URL, including the protocol. For example http://www.example.com/. [WROTE] => wrote [YEAR] => Year [YEAR_MONTH_DAY] => (YYYY-MM-DD) [YES] => Yes [YIM] => YIM [YOU_LAST_VISIT] => Last visit was: %s [YOU_NEW_PM] => A new private message is waiting for you in your Inbox. [YOU_NEW_PMS] => New private messages are waiting for you in your Inbox. [YOU_NO_NEW_PM] => No new private messages are waiting for you. 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1. You are a well-known spammer.
2. Last time a well-known spammer was using the dynamic IP address which you got from your ISP (Internet Service Provider), your e-mail address or the username you have choosen.
3. Your ISP is well-known for a lot of spamming customers and is not fighting against spammers enough. [CONTACT_BLACKLISTED] => If you are not a spammer you can contact the board administration. [DOMAIN_BLACKLISTED] => The domain %1$s you have posted has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %2$s. [EMAIL_DOMAIN_BLACKLISTED] => The e-mail domain %1$s you have used for your e-mail address has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %2$s. [HTTPBL_BLACKLISTED] => Your IP %1$s or your username %2$s or your e-mail address %3$s has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %4$s. [RECHECK_SPAM] => Re-Check spam [RECHECK_SPAM_BREAK] =>
Normally spam check would been stopped here!

[RECHECK_SPAM_DNSMX] => E-mail domain would been blocked by DNS MX check.
E-mail domain: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL] => E-mail domain would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL_NEXT] => E-mail domain also would been found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the Domain-RBL DNS Blacklists would been different then it would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL_NOT] => E-mail domain would not been blocked but found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_EMAIL_URI] => E-mail domain: %1$s • Domain-RBL: %2$sLookup

[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST] => Posted domains would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST_NEXT] => Posted domains also would been found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the Domain-RBL DNS Blacklists would been different then the posted domains would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST_NOT] => Posted domains would not been blocked but found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_POST_URI] => Posted domain: %1$s • Domain-RBL: %2$sLookup
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE] => Domains used in signature would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE_NEXT] => Domains used in signature also would been found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the Domain-RBL DNS Blacklists signature would been different then it would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE_NOT] => Domains used in signature would not been blocked but found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_SIGNATURE_URI] => Signature: %1$s • Domain-RBL: %2$sLookup
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE] => Domain of website profile field would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE_NEXT] => Domain of website profile field also would been found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the Domain-RBL DNS Blacklists website profile field would been different then it would been blocked by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE_NOT] => Domain of website profile field would not been blocked but found by following Domain-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINRBL_WEBSITE_URI] => Domain of website: %1$s • Domain-RBL: %2$sLookup

