AngryDwarf I really hope from bottom of my heart that you are OK by now. From my case - PAWS were not alcohol-related.
Guys I am not expecting any sympathy, I'll just write what is on my mind. Here it is.
I am so sick of this process. I really do not want to continue living in this state anymore. Nothing good has happened in this year except 1,5 months when I thought that PAWS are over - but guess what.. they were not.
I am so tired of this journey and of continues struggle. I really started to question if God exists and why is he putting me through all of this.
Cant battle the PAWS anymore, I have put 101% of me into this battle but they have won.
3 hours ago I googled "should I commit suicide" (I won't actually do it - but for the record.. this is the place I am coming from when PAWS are at work after being weed free for almost 1 year!)