Sexual Dysfunctions ??

Postby DavidHeier » Sun Dec 23, 2018 3:25 am

I'm new here and my first post.

First, I was abused since very early childhood. Emotionally, Physically and Sexual.

Ever since I was young I enjoyed exposing myself to others and wearing women's undergarments (bra, nylons, garter belt, panties, etc.)

As I got older I accepted this life style. To cope with my issues I stated working as a nude model for art schools and classes.
Being totally exposed to a large group of students excited me to the point I maintained an total erection throughout the total class time.

In addition, I worked at a number of novelty messenger services as a totally nude erotic entertainer.. At times I would perform cross dress, (bra, nylons, garter belt, panties, etc.). At times theses performances included me performing oral sex upon myself till I ejaculated upon myself.

While performing there were always cameras and video recorders photographing me and recording me. This only excited and aroused me even more.

It home I do pose and record myself. At times I get so excited and aroused that I will engage in anal penetration with my dildo and lick and swallow my semen after I ejaculated. I freely post these pics and videos throughout the internet for others to view and enjoy me.

I have always love to expose the sexual female side of myself to all others.

I enjoy cross dressing in public for self sexual gratification.

I guess one would say I'm somewhat uninhibited.

Do any of you thing I'm having issues or is this normal behavior ??

Please don't judge me.

Hope to hear back from someone and maybe make a few friends here.
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Postby Candid » Sun Dec 23, 2018 7:04 am

I've no doubt you'll make friends here if you stick around, Dave.

About 4 per cent of men can perform oral sex on themselves, so you're 'unusual'. I think it's great that you've been able to turn this into a career you enjoy.

Have you ever had any kind of counselling for the abuse you suffered in childhood?

Do any of you thing I'm having issues or is this normal behavior ??


It's normal behaviour for you, and that's all that counts. People do all kinds of things that seem odd to mainstream. It's part of the smorgasbord of life. Self-pleasuring is seen throughout the animal kingdom. However, you've posted on a psychology and self-help forum, so the question has to be asked: Do you think you're having 'issues'?
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Postby DavidHeier » Sun Dec 23, 2018 11:15 am

First, thank you very much for your reply..No, I never had any counseling of any kind.
Secondly, that you for not judging me.

I was never sure my life style and activities were normal or not. That is one of many things that disturb me.
I guess I lack self esteem and somewhat self concise. I hope I can get help here on theses issues.
Please note I have never been ashamed or embarrassed in what I do. Hence, I have no problem(s) or issue(s) using my real name on all my post over the internet.

I've tried living a different live style in the past few months and I'm not happy with it so I'm going back to the real me as described in my original post here. Anyways, It;s time for new pics and videos of myself.

I thank you very much for your support and encouragement in my life style and activities. I hope I can find more people like yourself here.

Hope to hear back from you and from others'

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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Sun Dec 23, 2018 12:29 pm

DavidHeier wrote:I was never sure my life style and activities were normal or not. That is one of many things that disturb me.


Don’t focus on the term “normal”. Throughout history what is considered normal varies greatly. It was certainly normal to eat human flesh as ritual in certain cultures, it was normal to have intercourse with your sibling, it was normal to sacrifice others for good fortune, etc. etc. It doesn’t take much to find all sorts of “normal” behavior that is now considered bizarre.

Instead, focus on the term “healthy”. Are your behaviors healthy?

I define a healthy behavior as one that doesn’t hurt anyone, including me. If there are negative consequences of a behavior, that behavior is unhealthy. I’m not talking one off behaviors as we all learn through mistakes, failure, etc. I’m talking about repeating behaviors that are hurting you or intentionally hurting someone else.

From what you wrote it sounds like your behaviors have no real negative consequences. You are happy and you are not intentionally hurting anyone else. That sounds like pretty healthy behavior to me.
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Postby DavidHeier » Sun Dec 23, 2018 12:51 pm

First, thank you for your reply.

Guess my issues are accepting myself as I am, self esteem and confidence.

Note, I never been ashamed nor embarrassed in what I do.

Hope to find friends like you here.

Thank you
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