Thinking of Suicide

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Postby Zanoni » Thu May 25, 2017 9:26 pm

I've got work in the morning. I'll keep an update here about work and life. I hope you all find it interesting. Any advice welcome. Thanks.

Night. Stay safe.
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Postby Candid » Thu May 25, 2017 11:09 pm

Zanoni wrote:If only I had more money I would do something exciting with my time.


Such as?
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Postby Zanoni » Fri May 26, 2017 1:19 am

I've had a few ideas such as design and build a housing development interested shape of the monopoly board. In the centre would be a bar called the jail house where it played live music. Parklane and Mayfair would be high spec penthouse suites.

I think I read about this but if I had the money I would design a Submarine Restaurant. Where the clients get served food under water.

Obviously travel for 5 years or more. Do the high roller poker circuit. Learn how to fly. I would love to do odd things like that.
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#108

Postby Zanoni » Fri May 26, 2017 2:19 am

I had another dream about suicide that's why I'm still up. It woke me up and this night isn't helping.

The dream started off with me looking at this big oak tree. Birds flying around everywhere. There was a branch that was in fact rope. Hangman's rope. Something climbed up and tied it arounds its neck. I witnessed myself jumping off and my neck was broken. Loose and limp. Freaked me out.
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#109

Postby Zanoni » Fri May 26, 2017 10:22 am

Maybe I should smoke weed to gain new experiences.
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Postby Translucent » Mon May 29, 2017 12:44 am

Hey dude, how's it going?
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Postby Zanoni » Thu Jul 06, 2017 12:45 pm

I had another dream about suicide. I was walking down this path beside a river, at first it looked empty as if nothing was there, then the blood became to pour out of it like a spot being picked. It covered my feet...
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Thu Jul 06, 2017 2:24 pm

Zanoni wrote:I had another dream about suicide. I was walking down this path beside a river, at first it looked empty as if nothing was there, then the blood became to pour out of it like a spot being picked. It covered my feet...


Doesn't sound like a dream about suicide to me. Sounds like a dream about blood flowing down a river. It sounds like you are interpreting it to mean what you want it to mean.
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Postby Zanoni » Thu Jul 06, 2017 3:12 pm

The blood climbed above my head and drowned me. I woke up in a panic attack as if I couldn't breathe.
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Fri Jul 07, 2017 1:00 am

Zanoni wrote:The blood climbed above my head and drowned me. I woke up in a panic attack as if I couldn't breathe.


Okay. That still is not a dream about suicide. It is a dream about drowning in blood. I've had dreams where I wake up full of adrenaline from XYZ weird scenario. One I've had more than once is being eaten by cows.

Drowning in blood is not taking your own life. It's drowning in blood.
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Postby Zanoni » Fri Jul 07, 2017 8:30 am

Call it whatever you want. It feels like death.

I had one a few nights ago, maybe weeks ago...(I write all my dreams down so I can remember them)

I was sitting in a chair holding a knife made of glass. I remember how cold the room was. I moved about on the chair which now had become a bed and I was tied to it. There was rats or snakes?? or some type of animal below my bed. I then took the knife and stabbed my eyes out, cut my ears off, broke all my teeth and cut my lips off then proceeded to stab myself then I woke up...I have these sorts of dreams often and they scare me.
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Postby Candid » Fri Jul 07, 2017 9:04 am

Richard@DecisionSkills wrote:One I've had more than once is being eaten by cows.


Hahaha!

Zanoni, what feelings do you have in these dreams?
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Postby Zanoni » Fri Jul 07, 2017 9:10 am

Like a child looking at something they don't understand but curious like watching a magic trick from a 5 year old perspective but not amazed by it.
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Postby Candid » Fri Jul 07, 2017 9:16 am

Those are thoughts, not feelings.I was trying to get at excited, scared, delighted, whatever.

Ok, I'll accept curious. Perhaps you're curious about what would happen if you killed yourself.
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Fri Jul 07, 2017 9:23 am

Zanoni wrote:Call it whatever you want.


Exactly. You choose to label it suicide. I wonder why? Why would a person choose to label a dream suicide where it is not suicide, where it is not the taking of their own life?
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