3 years and 8 months off of cannabis and sudden cravings.

Postby syncmaster793s » Wed May 20, 2020 7:12 pm

Hello everyone,

I've been here on and off. The best place on internet in the world for actual, inhibition free discussions and great help.

I had my last toke of Joint on 6th September 2016.

I'm 32 year old guy.

Usage history: 2005 to 2010 (Heavy usage).

2010-2012 good, more than 2 years break and then relapse. The usage was on and off during this relapse, for a few months and then break and again relapse and then a break.

2013 may- 2014 june or July. Another break from the herbs. Relapse went on till jan 2015.

2015 jan- 2016 may, break.
And finally, from may 2016-September 2016 the relapse.
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Ever since the 6th September 2016, I haven't had even a single drag of cannabis or any consumption through other form.

Indulged in regular Alcohol during this period. But, I emphasize not a full fledged alcoholic. Just everyday evening use mostly, if not literally everyday. Certainly was hooked up I admit.

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There has been lockdown in India. I was already on a brake previously from alcohol even before the lockdown.
So I'm off alcohol since 3 months.

Recently, I went to my friend's house, and realized he switched on to weed from his regar alcohol. He asked me to make a joint as he doesnt know to roll. I rolled for him. I realized I felt like I should have it again, giving myself reasons like, the world is already screwed due to coronavirus and the world is chaotic now. There's no more order in the world. A little bit of joints occassionally wont harm etc.
Also, another triggering factor was, memory and idea of greater time watching porn, having sex listening to music. Like the kind of subtle dark trip that makes the sex, music and porn amplified. There were other stress factors which I coped in February too, massive ones.
So another reason comes to my mind that, smoking cannabis a little bit wont harm in comparison.
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Please help! I'm in dilemma.

Thanks. Cheers
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Postby Cthompson21 » Wed May 20, 2020 10:42 pm

Yes it is chaotic but think...what if a year or two from now. Will you say you are 5 years plus sober or will you have had to start over? I think the stressful situations bring out cravings. It is logically now worth it. But ask yourself, is it what you really want? To be numb to reality or to face it? Only you can make the choice of course. I don't have weed cravings but struggle with porn and I'm trying to stay away because it causes problems for me. Every time I give in i regret it. I can only hope to be stronger next time. I think addiction is something we will always have to work on. Be safe and stay strong. The lockdown wont last forever.
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Postby syncmaster793s » Thu May 21, 2020 5:20 pm

Thanks a lot Buddy. I am rethinking it well. Mostly, wont have it. And will return the bud safely to its rightful owner. Haha. Cheers and Thanks again.
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Postby tokeless » Thu May 21, 2020 5:43 pm

There's a thing called intuitive recovery and I/we used it in our services and many found it really useful. Created by ex users. Can provide you with other ways of thinking and empowers you.
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Postby syncmaster793s » Thu May 21, 2020 7:13 pm

Am I supposed to pay for this Sir? Thanks
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Postby tokeless » Thu May 21, 2020 8:14 pm

syncmaster793s wrote:Am I supposed to pay for this Sir? Thanks


Not to my knowledge. It's an approach to understanding how we make choices depending on which aspect of our brain we use.. briefly, your primitive brain which is concerned with survival and needs sees drugs as essential to our 'survival'.. we need them etc.. this is the addict brain. The other brain is our decision maker, the thing that does things, actions. Addicts listen to the primitive side and convince the doing brain to ring the dealer etc.. it can't do this alone, so we have to listen to the action brain and not allow the primitive brain to dominate our thoughts. Now, this is about choices.. we can be persuaded by the addict brain or we can choose to ignore it and make good choices, choices to not smoke, use etc.. obviously we need strategies but we can allow ourselves to be convinced we need weed when we actually don't and won't die if we don't have it... sadly as humans we struggle with choice but are skilled with excuses imo.
Hope that helps?
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Postby syncmaster793s » Thu May 21, 2020 8:23 pm

Thoroughly helpful Buddy. Great read. I have this borrowed bud, just incase and stuff, that I'm considering returning back. Thanks a lot. Cheers
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Postby tokeless » Thu May 21, 2020 9:40 pm

syncmaster793s wrote:Thoroughly helpful Buddy. Great read. I have this borrowed bud, just incase and stuff, that I'm considering returning back. Thanks a lot. Cheers


When I worked in addiction services those who were truly ready to stop and change got it, those who weren't there were the ones making the reasons why they couldn't and it's all bs. Fear is a big part of quitting but feel the fear but do it anyway. Always remember you can choose to continue smoking just as much as you can to stop. You won't die.. get pissed off and listen to the addict brain or make good choices.
Best wishes and glad it helped.
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Postby syncmaster793s » Thu May 21, 2020 9:43 pm

Thanks heaps. Lots of Love and great-great life and glory to you.
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