I am sorry if I'm starting too many topics, but I feel this is a kind and helpful online community.
This is a difficult thing for me to express. Not in terms of feeling that embarrassed or ashamed, but just getting the points accross.
I am male, 29. I feel strange and out of place to be the way I am, but it's just who I am. I don't know why I do not feel and behave like other men Going out, hitting on girls, having multiple sexual encounters, one night stands etc I don't want to hit on girls and have those kinds of experiences. I don't know why. Maybe I'm a little asexual, but I do find women attractive. I feel it is wrong to just be pyshical. I look at things in very moral ways and I guess am one of those old fashioned gentlemen. Although I'm still pretty young, I'm starting to feel like a middle age dad or something.
Even just dating girls doesn't feel that appealing to me. I am so used to being alone that I don't get lonely or feel like I need a girlfriend. When I was younger I wanted it much more than now. I felt like I wanted to approach attractive girls but I never had the courage. Now it is very rare I even want to approach a girl, but if I did, still I wouldn't be able to. I used to care a lot more about that, and I used to think, if I care so much why don't I change? But I never did change, so the other thing to happen was that I stopped caring. It is worrying because I don't see how I'm not gonna
be alone forever because of my mentality. But I can't help it.
I wonder if there is anyone else like me? Every man just seems to be sexually active, or always wanting sex or a girlfriend and can't go more than a few weeks without it. I've never been like that. I've met 1 girl that I really wanted to date and thats it. She became my girlfriend and I've had a couple of others, but for years I have not met someone I like. I just don't feel anything.