2 weeks clean of weed

Postby SleeplessInEngland » Fri Nov 03, 2017 4:15 pm

Hi,
I'm new here.
I've smoked weed for 32 years, since I was 16.
In that time, I've had about a year off it when I was in my 30s.

Anyway, I decided to quit a few weeks ago after my recent stash ran out and have now been weed-free for 2 weeks.
I feel like sh*t.
For the first week, I felt ok, but this second week is taking its toll.

Sleeplessness kicked in around day 4. Since then, I am getting barely any sleep. I seem to fall asleep ok for maybe 3 hours, and then that's it - during that sleep, I am having crazy dreams (which are actually quite interesting!) I Toss and turn all night for the rest of the night and wake finally for good around 5am.. I might nod off for 10 mins or so in that time here and there between 1am and 5am.
My mood has become really low. Everything seems hard work, and I cannot see positive in anything.

I don't currently feel compelled to smoke weed, but I do need some sleep. I think if I just slept a whole night, my mood might feel better.

Is this just a waiting game? I appreciate that 32 years is a long time to have smoked.
My decision to quit is partly health/memory and partly due to the chronic lack of motivation I have in life.
How long might I expect this to go on for?

Many thanks...I'm reaching out for some support. I feel like poo.
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Postby seeingthelight » Fri Nov 03, 2017 4:59 pm

Hang in there. First, give yourself a pat for deciding to walk away and making it for 2 weeks!! Expect it to be a bumpy ride. You'll have moments your feeling great, while other times you'll feel like a total hot mess. Way worse then you did when you were toking. I like to describe it as "one big hangover". Plus the stuff they've been putting out today is all medical/exotic and like 50x stronger then back in the day. You have to keep that in mind. Based on my experience and threads of others, it takes time to fully recover. My guess is you'll start seeing some real benefits 2-3 months in. After a year you should be well on your way! Try and spend time with supportive people, pickup new hobbies, exercise and eat healthy. You can also attend online MA (not to be confused with NA) meetings ect. Try and build a plan for yourself! I'm no expert, however I hope my advice helps and hang in there!!
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Postby SleeplessInEngland » Fri Nov 03, 2017 7:47 pm

Thank you.

Other negative side-effects I have of chronic use which I'm using as motivation to get clean are:
-a ruined social life due to putting my toke life first;
-staying up too late to have 'one more smoke'...and another etc and then feeling tired next day;
-damaged work performance due to weed use;
-wasted money on the stuff;
-use of tobacco as I smoke a weed/tobacco mix and health fears of both;
-rubbish sexual relationship with my partner as too stoned to stay awake to do the do.

These are the ones that come off the top of my head.

Since stopping, sorry for tmi, but my orgasms have been utterly pointless and disappointing. i hope they return. ;-)
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Postby SweLion » Fri Nov 03, 2017 9:32 pm

Hello man, and welcome to the forum!

You are showing many reasons to quit. When you feel down, come back here to review what you have said earlier. Make a journal, it can be very useful when you feel down and have doubt. For example if you cant sleep and are thinking of it. Then remeber you already slept bad becouse you stayed up for that last smoke and how it affected you.

Remember every bit of the progress, type it down here as motivation for others and a reminder for yourself.

If you haven´t already I recommend reading this journal from another long time smoker. It gave me alot of motivation.
viewtopic.php?t=90939

Stay strong brother! Much love and respect / Lion
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Postby SleeplessInEngland » Sun Nov 05, 2017 9:51 am

Hey! Thanks for that.
I'm a woman, by the way ;-)

A journal is a really useful idea, though historically, I've never been very good at keeping them going. So I am considering using this as a sort of journal, if that doesn't break any forum rules?

Another HUGE motivator to quit:
My kid. He's 8. I want to read him bed-time stories, but guess what? I'm downstairs toking. :-( This upsets me hugely that I 'can't' (don't) put bed-time story time before my smokes. Since not toking, we're reading together, and he loves it. This to me is worth more than gold. We finished a book yesterday morning that has been read in snippets for 4 months. He finally got the last 5 chapters and my full attention. Today, we started our next book and we're 4 chapters in.
It's the simple things.

I've slept better for the last 2 nights. Still woken up during the night, but not so many times, and not so irritated when I have done, just accepted it and drifted back to sleep - and subsequently felt better all day yesterday and hope to again today.

I had a brief pang of missing a toke last night, but was able to dismiss it.
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Postby mrprankies » Mon Nov 06, 2017 7:53 am

Just passing through. On my phone in bed, so I am keeping it brief.

