by Ade,wales » Fri Aug 07, 2015 8:00 pm
Hey Bev, good to hear from u.
Not exactly smashing it but I'm still on the path. In fact I don't even consider there is another option anymore. I know I wouldn't enjoy smoking anymore and I would hate myself if I did. So it's a no go.
I guess wot my purpose is, is I want to be stable,not all over the place. Too many ups and downs already. Don't want to **** my life up anymore. To be sat in a council flat on my own when I'm sixty with a bong and gallon of white lightning thinking, sh** I ballsed that up. Feels like I've started again and can't allow myself to spiral down no more. I guess just want to be normal straight guy, just hopefully not too boring. Spent my whole life being mental(which has been f***ing ace), but it's taking me nowhere. Maybe to that council flat!
Family good, Jenya growing and changing daily. She now looks at you properly and smiles loads. Cried like a bitch first time she did that.
How's yours?