Another One Bites The Dust

#45

Postby Soberchic » Wed Aug 30, 2017 12:43 am

Prozac is not addictive..to me( especially me being addict of all substances) if it was addictive i would be taking more and more pills to get a high..not the case here. Im on 20 mg daily i just cut down to every other day.. And i think its working so far although i just started.. It just makes me tired in the morning where i feel like i could sleep late. Thank you for listening:)
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Postby Gitana » Wed Aug 30, 2017 12:53 am

Good to hear that - i never tried Prozac - so it gets you any high at all?
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Postby Soberchic » Wed Aug 30, 2017 1:16 am

Lol no prozac does not get you high, its for depression. And mood disorder
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Postby Gitana » Wed Aug 30, 2017 2:45 am

Oh i see ;) - hope it does what it s designed for then - i remember it like being nicknamed "happiness drug" no?
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Postby Soberchic » Wed Aug 30, 2017 2:34 pm

I heard that too...dont really think so lol
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Postby Gitana » Wed Aug 30, 2017 5:01 pm

Sorry to hear that
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#51

Postby Gitana » Sat Sep 02, 2017 7:31 am

I have to share this: I just spent the evening at a barbecue with a bunch of friends - they were all going at it (pipes, joint, edibles, bong, you name it) with hard liquor on top of it!

They were all very surprised by me quietly declining everything with a smile - "especially you!" they said - and yet we chatted and laughed and jammed all the way. Then later we went to some open air concert where everyone was as well smoking and boozing: again we talked, danced, met tons of old and new friends.

For the first time in over 30 years, i spent a full evening socializing, philosophizing, dancing, flirting without being under any other influences than the one of the beautiful moon.

Yet i had a blast just like i always used to when partaking!
All my friends mentioned that they were very impressed - and inspired by seeing me being so "normal me" at a party smoking air and drinking juice. It really was the best feeling, a sense of freedom like i never thought i could have without substances.

Damn, tonight, for once in my life, i was "that person" (we ve all met one at some point) who doesnt smoke, doesnt drink, and yet is totally enjoying the party, the jokes, the music, the people, the vibe, the dancing, the flirting with strangers.
And i was the last one to leave (like i always was "before")

I ve always used to feel bad for that person, like "they dont know what they are missing, the weed, the high, the booze.."
Tonight i just realized what it feels like, and it s absolutely fun! At no point did i even miss being high, as i just had the exact same fun! Plus i got to observe my friends from a sober point of view and i didnt even feel any distance or difference, we were really connecting as usual. Very new sensation that i wanted to document here :)
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Postby Gitana » Fri Nov 17, 2017 10:23 pm

9 months finally came - it is true that there s somewhat of a step up at this point!
- brain is not as foggy (damn that took a while)
- my cognitive abilities are far from being back, but i feel less dumb (i can remember people s name and dont have to struggle as much to find words)
- sleeping is a breeze, i sleep when i decide and no more anxiety in bed
- hanging out around stoners is just fine, i dont care at all
- finances are better, i might have saved about 2 grands easily
- days are longer and i accomplish much more
Still looking forward to full recovery but i m already quite happy as is!
Thanks to everyone on this site for inspiration, support and story-sharing, could not have done it without!!
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Postby seeingthelight » Fri Nov 17, 2017 11:36 pm

Thank you for sharing your progress and giving back like others have. Stories like this are inspirational!
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Postby cleanofgreen » Sat Nov 18, 2017 10:19 am

9 months wow well done and so cool you can party while sober, am doing a bit of that myself and find I still have a good time too :D .
Congrats
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Postby Gitana » Sat Nov 18, 2017 8:35 pm

seeingthelight wrote:Thank you for sharing your progress and giving back like others have. Stories like this are inspirational!


Thanks Seeing the Light, i m quite happy i finally did it - and glad if my experience can inspire anyone.
Posting here has been important for me - especially at the beginning - since accountability brings sustainability in most case..
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Postby Gitana » Sat Nov 18, 2017 8:37 pm

cleanofgreen wrote:9 months wow well done and so cool you can party while sober, am doing a bit of that myself and find I still have a good time too :D .
Congrats


Thanks Cleanofgreen! And good job on your side too!
Do you get to enjoy clean-headed partying as much as before?
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Postby Gitana » Sat Feb 03, 2018 1:33 am

Quick update: it s been a year!