Melatonin was an absolute life saver for me during those first few weeks of sleeplessness. Look into it and form your own opinion.
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Postby SleeplessInEngland » Tue Nov 07, 2017 8:59 am

Hi Mrprankles,

I used to use melatonin in my 20s as I used to go to USA a lot. We can't buy it here in UK.
I loved the stuff, though I have an autoimmune condition now, and as melatonin enhances the immune system, it could make my body attack my thyroid more than it already does, so I shouldn't use it. But tbh, I would take the chance and use it for a few days at a time.
I'll see if I can order some in.
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Postby tryagain68 » Tue Nov 07, 2017 8:28 pm

Hi ! It gets soo much better ! I bet you're sleeping a little better now ?
Although the dreams will last quite some time, also bear in mind that for most of your adult life you haven't really had dreams that you can remember,so the vividness of your dreams at the moment can be quite tough to handle.
Also your mind is now trying to make sense of all of the emotions that we have dulled or avoided with weed. Have you felt anxious yet, crying for no reason? I'm a month in now and already I'm starting to feel much better.
I gave up tobacco too, just starting to feel some of the benefits kick in,less out of breath on long walks, a bit more patient,less angry.
I'm English too ,but I live in Spain also a female but a lot older I'm 50 in February I'd smoked for 35 years ,it sounds so long when I write it down.
My children grew up with me being unavailable until I'd had a splif,also I'd want to rush back from days out in order to smoke. I wish I'd done it differently .
You can xxxxx
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Postby SleeplessInEngland » Fri Nov 10, 2017 1:33 pm

Hi.
Thanks for that.
I'm 3 weeks clean today.
Sleep is sketchy. I seem to have 2 nights of rubbish sleep then sleep well on the 3rd night out of pure exhaustion.
I feel foggy in my thinking still. And a bit flat in mood.
I found another site that said 90 days is a milestone in terms of your brain learning to make its own dopamine again, so still a way to go, but that's OK.
Others here have made it through and so will I!
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Postby tokeless » Fri Nov 10, 2017 6:24 pm

Hi and well done. Have you tried body building suppliers/natural remedies shops because I know someone who bought melatonin from one. It's not cheap but you can get it in the UK... stick with the quit. My 8 year old was so much more important than weed but I too did what you did and didn't like myself for it. Best decision of my life and I loved weed... 35 years everyday barr the odd one. I'm 4 years off and life's better and I don't miss it. I smell it all the time but feel nothing for it. When you're done you're done.
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Postby seeingthelight » Fri Nov 10, 2017 7:02 pm

Exactly. I think some of us reach a point in life, for whatever the reason and decide that's it. It's just not worth it
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Postby tryagain68 » Fri Nov 10, 2017 8:37 pm

A couple of things I forgot to mention ! Get some cod liver oils caps and vit b6 ! It will really speed up your recovery ! Get some excercise that helps too, and don't suffer with the sleep thing,it makes everything more difficult ,I used a herbal sleep remedy for the the first 2/3 weeks ,and lots of orange juice,.camomile tea with honey 30 mins before bedtime xxx
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Postby seeingthelight » Fri Nov 10, 2017 10:04 pm

Thanks for the tips you've left for sleepless! I'll take those into consideration. I've just about finished a 14 full body detox with an assortment of natural vitamins and herbs. Been drinking a ton of water and cranberry along with multivitamins. The thought behind it is, the quicker it's fully out, the better I'll feel. As of now, I no longer have the night sweats and sleep like a baby. I also started virtual and phone meetings as well. Just listening to other people and sharing sometimes has been very helpful. I can depend on the support. My biggest issues now are my nerves and anxiety. I no longer have that crutch to ease things up. Which is kind of expected
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Postby tryagain68 » Fri Nov 10, 2017 11:38 pm

Omg the hot sweats are the worst aren't they ?? I'm down to about 2/3 a day now .excercise really helps ,I'm walking about 6km a day with my dog
When not working( I work from home completely now) .the orange juice during the day rids the body of stuff really well X
Also socialise, talk to other people.cry if you feel like it, scream if you feel like it . I hated the distorted vision bit too,so glad that's over ..
We're doing it together X I'm a bitch sometimes but hey ho, I'm not smoking weed .
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Postby tryagain68 » Fri Nov 10, 2017 11:42 pm

Pat yourself on the back!! I'm now almost 5 weeks clean, I congratulate myself everyday, I'm kind to myself,and I'm trying to be kinder to others too. I keep myself busy,
You can always chat away here when the nerves get ya xxx
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