Success Stories

Postby soulvice » Wed Nov 15, 2017 1:30 am

Hey guys, I wanted to start a thread in here that is a purely positive one.

I have a full story documenting my recovery period here

I slipped up and let weed back into my life. That was 100% a mistake even though it didn't feel like it was at the time just a few weeks ago. Anyway due to a stressful event a week after quitting for good I started feeling terrible depression feelings again and I feel like I am back at day one 2 years ago when I first quit. Although I have to tell myself this is not true and that I got better so I definitely can again. Depersonalisation was my main problem when I first quit and I overcame that and can't really say I even feel that now, it's more just the depressing thoughts that I am assuming the lack of dopamine/seretonin or whatever else is in the weed that is deficient in my system. However when you get rid of the chemicals the mental state can remain and this is the hardest thing to break. We have to teach ourselves to enjoy things again and to love life again. And I did that, and had been recovered and happy for at least the last year.

Basically the point of this is to create a thread that is I guess somewhat similar to "Benefits of being off weed" but I want it to be more reinforcing than that.

What I need right now is posts of peoples success stories of recovery just like I had. When I first came here a lot of what drove my anxiety was that no one ever fully recovered or the few stories I found were in the years, but personally I went from a period of 2-3 weeks of suicidal thoughts, to 12 months to complete recovery and feeling myself again and boy do I now realise how much I took that for granted. I am done with weed FOR GOOD there is absolutely no way I can go through this again.

So I need your help, let's all try and find a good success story whether it's from this forum or not, and post it on this board to remind everyone that recovery IS possible and even when you are that weed is not something you want to let back into your life like I did.

I have no option but to get better. Any other alternative apart from getting better is just simply not a choice.

So here we go I am going to start with a few I have found from the user Justin92. I will keep updating this myself when I find really inspiring success stories.

justin92 wrote:I'm so glad that my old posts have helped people. You can beat anything! I know times get hard and you think that you aren't making any progress but you are. Later down the road you will be so happy you quit what ever was causing you problems and you will be much stronger. Keep it up guys. Keep this forum alive because without this forum then I really don't know I would have turned out. Thanks for all the inspiration and keep fighting :)

justin92 wrote:I'm so glad that my old posts have helped people. You can beat anything! I know times get hard and you think that you aren't making any progress but you are. Later down the road you will be so happy you quit what ever was causing you problems and you will be much stronger. Keep it up guys. Keep this forum alive because without this forum then I really don't know I would have turned out. Thanks for all the inspiration and keep fighting :)

justin92 wrote:Being off weed is great. Clear thinking leads into great things :). I struggled real bad with the withdrawal symptoms but I'm glad everything happened because mentally I know what I can go through. I want to thank all the old timers on here for all the support and inspiration to help me get where I am today. And for all the new people looking for help, this site is the best for that. Just read around and keep fighting :)

justin92 wrote:You guys are welcome and I hope I inspire you guys to keep going. The recovery for me did take awhile but once it starts getting better which was after a year then it's pretty easy from there. Then after two and a half years for me it seemed like I didn't wen think about the whole recovery process and life just took it's place each day. Today I feel great but there is always things you can improve on and that feeling never goes away for me. I always want to get better. So with that I hope I am inspiring you guys to stay with it and before you know it all if those bad thought you have now will disappear and your life will be as clear as ever! Just one more thing I want to add in that this hit me hard, the recovery process probably between the time I quit until a year and a half into it was the hardest phase of my life i have ever went through so far. So if I can do it then anyone can. Thanks for reading guys have a great day! :)

One from user 'willdu'

Hey everyone,

I felt like posting today, just to give anyone going through a quit a little bit of hope/inspiration, as I know it cna be a pretty rough experience.

I smoked for three years everyday, allday. I quit last august, because it really jsut wasnt doing the same thing for me anymore, and i felt so depressed and lost all the time. When I quit i was dealing with depression and depersonalization for months. I've read that alot of people have been dealing with this same problem so i wanted to let you all know that things will get so much better for you! The first three months felt like the first week, but after that things slowly got better. It took a while, but as of a month ago, I have been feeling 100%, with no depression or depersonalization (which was gone around 6months). My social skills have completely returned to me and i my sense of humor is back again. I feel so much more ambitious and motivated and life really does feel so exciting. The two major things that have helped me is the combination of 5-htp and Protein drinks\, through the guidance of my doctor. I feel so genuinely happy and i really feel like i have beaten this. I know there are so many people with that feeling of hopelessness, like you have ruined yourself, but you really have to let time do its work, because i was in the exact same situation.
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Postby soulvice » Wed Nov 15, 2017 10:25 pm

Another good quote here about recovering from the depression of quitting. I have been down the road and recovered and if I've done it once I can do it again, no matter how long it takes.