[RECHECK_SPAM_DOMAINS] => Posted domains: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_EMAILDOMAIN] => E-mail domain: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_EMAIL] => E-mail: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_FOR] => Re-Check spam for %s [RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL] => Would been blocked by following HTTP Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL_DATA] => HTTP-BL: %1$s • found values: %3$sLookup
[RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL_NEXT] => Also would been found by following HTTP Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the HTTP Blacklists would been different then it would been blocked by following HTTP Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_HTTPBL_NOT] => Would not been blocked but found by following HTTP Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_IP] => IP: %s
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL] => Would been blocked by following IP-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL_IP] => IP-RBL: %1$sLookup
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL_NEXT] => Also would been found by following IP-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL_NO] => If blocking would be enabled or the settings for the IP-RBL DNS Blacklists would been different then it would been blocked by following IP-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_IPRBL_NOT] => Would not been blocked but found by following IP-RBL DNS Blacklist(s):
[RECHECK_SPAM_NO] => Not blocked or found by any feature. Seems not to be spam or spammer. [RECHECK_SPAM_USERNAME] => Username: %s
[REPORT_SPAM_POST] => Report and delete spam post [SIGNATURE_BLACKLISTED] => The domain %1$s you have used for your signature has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %2$s. [WEBSITE_BLACKLISTED] => The domain %1$s you have used for your website has been blocked because it is blacklisted. For details please see %2$s. [WRONG_TIMEZONE] => You entered an incorrect timezone. Please stay on earth! [ATTACHMENT] => Attachment [ATTACHMENT_FUNCTIONALITY_DISABLED] => The attachments feature has been disabled. [BOOKMARK_ADDED] => Bookmarked topic successfully. [BOOKMARK_ERR] => Bookmarking the topic failed. Please try again. [BOOKMARK_REMOVED] => Removed bookmarked topic successfully. [BOOKMARK_TOPIC] => Bookmark topic [BOOKMARK_TOPIC_REMOVE] => Remove from bookmarks [BUMPED_BY] => Last bumped by %1$s on %2$s. [BUMP_TOPIC] => Bump topic [CODE] => Code [COLLAPSE_QR] => Hide Quick Reply [DELETE_TOPIC] => Delete topic [DOWNLOAD_NOTICE] => You do not have the required permissions to view the files attached to this post. [EDITED_TIMES_TOTAL] => Last edited by %1$s on %2$s, edited %3$d times in total. [EDITED_TIME_TOTAL] => Last edited by %1$s on %2$s, edited %3$d time in total. [EMAIL_TOPIC] => E-mail friend [ERROR_NO_ATTACHMENT] => The selected attachment does not exist anymore. [FILE_NOT_FOUND_404] => The file %s does not exist. [FORK_TOPIC] => Copy topic [FULL_EDITOR] => Full Editor [LINKAGE_FORBIDDEN] => You are not authorised to view, download or link from/to this site. [LOGIN_NOTIFY_TOPIC] => You have been notified about this topic, please login to view it. [LOGIN_VIEWTOPIC] => The board requires you to be registered and logged in to view this topic. [MAKE_ANNOUNCE] => Change to “Announcement” [MAKE_GLOBAL] => Change to “Global” [MAKE_NORMAL] => Change to “Standard Topic” [MAKE_STICKY] => Change to “Sticky” [MAX_OPTIONS_SELECT] => You may select up to %d options [MAX_OPTION_SELECT] => You may select 1 option [MISSING_INLINE_ATTACHMENT] => The attachment %s is no longer available [MOVE_TOPIC] => Move topic [NO_ATTACHMENT_SELECTED] => You haven’t selected an attachment to download or view. [NO_NEWER_TOPICS] => There are no newer topics in this forum. [NO_OLDER_TOPICS] => There are no older topics in this forum. [NO_VOTE_OPTION] => You must specify an option when voting. [NO_VOTES] => No votes [POLL_ENDED_AT] => Poll ended at %s [POLL_RUN_TILL] => Poll runs till %s [POLL_VOTED_OPTION] => You voted for this option [PRINT_TOPIC] => Print view [QUICK_MOD] => Quick-mod tools [QUICKREPLY] => Quick Reply [QUOTE] => Quote [REPLY_TO_TOPIC] => Reply to topic [RETURN_POST] => %sReturn to the post%s [SHOW_QR] => Quick Reply [SUBMIT_VOTE] => Submit vote [TOTAL_VOTES] => Total votes [UNLOCK_TOPIC] => Unlock topic [VIEW_INFO] => Post details [VIEW_NEXT_TOPIC] => Next topic [VIEW_PREVIOUS_TOPIC] => Previous topic [VIEW_RESULTS] => View results [VIEW_TOPIC_POST] => 1 post [VIEW_TOPIC_POSTS] => %d posts [VIEW_UNREAD_POST] => First unread post [VOTE_SUBMITTED] => Your vote has been cast. [VOTE_CONVERTED] => Changing votes is not supported for converted polls. [CLOSE_NOTIFICATION] => Report closed notification [DELETE_NOTIFICATION] => Report deleted notification [EDIT_NOTIFICATION] => Post edit notification [POST_APPROVE] => Post approval notification [POST_DISAPPROVE] => Post disapproval notification [POST_GLOBAL] => Global [POST_NOTIFICATION] => New post notification [POST_NOTIFY_EDIT] => edited post [POST_NOTIFY_NEW] => new post [POST_NOTIFY_REPLY] => reply [POST_QUEUE] => Post queue [POST_QUEUE_NOTIFICATION] => Queued post notification [QUEUE_NOTIFICATION] => Queued reply notification [QUEUED_POST] => queued post [REPLY_NOTIFICATION] => Post reply notification [REPORT_NOTIFICATION] => New report notification [REPORTED] => Reported [TOPIC_QUEUE] => Topic queue [PM_POST] => Hello %s You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following %s has been made in the topic %s Author : %s Topic URL : %s Subject : %s Topic type : %s Queued : %s Message : %s %s [PM_POST_APPROVE] => Hello %s, You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following queued post has been approved by %s in the topic %s Author : %s Topic URL : %s Subject : %s Topic type : %s Queued : %s Message : %s %s [PM_POST_DISAPPROVE] => Hello %s, You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following queued post has been disapproved by %s in the topic %s Author : %s Reason : %s Subject : %s Topic type : %s Topic type : %s Queued : %s Message : %s %s [PM_REPORT] => Hello %s, You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following report has been made by %s in the topic %s Topic URL : %s Report URL : %s Subject : %s Report reason : %s Report message : %s %s [PM_REPORT_CLOSE] => Hello %s, You are receiving this notification because you are either an Administrator or a moderator of the %s forum. The following report has been closed by %s in the topic %s Topic URL : %s Report URL : %s Subject : %s Report reason : %s Report message : %s %s [ADVERTISEMENT_MANAGEMENT_CREDITS] => Advertisements by Advertisement Management [MY_ADS] => My Advertisements [ABOVE_FOOTER] => Above Footer [ABOVE_HEADER] => Above Header [ABOVE_POSTS] => Above Posts [AFTER_EVERY_POST] => After Every Post Except First [AFTER_FIRST_POST] => After First Post [BELOW_FOOTER] => Below Footer [BELOW_HEADER] => Below Header [BELOW_POSTS] => Below Posts [0_OR_NA] => 0 or N/A [ACP_ADVERTISEMENT_MANAGEMENT_EXPLAIN] => Here you can change the Advertisement Management Settings, Add/Remove/Edit Advertisement Positions, and Add/Remove/Edit Advertisements. [ACP_ADVERTISEMENT_MANAGEMENT_SETTINGS] => Advertisement Management Settings [ADS_ACCURATE_VIEWS] => Accurate View Counts [ADS_ACCURATE_VIEWS_EXPLAIN] => Makes counting of Ad Views much more accurate, but increases server load. [ADS_COUNT_CLICKS] => Count Ad Clicks [ADS_COUNT_CLICKS_EXPLAIN] => If set to no, advertisement clicks will not be counted (less server load). [ADS_COUNT_VIEWS] => Count Ad Views [ADS_COUNT_VIEWS_EXPLAIN] => If set to no, advertisement views will not be counted (less server load). [AD_CREATED] => Ad Created [ADS_ENABLE] => Enable Advertisements [ADS_GROUP] => Advertisement Owner Group [ADS_GROUP_EXPLAIN] => Group the advertisement owners will be added to (not required, only if you want to add them to a specific group to keep track of them). [ADS_RULES_FORUMS] => Use Forum Rules for Ads [ADS_RULES_FORUMS_EXPLAIN] => If enabled, it allows you to control which forums each advertisement is displayed in. If you do not plan on using this you should set this to no so it uses less resources. [ADS_RULES_GROUPS] => Use Group Rules for Ads [ADS_RULES_GROUPS_EXPLAIN] => If enabled, it allows you to control which groups do/don't see specific advertisements. If you do not plan on using this you should set this to no so it uses less resources. [ADS_VERSION] => Advertisement Management Version [ADVERTISEMENT] => Advertisement [ADVERTISEMENT_MANAGEMENT_UPDATE_SUCCESS] => The Advertisement Management settings have been updated successfully! [AD_ADD_SUCCESS] => Advertisement Added Successfully! [AD_CLICK_LIMIT] => Ad Clicks Limit [AD_CLICK_LIMIT_EXPLAIN] => 0 to disable, otherwise the ad will become disabled after this number of clicks. [AD_CLICKS] => Ad Clicks [AD_CLICKS_EXPLAIN] => The current number of clicks for this advertisement (if setup correctly). [AD_CODE] => Ad Code [AD_CODE_EXPLAIN] => The Advertisement code you would like shown goes here. All code should be put in a raw HTML form, BBcodes are not supported.
If you would like to enable the click counter, use the {COUNT_CLICK} in any place where the onclick attribute is allowed (the a tag for example). [AD_EDIT_SUCCESS] => Advertisement Edited Successfully! [AD_ENABLED] => Ad Enabled [AD_ENABLED_EXPLAIN] => Uncheck to disable this advertisement from displaying. [AD_FORUMS] => Forum List [AD_FORUMS_EXPLAIN] => Select the forums where you would like this ad to be displayed. You may select multiple forums by holding down the CTRL key. [AD_GROUPS] => Groups [AD_GROUPS_EXPLAIN] => Select the groups you do NOT want this advertisement to be shown to. You may select multiple groups by holding the CTRL key while clicking more groups. [AD_LIST_NOTICE] => Ad Clicks will only be available if you used the {COUNT_CLICK} in a place that works with the onclick attribute. [AD_MAX_VIEWS] => Max Views [AD_MAX_VIEWS_EXPLAIN] => The maximum views before this advertisement will no longer be shown. 0 means no max limit. [AD_NAME] => Ad Name [AD_NAME_EXPLAIN] => This is only used for your recognition of the ad. [AD_NOT_EXIST] => The selected advertisement does not exist. [AD_NOTE] => Ad Notes [AD_NOTE_EXPLAIN] => Enter any notes for this advertisement if you'd like. These notes are not shown anywhere except in the ACP. [AD_OWNER] => Ad Owner [AD_OWNER_EXPLAIN] => The user who owns this advertisement (can see it in their advertisements panel). [AD_POSITIONS] => Positions [AD_POSITIONS_EXPLAIN] => Select the positions where you would like this advertisement to show. [AD_PRIORITY] => Ad Priority [AD_PRIORITY_EXPLAIN] => The higher the number the more likely the advertisement will be displayed. For example, an ad with a priority of 2 will be 2x as likely as an ad with a priority of 1 to be shown, 3 would be 3x as likely, etc, etc. [AD_TIME_END] => Run until [AD_TIME_END_BEFORE_NOW] => The end time you entered is before the time right now. Please make sure you are using a strtotime compatible date. [AD_TIME_END_EXPLAIN] => Enter a valid date to end the advertisement at. After the entered time the ad will be disabled automatically. Note that this uses the PHP strtotime function, so be sure to format it correctly or it will not be set.

