First of all, a big thank you for all the replies here. We sure are not alone. Reading about other people pushing through despite the hardships really helps shed light to others who are lurking in total darkness not knowing where to go. Sincerity and honesty in pointing the direction to where the light is, is crucial. A huge responsibility not to be taken lightly. A burden in fact. No one wants to lead someone else off a cliff just by pointing to a direction he himself has never been yet.
To get somewhere, wherever it is requires time. Time is finite. Valuable. To get somewhere, effort is also needed. Got to move to get there.
Some have more time to spend each day. It's not because they're younger. They just woke up early to do whatever. To contemplate the different hues of sunrise for instance. To feed the cat. To read. To cook. To drive all those kilometres just to play sand with kids on the beach.
Effort is diverse. Takes many forms. As an example, are you a runner? If so what kind? Sprinter? Marathoner? Yes, you're running. But how? Does your body benefit from all this, or do your knees scream to be spared another day of torture? Then possibly you're not a runner, and might be better off with another form of effort to get to the place you want. But you'll never know for sure until you experience it yourself, harnessing techniques that might work for you, using your own body. If movement does not take you where you want to go, perhaps you can get there by staying still. Meditating, inner dialogues, resolution settings, prayer.
Plant seeds of what you want to grow within yourself first, before anywhere else. Water it everyday. Bask them with sunlight and energy, be it possitive or negative and see what grows. If they don't sprout out immediately, it only proves a law that has been here even before the time of dinosaurs; that everything takes time.
Reaching 8 months of weed and 9 months off cigarettes. I'm like a 9 month old fetus in a non-smoking woman's belly about to be given birth to a new world I've created for myself. I'd like you to imagine a baby in awe and giggling at the most simplest of things. That's me.
Cheers!
p/s: My wife and I lost 3 kgs each, maintaining the healthy diet program as mentioned before. We both look awesome.
Edited: I also started drinking coffee again. But limit it to just 2 times a day. One early morning before the sun shines, and one in the evening around 10pm. No sugar added at all. And I don't have problems sleeping usually around 12.30 a.m.
