Linz wrote:Thanks for this. I've responded to you post in "adictive personalities" so won't go on too much here. I only smoke heroin thankfully so think it's a lot easier than withdrawing from the pin. I've stopped twice in the last two months but only managed 6 days each time.
I can see that you genuinely want to come off it and the fact that you have had a couple of goes in getting off it means you know the situation with regards to being tempted to use again. Glad you're not pinning it,
I know I'm going to do this, Just need a bit of support along the way and don't have anyone I can talk to as no-one knows. Been hiding it from all my friends, family and colleauges for two years. I hate living a double life. I did ask my doctor for help but she was useless. I can't afford to take time out from work to go to rehab, I don't want them to know either.
I'm so sorry that offline support feels scant to you now. There is loads of online support, look for a chat-room you can go in for online suport if you feel like using, they will give you encouragement as there will be others who want to quit too.
Where do you get your supply from, can you cut yourself off from him/her and find something else to do when you fancy a toot.
I can see the stress it is giving you in hiding it from everyone you know, is there no-one at all you can turn to. Can you somehow get over the "obstacles" like work to give yourself opportunity and time to get the support you need.
If you do confide in someone, wont they respect you for approaching them with "I am coming off heroin and need support", better than "I use heroin", the fact that you want to come off will go a long way.
Can you see another doctor and explain in full your predicament. Write it all down on a piece of paper, then give it to the doctor, any good doctor will undertand if you are too anxious to talk, they will read it.
Anyone who wants to quit a destructive habit will find help, you may not know where from, but if you are serious about this you will do it.
My doctor wanted me to go onto a Methadone program but I had to wait 3 month's just to be assesed. I found a clinic in England who do a 5 day rapid detox and I have private health insurance to cover the costs but my doctor would not refer me. Goodness knows why not. I could understand it if I were a lost cause but I go out to work every day to pay for my own habit. I have never robbed anyone or stolen anything from people's houses, shops or anything like that.
This is why, getting help from a decent doctor is important.
I want to get clean, I was such a fool to try it in the first place but I can't turn back the clock now.
Everyone has their reasons for trying H, I'm not gonna judge you. I respect that you want to come off and hope you find the way through, over or round the hurdles.
I know a lot of people who are on Methadone and haven't met anyone yet who has come off it. I think they give you a script then forget all about you. They are just happy you're not robbing anyone to buy smack! In the end, you just end up being addicted to Methadone and from what I've heard, Methadone is very difficult to withdraw from too. Some people say ut's worse than heroin because it gets right into your bones so takes a long time to come off it. I will do this and very soon. Watch this space! Any advice, info anyone can give me would be very much appreciated. Anyone who'd just like to chat, feel free. Please let me know about you, enough about me already!!! Take care, Linz x
I've heard methadone is bad too and it can feel like society is cold and hard in bunging people on harder drugs to get off smack. There is a drug called Ibogaine which is well known to help addictions, Google "Ibogaine" and "heroin addiction" together, and see what you come up with. Maybe book a long time off work to sort yourself out and good luck.
Myself, I suffer from anxiety and agrophobia and have done all my life. I worked for years but had loads of sick time and eventually it all caught up with me. I have had battles with alcohol and cannabis but much more so when I was working. I have profound interpersonal problems, of which I am yet to get to the bottom of. In my town I know of young heroin users who worry me as I can see them getting into allsorts of bad situations. I do some voluntary work from time to time for a cat rescue charity. I like getting out and hearing music in the open air but as I am agrophobic, sometimes this is difficult. As I fall victim to alcohol easy (it was rife in my workplaces) I try to keep company with other drinkers to an absolute minimum.
Drunk - p.s. best of luck and may you get all the support you need