This end date is not entirely accurate with timezones and such, so exact times should not be relied on. It is recommended that you plan on an accuracy of within 1 day of the given time. [AD_VIEW_LIMIT] => Ad Views Limit [AD_VIEW_LIMIT_EXPLAIN] => 0 to disable, otherwise the ad will become disabled after this number of views. [AD_VIEWS] => Ad Views [AD_VIEWS_EXPLAIN] => The current number of views of this advertisement. [ALL_FORUMS_EXPLAIN] => Select to show in all forums and pages. Note that if this is unchecked the advertisement will not show on non-forum related pages (like the FAQ page for example). [CREATE_AD] => Create Ad [CREATE_POSITION] => Create Position [COPY] => Copy [DELETE_AD] => Delete Advertisement [DELETE_AD_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you want to remove this advertisement? [DELETE_AD_SUCCESS] => The advertisement has been successfully deleted! [DELETE_POSITION] => Delete Position [DELETE_POSITION_CONFIRM] => Are you sure you want to remove this position? If you remove a position, any advertisements that were shown in that position will no longer be shown. [DELETE_POSITION_SUCCESS] => The position has been successfully deleted! [FALSE] => False [NO_ADS_CREATED] => No Ads Created [NO_AD_NAME] => You must set a name for the advertisement. [NO_POSITIONS_CREATED] => No Positions Created [POSITION] => Position [POSITION_CODE] => Position Code [POSITION_EDIT_SUCCESS] => Position Edited Successfully! [POSITION_NAME] => Position Name [POSITION_NAME_EXPLAIN] => The name of the position. [POSITION_NOT_EXIST] => The selected position does not exist. [POSTITION_ADD_SUCCESS] => Position Added Successfully! [POSTITION_ALREADY_EXIST] => You already have a position by that name. [TRUE] => True [PST_TITLE_ACP] => Similar Topics [PST_TITLE] => Precise Similar Topics II [PST_LEGEND1] => General Settings [PST_ENABLE] => Enable Similar Topics [PST_LEGEND2] => Load Settings [PST_LIMIT] => Number of Similar Topics to display [PST_LIMIT_EXPLAIN] => Here you can define how many similar topics to display. The default is 5 topics. [PST_TIME] => Search Period [PST_TIME_EXPLAIN] => This option allows you to configure the Similar Topics search period. For example, if set to “5 days” the system will only show similar topics from within the last 5 days. The default is 1 year. [PST_YEARS] => Years [PST_MONTHS] => Months [PST_WEEKS] => Weeks [PST_DAYS] => Days [PST_CACHE] => Similar Topics cache length [PST_CACHE_EXPLAIN] => Cached similar topics will expire after this time, in seconds. Set to 0 if you want to disable the similar topics cache. [PST_LEGEND3] => Forum Settings [PST_NOSHOW_LIST] => Do Not Display In [PST_NOSHOW_TITLE] => Do not display similar topics in [PST_IGNORE_SEARCH] => Do Not Search In [PST_IGNORE_TITLE] => Do not search for similar topics in [PST_ADVANCED] => Advanced [PST_ADVANCED_TITLE] => Click to set up advanced similar topic settings for [PST_ADVANCED_EXP] => Here you can select specific forums to pull similar topics from. Only similar topics found in the forums you select here will be displayed in %s.