Hi everyone!

(sorry if my English in this post isn't flawless, it's not my main language)

Last year, daily pot smoking was becoming unbearable. My memory and mood were getting seriously affected, and paranoia was my constant companion.

I quit smoking pot on mid August of 2011. On September, an unwelcome full blown depression started. Spontaneous crying spells were not uncommon. I was constantly extremely anxious. What scared me the most was that I couldn't think straight, my focus was nonexistent, I had to make an enormous effort to speech properly, to keep my attention on what was being said to me and basically felt like a retarded. In social settings I acted in a really awkward way, I knew it and couldn't help it. I couldn't sleep properly and woke up in the middle of the night with my heart pounding and in a big anxiety attack. I felt no pleasure for any activity, no motivation, no hope whatsoever and my libido was below zero.

Since I was in this situation for a long time, I was starting to believe that I had made some kind of permanent damage to my brain. I thought of suicide daily and was starting to plan it.

I'm studying psychology, and because the negative symptoms of schizophrenia are similar to those of major depression, I was really afraid that I had become schizophrenic. To spice things up, I went to a psychiatrist and he prescribed me an antidepressant (wellbutrin) that made my anxiety even worse but helped somewhat with my focus and motivation. But it had an awful side effect: I started hearing music in my head all the time, 24/7. It wasn't quite an hallucination, the music didn't came from anywhere, I knew it was in my head but it kept repeating and scaring the sh*t out of me. In the beginning I didn't associated it with the medication and thought it was a positive symptom of schizophrenia, but then I started searching the web I found other people that had the same 'music in the head all the time' effect from wellbutrin and it stopped after they stopped the medication.

I started therapy with an experienced psychologist and he was absolutely sure that I wasn't a schizophrenic. It was a relief. I stopped the medication and the f*cking strange music in my head went away.

What REALLY helped me was reading this forum. I can't thank you enough for all the shared experiences. So, I'm giving back my experience to this forum. It took about 8 months for some people to fully recover. So, I started a reversed calendar, with how many days are left until the 8 month mark. I also started taking an Omega-3 supplement (which I still take everyday) since it helped many people.

I only started seeing a notable improvement in the 5 months mark after I quit smoking pot. My motivation, intelligence and social skills were getting back, my paranoia, anxiety and crying spells were going away. I was becoming my old/normal self again.

When I hit the 8 month mark, I was (and am) fully 100% recovered.

I'd like to say to anyone experiencing the nightmare that I had gone through to hold tight, things will REALLY get better, and you will get out of that hole stronger than before.

And as Winston Churchill (who also suffered from episodes of depression) said: "If your going through hell, keep going."

Also, consider taking the Omega-3 supplement, it will eventually help the repair process of your neurochemistry.

I don't wish to demonize weed. I respect the plant and it's history as a tool for searching through consciousness and it's medicinal and plain recreational value - but misused and abused, the results can be catastrophic.

Wishing you all the best!

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Postby soulvice » Wed Nov 15, 2017 10:32 pm

Another good one from bvl who overcame PAWS

bvl wrote:Hello everybody,

It's been a while since I last posted, so probably most new comers don't know the issues I had to face while withdrawing from marijuana.

I quit smoking 3 years and 11 months ago and experienced severe withdrawal symptoms which lasted for aproximately two years. But that's not the end of the story. I still had to undo some damage I made to my thinking pattern and currently I am working on improving myself and will probably do this for the rest of my life.

3 years ago I was a complete mess. I was permanently thinking I had ruined my life for good and that I'll never get better and the best thing I could do is to commit suicide or go and hide somewhere where there isn't any human being on a radius of 50 kilometers, for the rest of my life....
I had no hope left and desperation had filled my entire being.

I guess I owe it alot to uncommonforum, to the support I got from my suffering parteners (here I mention Netty - I hope you're doing great!) and to the reason that I had people to whom I shared my story and they non-judgmentally understood. This, few friends of mine, beautiful girls and my stubbornnes helped me fight this tremendous battle and overcome what I consider it to be the biggest test of my life.

So, where am I now?
Things got ALOT better, both on the inside and on the outside. I really am a different person. A normal person with good days and bad days, a person that doesn't take life for granted anymore. I became a responsible adult and though i'm only 26 years old, in 4 months I am going to become a father and start my own familly. Yes, of course I still have some bothering thoughts, some concerns about the future... but now I understand this is a normal part of our human experience and it doesn't scare me anymore.

