Well, i just think u must think more about everything, not too much, but if you do, you will maybe just understand better... and if stuck in the thoughts of it, ASK the one about the thing u dont understand... and try not to hate men... they cant help it, they dont know why anyway!, however, its nobody its fault, and no, not yours, not others, nobody! just try to look it thru some more... and not force yourself to immidiatly change.... thats too much at once... make steps... like start with.. try keeping in mind: they can't help it, so i don't have to be mad to them. Also don't blame yourself once again, and take it step for step back to cooldown.
(Also: whats your age now? Maybe that can make the change!)
This has nothing to do with anything in this topic: I'm happy to try helping men.... this forum is perfect for me to help others!
If one works i'll be happy already, cuz that means i can do the job!