Do not select any forums if you want similar topics from all searchable forums to be displayed in this forum. [PST_DESELECT_ALL] => Deselect all [PST_LEGEND4] => Optional Settings [PST_WORDS] => Special words to ignore [PST_WORDS_EXPLAIN] => Add special words unique to your forum that should be ignored when finding similar topics. (Note: Words that are currently regarded as common in your language are already ignored by default.) Separate each word with a space. Case insensitive. Max. 255 characters. [PST_SAVED] => Similar Topics settings updated [PST_FORUM_INFO] => “Do Not Display In”: Will not show similar topics in the selected forums.
“Do Not Search In” : Will not search the selected forums for similar topics. [PST_WARNING] => Similar Topics will not work with your forum. Similar Topics requires a MySQL 4 or MySQL 5 database. [PST_LOG_MSG] => Altered similar topics settings [PST_FULLTEXT_ADD] => Adding FULLTEXT index: topic_title [PST_FULLTEXT_DROP] => Dropped FULLTEXT index: topic_title [PST_FULLTEXT_PASS] => Your database is compatible with this MOD. Enjoy :-) [PST_FULLTEXT_FAIL] => WARNING: You should not install this MOD! Your database does not support FULLTEXT indexes. This usually means your topics table is not using the MyISAM storage engine required for this MOD to work. More information. [PST_DATABASE_FAIL] => WARNING: You should not install this MOD! Your database is not MySQL as required by this MOD. 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[image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_report_spam] => Array ( [image_id] => 638 [image_name] => icon_post_report_spam [image_filename] => icon_post_report_spam.gif [image_lang] => [image_height] => 16 [image_width] => 16 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_moved] => Array ( [image_id] => 639 [image_name] => topic_moved [image_filename] => topic_moved.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 640 [image_name] => topic_read [image_filename] => topic_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 641 [image_name] => topic_read_mine [image_filename] => topic_read_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_hot] => Array ( [image_id] => 642 [image_name] => topic_read_hot [image_filename] => topic_read_hot.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_hot_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 643 [image_name] => topic_read_hot_mine [image_filename] => topic_read_hot_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 644 [image_name] => topic_read_locked [image_filename] => topic_read_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_read_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 645 [image_name] => topic_read_locked_mine [image_filename] => topic_read_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 646 [image_name] => topic_unread [image_filename] => topic_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 647 [image_name] => topic_unread_mine [image_filename] => topic_unread_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_hot] => Array ( [image_id] => 648 [image_name] => topic_unread_hot [image_filename] => topic_unread_hot.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_hot_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 649 [image_name] => topic_unread_hot_mine [image_filename] => topic_unread_hot_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 650 [image_name] => topic_unread_locked [image_filename] => topic_unread_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [topic_unread_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 651 [image_name] => topic_unread_locked_mine [image_filename] => topic_unread_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 652 [image_name] => sticky_read [image_filename] => sticky_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_read_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 653 [image_name] => sticky_read_mine [image_filename] => sticky_read_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_read_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 654 [image_name] => sticky_read_locked [image_filename] => sticky_read_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_read_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 655 [image_name] => sticky_read_locked_mine [image_filename] => sticky_read_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 656 [image_name] => sticky_unread [image_filename] => sticky_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_unread_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 657 [image_name] => sticky_unread_mine [image_filename] => sticky_unread_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_unread_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 658 [image_name] => sticky_unread_locked [image_filename] => sticky_unread_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [sticky_unread_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 659 [image_name] => sticky_unread_locked_mine [image_filename] => sticky_unread_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 660 [image_name] => announce_read [image_filename] => announce_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_read_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 661 [image_name] => announce_read_mine [image_filename] => announce_read_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_read_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 662 [image_name] => announce_read_locked [image_filename] => announce_read_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_read_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 663 [image_name] => announce_read_locked_mine [image_filename] => announce_read_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 664 [image_name] => announce_unread [image_filename] => announce_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_unread_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 665 [image_name] => announce_unread_mine [image_filename] => announce_unread_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_unread_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 666 [image_name] => announce_unread_locked [image_filename] => announce_unread_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [announce_unread_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 667 [image_name] => announce_unread_locked_mine [image_filename] => announce_unread_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 668 [image_name] => global_read [image_filename] => announce_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_read_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 669 [image_name] => global_read_mine [image_filename] => announce_read_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_read_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 670 [image_name] => global_read_locked [image_filename] => announce_read_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_read_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 671 [image_name] => global_read_locked_mine [image_filename] => announce_read_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 672 [image_name] => global_unread [image_filename] => announce_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_unread_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 673 [image_name] => global_unread_mine [image_filename] => announce_unread_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_unread_locked] => Array ( [image_id] => 674 [image_name] => global_unread_locked [image_filename] => announce_unread_locked.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [global_unread_locked_mine] => Array ( [image_id] => 675 [image_name] => global_unread_locked_mine [image_filename] => announce_unread_locked_mine.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [subforum_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 676 [image_name] => subforum_read [image_filename] => subforum_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [subforum_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 677 [image_name] => subforum_unread [image_filename] => subforum_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [pm_read] => Array ( [image_id] => 678 [image_name] => pm_read [image_filename] => topic_read.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [pm_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 679 [image_name] => pm_unread [image_filename] => topic_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 27 [image_width] => 27 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_back_top] => Array ( [image_id] => 680 [image_name] => icon_back_top [image_filename] => icon_back_top.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 11 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_aim] => Array ( [image_id] => 681 [image_name] => icon_contact_aim [image_filename] => icon_contact_aim.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_email] => Array ( [image_id] => 682 [image_name] => icon_contact_email [image_filename] => icon_contact_email.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_icq] => Array ( [image_id] => 683 [image_name] => icon_contact_icq [image_filename] => icon_contact_icq.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_jabber] => Array ( [image_id] => 684 [image_name] => icon_contact_jabber [image_filename] => icon_contact_jabber.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_msnm] => Array ( [image_id] => 685 [image_name] => icon_contact_msnm [image_filename] => icon_contact_msnm.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_www] => Array ( [image_id] => 686 [image_name] => icon_contact_www [image_filename] => icon_contact_www.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_contact_yahoo] => Array ( [image_id] => 687 [image_name] => icon_contact_yahoo [image_filename] => icon_contact_yahoo.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_delete] => Array ( [image_id] => 688 [image_name] => icon_post_delete [image_filename] => icon_post_delete.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_info] => Array ( [image_id] => 689 [image_name] => icon_post_info [image_filename] => icon_post_info.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_report] => Array ( [image_id] => 690 [image_name] => icon_post_report [image_filename] => icon_post_report.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 20 [image_width] => 20 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_target] => Array ( [image_id] => 691 [image_name] => icon_post_target [image_filename] => icon_post_target.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_post_target_unread] => Array ( [image_id] => 692 [image_name] => icon_post_target_unread [image_filename] => icon_post_target_unread.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_topic_attach] => Array ( [image_id] => 693 [image_name] => icon_topic_attach [image_filename] => icon_topic_attach.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 10 [image_width] => 7 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_topic_latest] => Array ( [image_id] => 694 [image_name] => icon_topic_latest [image_filename] => icon_topic_latest.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_topic_newest] => Array ( [image_id] => 695 [image_name] => icon_topic_newest [image_filename] => icon_topic_newest.png [image_lang] => [image_height] => 9 [image_width] => 11 [imageset_id] => 2 ) [icon_topic_reported] => Array ( [image_id] => 696 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I Don't Enjoy Anything Anymore