I feel focused on my tasks, I feel motivated to find solutions to any problems or challenges I experience on my path, I am more sociable, started speaking in public and doing things I never thought I could do. And starting my own family was one of them.

I can't say for sure that the nervousness I often experience is PAWS related ( I remember being like this before I even started smoking weed) but this is one of the issues I am currently working on improving and I know it is just a matter of time until i'll change it into something more productive. (hey, we all have flaws after all...)

Another thing that I have to change and repair on the inside, is the lack of smiling. I forgot how to smile from the bottom of my heart. I know PAWS was a very intense experience and probably left me a bit shocked, so I usually look as if I am going to kill someone ( I just look that way..... well... sometimes I could punch somebody at least :D ).

Becoming better is a lifelong struggle and learning, which none of us can avoid, but overall.... I am proud to say I overcame addiction and PAWS.

For all those still fighting this battle I wish you best of luck and stay strong! Read as much as you can about personal development and never give up on the things you desire to accomplish.
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Postby soulvice » Thu Nov 16, 2017 12:48 am

Another from Biggiesize

Originally posted by biggiesize

Re: 8 months clean.My recovery story.

Wed Mar 04, 2009 9:07 am

Hello everyone.Its been awhile since I posted anything but I thought today would be a good time for me to post as I celebrate 8 months clean.I remember the day that I stopped,8 months was one of the milestones that I thought about.I wondered how I would feel after 3 months,after 8 months and after a year.Well,some of you may remember from my earlier posts that the first few months were very difficult for me.I have since learned that marijuana affects everyone differently.Some people can quit and be fine in a month,but some people like myself,have to go through a period of the brain restructuring itself.This can take months or even years depending on the drug used and how long it was used. as for me,after 4 months,I still had distorted vision,I couldnt concentrate,and my cognitive abilities were out of whack.However about 5 months into my recovery,I started noticing improvements.

I took the advice of some awesome people on here and added vitimins,fish oil and exercise to my life and now Im happy to say that after 8 months,its like I never had any issues at all!Some peoples recovery takes alot longer than others.The neurotransmitters in the brain will have to repair themselves and it can be a very frustrating time.But I promise you that if you hang in there,the hazy fog of confusion will lift and your life will be better than you ever imagined.I wish you all the continued success in your journey of a new life and I promise you that you will not regret it."In the world of addiction,being a quitter is a good thing".
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Postby seeingthelight » Thu Nov 16, 2017 3:46 am

Thank you for this thread. It’s very inspirational for people like myself, who are fighting everyday to make it thru to the other side! It’s a long/slow process and one could easily give up without hope. There have been many days I’ve looked and felt 10x sh!ttier then when I was toking. Days I was soo down, I felt it would’ve been better not even being here. People in the struggle need to know, there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. Just hang in there, be patient and don’t give up!
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Postby cleanofgreen » Thu Nov 16, 2017 6:50 pm

Hey Soulvice,

Great idea for a thread. I just coming up to 14 months of weed and alcohol free and never felt better. I have a thread that goes through all the gory details here

At 9 months I thought I was very close to 100% better but to be honest I'm still seeing improvements every month, that just tells me how bad my base line was. I saw the most dramatic improvement in month 9 so I'll post that post here.
Good luck to everybody and know it's wort every bit of the effort.

9 Months Weed and Alcohol Free

Well the 26th has passed again and I've reached 9 months clean of weed and the changes in the last 1.5 months have been massive. The depression and crippling anxiety that plagued me 24/7 from 1.5 to 6 months, and the morning anxiety from 6 - 7.5 months is completely gone , it's like someone removed a plastic bag from my head and I can finally breathe freely again. All I can say is that for any heavy long term smokers struggling in the first few months with doubts about whether they will ever be normal again is to stick with it, it does get better with a lot of time, things turned around for me at 7.5 to 8 months. It was without doubt the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Quitting weed is a process, it's something that happens gradually over time, by the time you get the feedback, all the hard work is all ready done.
A bit of advice for those in the process of quitting, there's no point in continually looking back and beating yourself up for the past mistakes or wasted years, look back once learn from the mistake and start moving forward. It's like looking at your child learning to run where they are being chased and keep looking behind them whilst running forward and eventually fall and hurt themselves. This is the same for all life, while trying to move forward you can't keep looking at the past or you'll end up hurting yourself.

I spent many years as a stoner trying to spend my life in the comfort zone, not trying to improve anything, just trying to remain in the status quo, but as life is constantly changing and if you're not moving forward then in reality your being dragged backward by the river of life. Make the correct choices every day and edge your way up the river of life little by little, when you make the right choice, you won’t see the results. At least, not today. That's a hard concept to grasp for a stoner who's used to instant gratification. If I smoke this I'll feel better about myself and my life, no you have to work for those feelings. You might feel better for an hour or so, but your problems will still be there when the haze lifts whether that be in an hour, a day, or 20 years from now, all the while the problems compounding as each day passes by.

