You know one my friend asked 60 million$ for some construction project, but investors gave him only 40 million dollars, one month already he is in deep alcoholic depression, said that he is going to suicide, this man is very rich, has kids and beautiful wife, but he thinks that everything wrong, and my another friend is living in slums area in India, he is selling tea, 5 rupee, 0, 05 $ per cup, usually when he can make 1$ per day, he is very very happy, so that he can buy a little rice,one sweet ball and even 2 cigarretes, he is sleeping on the earth on banana leaf.
Napoleon also didnt feel good at all, other wise he would never start war, he conquered Poland, still not good, then German, still not good, conquered whole Eroupe, still not good! The rest u know
Or Alexander of Macedon, HOW BAD he felt that he reached India, and then died there. How bad should man feel for killing and disturbing so many people, so many countries?
It s natural to feel that everything is wrong, u can not to get rid of this feeling, just look in the center of this feeling in the source, where from it appearing and where it s disappearing? All ur feelings is temporary, ur body is temporary.
There wer so many big wars and great people in history, but now people hardly remember these wars and people.
Everything will become ash, remember this and u will feel a little relief.