Discussions in depression - new perspectives on depression. Get help if you are suffering, and discuss approaches if you are a therapist.

Postby ComradeTom » Thu Sep 29, 2011 10:19 pm

Hey

I don’t get any enjoyment out of life anymore. I’m just there. I just exist from one moment to the next, merely surviving on a day-to-day basis.

I haven’t always been depressed. People tend to think depression is feeling sad, but it isn’t. It’s an almost indescribable and indefinable feeling of awfulness, like a black cloud perpetually hovering over you. When I was a kid I think I was normal. I seemed normal until my late teens anyway.

People used to consider me intelligent, and from an academic perspective, I was (I believe there are many different ways to measure intelligence though). I used to be articulate when I spoke, but now I can barely string a sentence together. Then in my mid-late teens, I think is when the anxiety and depression started to kick in. I started to feel lethargic, my concentration got worse, I had difficulty motivating myself to do essays and my grades started to plummet. People told me I was lazy and just shouted at me when I tried to explain how I felt. Nobody listened. I had no idea what was wrong with me and became very withdrawn.

I felt pressured into doing a University degree I had no interest in. It made me feel like a lie and a fraud. I was disgusted at myself for being unable to stand up for myself. People would ask me why I decided to study my degree, and I would have no answer. I felt ashamed and hated talking to people about it. Ashamed that I was unable to stand up for myself. Now I work in a stressful office job (related to my degree) that I have no interest in. But when I return home at the end of the day my brain is still going and I still feel anxious. I just sit in my chair and stare at a computer screen. My eyes don’t read or absorb, they just stare and don’t take anything in.

It’s as if I am two different people. There is the person who exists on the surface, The person that other people perceive. This is the “fake” me. Then there is the person who exists somewhere in the head, who is trapped in there. The person who I really am who has been suppressed for so long and is no longer is able to express himself through use of my physical body. This is the person who has an interest in things, but is now no longer able to express this interest. It often feels like these two people that exist within me are at war with each other.

I’m tired and fed up. No moment in itself is unendurable, but it’s just seeing all of those moments strung together, stretching out beyond the horizon, unending.

Some days I feel very angry and frustrated. I wake up often in the night. Some days I pace aimlessly around the house.

All I feel is anxiety, dread, whatever the hell this godawful feeling is that clings to me and won’t go away. The things that used to interest me no longer do. My concentration is shot to pieces. Doing anything feels like a monumental effort. I just don’t see any point. All I do is just exist. I’ve tried to force myself to do the things I once loved, but it just doesn’t work.

Sorry for the rant, but I feel like I've reached my breaking point.
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Postby Candid » Fri Sep 30, 2011 1:40 am

ComradeTom wrote:The person who I really am who has been suppressed for so long and is no longer is able to express himself through use of my physical body.
This is what you need to connect with. I understand there's an Amerindian method for "calling a soul back"; it involves tying a rope around the victim and chucking them in deep water, making them fight for their lives. There's also an Inward Bound exercise in which people go hand-over-hand on a rope stretched across a chasm. If you get tired in the middle no one's going to come rescue you; you've got to get out of it yourself.

What I'm saying is, you need a crisis to pull you back into your body. If you keep thinking and feeling the way you are, a crisis will undoubtedly come to you... such as losing your job or having an accident. Better you manufacture a crisis and have it in a controlled environment.

So what scares you? It doesn't have to be something that's actually dangerous, although some people have recovered their spirit by parachuting out of planes. And please don't do anything illegal.

I suggest you set yourself a challenge, something that will get the adrenalin flowing. Think of something a good friend might 'dare' you to do... and do it.

Get physical. Run until your legs and lungs are about to give up, and then run some more. Thrash up and down the local swimming pool. Do anything you can think of to stir up that turgid mass that's settled in your gut.

Break your routine. Do something different. Take up some kind of precision hobby that requires you to concentrate every second... or else.

In other words... blast yourself out of that rut, boy!
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Postby Severijn » Fri Sep 30, 2011 10:04 am

Hi Tom.

How is your relationship with other people? Do you have many friends? Family? Many coworkers you know well? Can you tell them your problems and how do they react?
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Postby ComradeTom » Sun Oct 02, 2011 9:07 pm

Hi, thanks for the responses.

@Candid
I do think I need something to jolt me out of the stupor. I think a large part of my problem is my current job - I have no interest in it, and it's stressful. At work I feel very tense and agitated, like I'm contantly on edge. When I get home in the evening those feelings remain, so I'm in a contant state of agitation - which makes me unable to do things I once enjoyed.

I get what you're saying, but part of the problem I have is mustering up the energy reserves to do the activites you describe. I guess the best way of describing how I feel is that I'm a drained battery?

@Severijn
I've really struggled to make friends since I was in my late teens (prior to this I had no problems socialising), which is when my anxiety and depression kicked in, so my social circle has been shrinking in recent years (I'm now 25), and it's not the sort of thing I want to talk about with friends because I don't want to be seen as a killjoy or whatever and lose the few friends I have left. I live with my parents and I tried discussing how I felt when I was younger, but they didn't listen and just shouted at me, which makes me apprehensive about talking to them abou it. I don't really say much to my co-workers.


Going to make an appointment with my GP tomorrow because I can't go on living like this. I think about suicide on an alarmingly regular basis, which is a warning sign that I really need to do something about this. It's like my mental state has slowly deteriorated for the past 7 or 8 years and now I feel like I'm hitting rock bottom.
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Postby Severijn » Sun Oct 02, 2011 9:38 pm

So I hear you've got problems with depression, anxiety, and also some anger, tension and frustration.