Quite a year though - 8-9 months of it i was feeling low/depressed, and the rest i was waiting to feel better..

I must say i m happy i ve made it - no relapse, no substitute, no tobacco, no booze, no meds - just sport, open air and new habits (hours, hobbies)

Most of the issues i wanted to fix are now under control:
- i sleep naturally and rarely if ever have any issue to fall asleep
- my brain is acting "normal" (not as sharp as i once were, but that might just be age..)
- social life is "normal" too, meaning i am who i am (not who the weed makes me)
- i think my patience and day to day pace have improved significantly (or so i like to think anyway)

That is not much to say actually, it s been a year and i m still alive - no big eureka or epiphany or celebration for that matter!

Now i m wondering: what s next?
Should i stay like this or get the weed back in my life (only with low-potency no-name stuff if so)?

My job is to create stuff, and i cant deny weed has always been helpful to erase inhibition and tap into creativity.. now i m still creating a lot, but somehow i feel a bit bland.. thus my new problematic. Feel free to comment if you have any thought on this..
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Postby cleanofgreen » Sun Feb 04, 2018 6:11 pm

Congratulations on the year weed free, a great achievement.
Now i m wondering: what s next?
Should i stay like this or get the weed back in my life (only with low-potency no-name stuff if so)?


Why not continue on the path of bettering your self and go for 2 years? For me I know where it would lead eventually, back smoking every day and wondering how I got there a couple of years later. I could never moderate it, it was have one and 30 minutes later slipping out for another and on and on till bed time.
You might have more resolve and great if you do, but I just have to look at the first 8-9 months of my withdrawal to realize I don't want to go through that crap again. Make the right choice for you, nobody can tell you what's right for you.

Good luck and Stay strong
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Postby Bagobones » Thu Jul 12, 2018 12:29 am

Gitana wrote:My job is to create stuff, and i cant deny weed has always been helpful to erase inhibition and tap into creativity..


¿Donde esta mi gitana? ¡Pronto es otro fin de semana, y no hay hermosa gitana aquí!

I just heard a song I really liked and came to think about this inspiring lady! Gitana! So Ill use her old thread here to do a little update...

I find the biggest problem I have with being sober is that I always want to go somewhere.. I miss freedom. I hate office work. I want to dance flamenco with a black haired wild gitana! Or maybe bring my old surfboard to Santander.

¿Donde esta mi gitana? Ella no está aquí con su vestido colorido y ojos llameantes...

This place is just too safe for a white guy that grew up in a postcolonial Africa in caos!
Hitting full throttle in a Tesla Model x P100d just is not for me. I can do that 7 days a week. Its a white Lamborghini Huracan Performante parked right outside here now. I can call up the owner, get some good Cali Mist, get high and drive it like we stole it whenever I want. But I dont want that.

¿Donde esta mi gitana? O la mujer zulú con el gran cabello rizado?

I would rather drive my old Honda 600xl on the dirt roads of Mahlungulu, high on swazi gold or durban poison bought off an old rasta farmer in Swaziland. Get lost, take the wrong turn, cross the border and end up in Ponta do Ouro. Wash off the dust in the turquoise dolphin filled waters of southern Moz, then argue in bad Portuguese with the border soldiers of Kosi Bay to get back. Pretend I dont have a passport, just for the extra fun. Like old times.. Like back in the day.. Thats fun. Thats a million dollars for me. Screw oil money and lamborghinis. I miss my hippopotamus, cheetas and drunk border police with rusty AK-47s..

¿Donde esta mi gitana? Me siento tan perdido sin ella..

She is not here, thats for sure.. I guess this is the real hard part of quitting. Living with all the bad choices I have made.

My shrink found the reason I got so much high. Being bored out of my mind in the worlds safest countries. We are the happiest people on the planet according to UN.. And that happieness drove me right into drug addiction. Being told over and over again how good we have it here and how lucky i am, when all I really wanted and missed where the places Donald Trump calls "sh** hole countries", and the people living there.

The places I grew up...

And I really started to believe in it. I lost myself and turned to drugs. My parents work in southern Africa through the scandinavian NGOs came with a sacrifise. It created a son with drug problems, that don't feel at home anywhere.

¿Donde esta mi gitana? How are you Gitana? Hope you are doing okay. I really want to hear/see what you are creating, high or sober. It does not matter. My feeling is I will be a fan..

Btw, this is the song I listened to that brought you to my mind...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DKJE4-9qRIk
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