Hello,
I'm a 30 year old guy and need people's advice.
I suffer with Pure OCD along with intrusive thoughts and have done for a whilst, they're not nice but I try and deal with them the best I can.
I've read about pure ocd and intrusive thoughts and how people with Pure ocd obsess over things.
I can't get something out of my head and it's driving me crazy.
I was in my early twenties (can't even remember to be honest) and my niece was and round 4 or 5 (might have been younger but I can't remember) and I remember holding her as she drank from a bottle of juice.
I was holding her and she had her legs wrapped around my body as I held her. I feel so guilty that it was a bad way to hold her and that I was enjoying holding her like this, to maybe satisfy some sexual pleasure or something.
I think or rather overthink of how her vagina was against my side and I feel so guilty about it, I'm not sure if it's the pure ocd or the intrusive thoughts making me think I enjoyed it, suggested to her to put her legs round my body, whether I just wanted to hold her like that because it was comfortable for both of us with her holding my shoulder or neck to hold on to or whether it's even true (not sure if pure ocd with intrusive thoughts can actually make you imagine things up).
I'm happily married and have never been interested in kids nor will I ever be but this is tearing me up, I feel so horrible and bad.
Any answers/comments would be great.
Thanks guys,
Simon