I've noting against weed, it has many great medical and recreational uses, but people have to realise that you can't use medical marijuana(high thc %) recreationally which is what most people are doing nowadays. The fact that heroin addicts can withdraw by using medical marijuana should be a warning sign, this stuff is not the same weed that was being smoked 25 years ago.

TLDR: I've gone 9 months clean and have come back from the hell of the first 6 or 7 months, around 8 months I started feeling normal again losing all depression and anxiety. The brain is functioning much quicker and the brain fog seems to be coming less frequent. My motivation is starting to kick back in, although still a little lazy, and the happiness doing things I used to enjoy doing is back. Overall I'm feeling very good. For all those struggling, I know what hell you're going through but stick with it and you'll be glad once you're out the other side.

Good Luck and Stay Strong
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Postby cleanofgreen » Sat Nov 18, 2017 10:24 am

Here's a post by an old poster called netty

y netty28661 » Wed Dec 31, 2014 11:15 am
Hi john, I've just been reading some of your posts & the fact you're still having a rough time! My experience was identical in that yes the first 8 wks were hell, then I started feeling better, I started to exercise, eat well & take supplements, I would say I felt pretty good for next 8 wks apart from sleep issues (lack of!), I think it was because I still felt positive. But then at the 4 month mark I went seriously downhill with severe depression, anxiety & stress, not helped by the fact I was only getting about 3 hours of bad sleep! I was convinced I had something wrong with me I got alsorts aches & pains, nearly bought a new bed. It seemed there would be something new in the way of symptoms every week or few wks. I was signed off work with depression/stress. I carried on exercising as much as I could. You start to think that after so long it cant be related to giving up weed or related to PAWS. I obsessed about it for months.

I would say I turned a corner at 8 months clean & started to realise I'd felt ok for short periods of time, these then became longer. I bought a book called "I Want To Change My Life - A Guide to Addiction, Stress & Depression" by Steven M Melemis. It's excellent & I would definately recommend it, one thing he explains is that PAWS can last upto 2 years, whilst initially that was a shock, I did at least know what I was feeling was normal.

A big thing that helped me & still does is meditation, I started at around the 9 month mark, the book explains how to do this & how it should feel, I went to a Buddhist temple for meditation classes which helped.

All in all it did take 2 years but believe me in that second year I felt much much better, you do carry on getting better but will still possibly have short periods of depression/anxiety/stress, it gets so much easier because you know it will pass.

I'm 3 months short of being 3 years clean & honestly life has never been better, I feel ever gratefull for the life I have & I'm genuinely happy - I didnt think I ever would feel like this, I'm alive. You will be too but you must give it time & have patience (alot of it!)

All the best & a happy new year.
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Postby Wave » Sat Nov 18, 2017 10:41 am

I would like to put forward itsanewdaywoohoo


This guy quit the same time I quit for 15 months and then failed. His posts were such a reminder to me of where I could have been had I kept it going. Always loved the money counter of money saved from cigs and bud lol.

ItsanewdayTHC - Free and Healing for One Year, Nine Months, Twenty seven days, 14 Hours and 33 Minutes (665 days), while extending my life expectancy 6 Days and 22 Hours, by avoiding the use of 1997 THC delivery devices that would have cost me $10,262.26.

ItsanewdayCiggs - Free and Healing for One Year, Seven Months, Nine Days, 12 Hours and 29 Minutes (587 days), while extending my life expectancy 48 Days and 21 Hours, by avoiding the use of 14076 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $14,421.30.

Blows me away when I see those figures and seems like a lifetime ago when I was counting the hours :) and I have saved my self almost $25,000 - that is awesome too. Might be time to buy myself some toys I think !!
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Postby seeingthelight » Sat Nov 18, 2017 5:08 pm

Great thread! Keep the inspiration going for the people trying to change their lives, and going thru the struggles. They need to know things will get better! Even if it doesn’t seem that way at the time
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Postby wakinglife » Mon Nov 20, 2017 3:34 am

Awesomely inspiring thread. I think my story is pretty easy to find on the forum: "Benefits of being off weed". A short synopsis goes like this: tried using in moderation (or totally abstaining for several months at a time) for the latter half of my addiction. Decided I was fed up with the limitations cannabis was placing on my life so I quit. Roughly a month after quitting (during the stage of insomnia, etc.) I found Uncommon Knowledge Forum. The stories and support offered by people like you showed me that I was not alone (and am still not alone). Telling my story and focusing on the positives, rather than dwelling in the spiral of "woe is me; withdrawals and cravings suck" helped me stay on track. Each month off would bring reduced cravings and increased engagement with real life. I felt as through I passed major milestones at 6 weeks, 100 days, 6 months, and one year. Since then, I regularly check in on the forum (every week or two) and re-up my commitment to living weed free.