I wonder where this all comes from? You say that the problems began in your mid-teens, like the age of 15/16 years?

You sound like a naturally talented person, that deep inside wants to accomplish something life. When you started getting these problems with depression and anxiety, you were not living your full potential. You did not make the friends you perhaps wanted to make in your heart. You missed social opportunities at first, and also made perhaps safe choices in your education and career, that did not reflect the inner you. I wonder what education/job you have? I think you started to sell yourself short during your mid teens, because of the depression and anxiety. So there the sort of split in your personality began. The first life on the inside and outside: the education and job you now have, and the social life that came with it. But deeper inside, you long for more. You wish your life had gone differently. Maybe that explains the divide inside yourself.

You think I am on track here? Do you have a deeper inner urge to accomplish a lot, at least much more than you have now? Would you call yourself on the inside ambitious?

You are 25 years now. That's still very young. There will be many social and economic opportunities in the future; and, besides, if there are not opportunities you can create them yourself. There are many things you can do:

1. Psychotherapy. I think CBT therapy is the best for you (cognitive behavioral therapy). Also social-interpersonal therapy will also work. Digging deep in your past is perhaps not a good idea: it might make the depression and anxiety even worse.

2. Self-improvement. This can be all kinds of things. From learning a new education/job, to improving your social skills more. I'll also include physical exercise: this is good for your depression and suicidal feelings. I strongly recommend doing some exercise. It's a sort of therapy by itself. When you feel a little better, set small goals for yourself: social, exercise, and economic/professional goals. Start small, then make them bigger.

3. Nutritional-therapy. Find out if you have any blood sugar problem, such as hypoglycemia. Have you ever been diagnosed with a physical illness? Mind and body are one. A physical illness could cause, or make worse, your depression. The thing is, you did ok before your mid-teens, and then plummeted. Makes me wonder where it came from(the anxiety and depression)? It could be a biochemical problem, or maybe not. Also, drink enough water, get enough fresh air, and get enough sun. Don't stay inside too much; if the sun shines, sit outside, listen some music, and take of your top shirt to get some sun-rays.

4. Antidepressants. The thing is, they usually don't work very well, unless you have severe depression. Since you said you feel suicidal, you should very much consider taking medications. They'll give you a good boost you can really need right now!

These are your major options. I strongly recommend combining all three of four of them, for they will give the best and quickest results. Take care mate, and if you have any questions don't hesitate to ask!
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Postby Candid » Mon Oct 03, 2011 12:54 am

ComradeTom wrote:I guess the best way of describing how I feel is that I'm a drained battery?
Oops, this is one for the nutritional brigade. The best of 'em is dav1307, so do a search on his posts or PM him if your status allows it.
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Postby Self Exploration » Thu Oct 06, 2011 2:06 am

Are you in touch with anything that is beautiful or uplifting or fun?
I know most of the time it may not be possible.
But it may be a like a muscle that has to be worked on.

But generally there must be some anger somewhere.
The anger is being directed at the self.
But anger is also an indication of a passion.

That has to be discovered.
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Postby mrfruitman » Thu Oct 06, 2011 6:50 am

omg.. i feel the same way.. except im 17. and i am in college, can i ask.. do your parents ask alot of you? like do they always tell you what to do? and say its for your own good.. then when u try your best.. and you do at the least of average, yell at you... and put you down.. i think i suffer from depression. and i believe they are just making it worse.
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Postby ComradeTom » Sun Oct 16, 2011 10:03 pm

Severijn wrote:I wonder where this all comes from? You say that the problems began in your mid-teens, like the age of 15/16 years?

You sound like a naturally talented person, that deep inside wants to accomplish something life. When you started getting these problems with depression and anxiety, you were not living your full potential. You did not make the friends you perhaps wanted to make in your heart. You missed social opportunities at first, and also made perhaps safe choices in your education and career, that did not reflect the inner you. I wonder what education/job you have? I think you started to sell yourself short during your mid teens, because of the depression and anxiety. So there the sort of split in your personality began. The first life on the inside and outside: the education and job you now have, and the social life that came with it. But deeper inside, you long for more. You wish your life had gone differently. Maybe that explains the divide inside yourself.

You think I am on track here? Do you have a deeper inner urge to accomplish a lot, at least much more than you have now? Would you call yourself on the inside ambitious?


Wow, what a brilliant post. Thanks for this, it's helped me make sense of some of my confused thoughts swimming around in my head.

You are on the right track. I'll explain a little bit more. I have a degree in Accountancy and Law. Most people would call it a "good" degree, because it helps you to get into a career which is well paid. The thing is, that I have no interest in either of these subjects. When I went to University I didn't care about either subject. I wanted to quit my degree, but continued with it because I felt like I would be letting people down if I quit halfway through. Now I work for a law firm (although I'm not a solicitor/lawyer, nor do I wish to be), doing a job I dislike in an environment I dislike.

I feel trapped because I have a degree which I have no interest in, and it feels like a false respresentation of who I really am. I hate telling people what I studied at University, because it doesn't feel like it's who I really am. Even when I was 16/17, I knew I didn't want to do this but I felt under pressure and couldn't stand up for myself. If I were to re-do my life, I'd have studied something like History, English Literature, Modern Languages, or even something related to Sound Engineering or Photography.

Although like I say, I've not always been depressed, and up until my mid-teens I was a normal, happy kid, as far as I can remember. It's only when I was 16 or so that I remember feeling this strange anxiety that made me want to hide from the world. It just slowly crept over me, and I don't know what caused it. It affected my self-confidence and assertiveness. It was a terrible time for this to occur because a lot of important decisions are made at that age, and it stopped me from pusuing what was important to me, which over the years has made the problem worse and worse and made the depression grow deeper, until I reached the desperate point I find myself at today. It's like the depression have always been lurking behind me, in my shadow, trailing behind me like an unlit fuse since my mid teens. Over the past year it feels like that fuse has been lit.

It's not that I have deeper urge to accomplish things, it's more that I just want to accomplish things that feel important to me. I know people might say "well do these things in the evening to give yourself something to look forward to!". Believe me, I have tried. But it doesn't work because I can't concentrate or focus on anything anymore. I really want to but my brain just won't allow it.

I have an appointment booked with my GP for Tuesday evening. I'm going to ask to be referred to a CBT practitioner, because I feel really desperate and like I need some help before I do something terrible. If offered meds I'll accept because at this point I feel so desperate I'll try anything. The last five months have been the worst of my life - I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy.
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Postby ComradeTom » Sun Oct 16, 2011 10:09 pm

mrfruitman wrote:omg.. i feel the same way.. except im 17. and i am in college, can i ask.. do your parents ask alot of you? like do they always tell you what to do? and say its for your own good.. then when u try your best.. and you do at the least of average, yell at you... and put you down.. i think i suffer from depression. and i believe they are just making it worse.


Hi mrfruitman.

I remember when I was 17 and yes, I felt under pressure from my parents. If you're having problems with depression, then being put under pressure can only make the problem worse. It did for me anyway, and caused me to make some poor life decisions.

Honestly, please learn from my mistake and go and see somebody about your depression now (if you havent already), rather than let it slowly destroy you over the next few years. It's what I should have done when I was your age. You don't want to end up like me.
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Postby Severijn » Mon Oct 17, 2011 11:44 am

ComradeTom.

I think you're doing the right thing: you are seeking help, in the form of therapy and perhaps medications. Hopefully, your depression will then become much less, and you'll be able to concentrate and study more.

If you feel better, you know what you truly deep inside must do: pursue your passions and true interests.

Don't recommend quitting your job, though. You could do a home/self study, or go to education for grown-ups. I'm sure these things exists. You can do this on the side, while you also practice your job.

I hope things turn out alright for you. If you have any questions let us know!
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Postby EndeavorToLive » Wed Oct 19, 2011 2:45 am

Comrade Tom,

I know the black cloud feeling -the anxiety - the lack of sleep - the lack of enjoying anything - and I have come back to life.

I can relate my experience - hopefully it will help.

The positive thing is that you have hit bottom - you have to do something!

Just make sure that something is positive.

I believe that your condition, as mine, is a result from a feeling of inadequacy because your life is not as you think it should be, and a feeling of helplessness because you don't see anyway to fix it.

This is a horribly destructive combination. And the longer it goes on, the worse it gets and the less ability you have to control it.

You are obviously intelligent - if you can for a moment use that intelligence to assess your situation as an objective observer, you will see that you are playing negative thoughts over and over in your mind. The very thoughts that you revealed in your post have become dominant and are weighing you down.

To start the journey out of depression, you first have to just accept your current situation. It is what it is. You buckled and went to college. You now have a stressful job in a field that may not be best for you. These things happened. However, all of things are in the past. Starting this minute, you get to choose whether you are going to continue to beat yourself up for those decisions, or accept them, and move forward. You cannot undo the decisions you made - but those decisions don't make you a bad person. Everyone screws up, in fact the wisest people are those that have screwed up the most. What really matters is not the decisions you have made, but the decisions you will make.

The first decision you must make is not to dwell on the things you have done in the past. The second decision you must make is not to dwell on the negative things and the stress at work - there is plenty of time for work issues wile you are at work - continuing to dwell on it will not make it better, it just makes you more sad. I say these things because this is what I had to do, and I know it works.

To start getting better, you have to start replacing the negative thoughts with positive ones. Think about things for which you are thankful - focus more on those things. Commit to learn to live a life you love - right now, you don't know what that is, but decide you are going to find it.

Become conscious of your negative thought patterns, and start consciously avoiding these thoughts - replace them with positive thoughts. I know it is not easy, but you have to start breaking those thought patterns.

Decide you are going to do the very best you can at the job you have now, and know that is all you can do. Take pride in the fact that you have done your best at your job - choose not to dwell on the stressful aspects. If you know your current job is not where you want to stay, figure out what you want to do, and start taking steps to move in that direction. In the meantime, find things outside of work that you enjoy or that have meaning to you, spend your time and energy on these things.

I would suggest trying to get something to help you sleep - I know from personal experience, if you are only getting a few hours of sleep for days on end, everything negative is amplified and recovery is much more difficult.

You can beat this - you are intelligent enough and aware enough to have identified the core of your problem in your post - you are also intelligent and aware enough to seek and find with a solution.
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