Thanks for continuing to support one another. This is truly the best place I have found online for recovering cannabis addicts.

I freed myself from my addiction by deciding to make a change. You can do the same.
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Postby soulvice » Tue Feb 13, 2018 5:59 am

Hey guys,

First of all I want to say how pleasing it is to see a few people putting forward their own quotes that helped them, it's great to know there is a community behind you hear and people from 10+ years ago's stories still helping people today.

Just quickly checking back in as I briefly remembered about this forum today. I have actually improved really quite quickly from this last episode and as I originally predicted it was a lot easier/smoother than that first quit when all the anxiety symptoms hit (DP etc).

I felt like I'd gone down the rabbit hole again but I'm here to tell you that even if this isn't your first quit, maybe you've slipped up once, twice, many times, it doesn't mean you're back to square one or that you can't get through it again, and it does get easier each time but also I think you feel more embarrassed and ashamed of yourself than before so it does hit home almost harder than that first time.

However, 3 or so months in I can already feel myself being better to the point where I do occasionally crave weed especially as my gf still smokes it on and off, and the terrible thing is you almost forget about all the bad things it has done and you just think you could have it once and let it go but that's just not the truth for most people. I have worked coffee and a few occasional beers back into my diet with no issues. I have also joined a gym and started doing some weight lifting + trying to lose some weight that I put back on from smoking, so I feel this is a pretty positive step.

So if you've slipped up like I did, read these stories above and use their positivity to drive your recovery. Also remember it's exponential how you will feel, the first few weeks are hell, then in a few months you can't remember what those first weeks were like vividly, then 6 months later you cant remember the first few months etc because that is the process of you getting better. If there's one thing we can use our faulty memory for it's forgetting the terrible feelings that are first brought on by quitting. So don't look back and don't dwell on any of it and just live.

Thanks for reading
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Postby reckoning » Tue Feb 13, 2018 8:38 pm

Thanks Soulvice for your contribution. So glad you remembered about this forum. Yes other people's quotes are great. I'm getting the hang of how this forum works. I've followed it for five years but actually participating has taken me to another level.

Someone said somewhere ( I don't know how to do that quote thing ) that stoners are used to instant gratification but getter through your quits and into your life by quitting is not an instant gratification experience. While I'm changing my life to move beyond quick fixes , this forum really helps.

Every morning, I wake up and before I leave the house I do instantly ( glad something can still be like that) have this positive fix from these on-line posts that I can walk into. For me this is like going to a meeting a everyday. I don't always have to say anything, so there is no pressure there but I find that when I can actually stand up and write something I'm working on my quit and really investing into "My Freedom Pass" .

I've decided that something very important to me is to really reframe the language I use around QUITS. I've done quite a few over the years. So the word quit is pretty loaded because the experience that sits behind this for me involves being in that non- quit state after some time. So , because language has a powerful influence on me my reframe is becoming " I'm saving up for my ticket to freedom from all the effects that weed has in my life. My Freedom Pass is coming my way on this monopoly board that I keep going around. Whoo Hoo.

Thanks everyone who shows up .
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Postby Robb1e_g » Tue Feb 27, 2018 5:06 pm

Hey guys, love this post, people need positivity here . I've never been through a harder time in my life. But it does get better. I'm around 3 and a half months and already see so much improvements personally. I smoked over 90 percent thc wax daily for around a year and quit cold turkey due to trying acid for the first time while smoking a sh** ton and had the worst panic attack of my life. The filling 3 months were hell on earth despite a few good days in between. I'm around 3 and a half months but feeling much better in terms of being able to handle the symptoms. I believe what has helped me so early on was NEVER staying in bed or at home (no matter how bad my anxiety or depressed moments were) always talking to others about your problems, doing reality checks with friends (for depersonalization) acting like your own best friend to yourself, and exercising EVERYDAY and taking magnesium, vitamin d, and fish oil, EVERYDAY ESPECIALLY LOTS OF MAGNESIUM. I promise to everyone it gets better, even if you've had suicidal thoughts and I did too and occasionly still come up lightly, but you must tell yourself that the only escape is endurance. Fight for yourself, fight for love, and live for the ones who can't. And thank God for what you already have, stay grateful, and stay strong people :)
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Postby EdiBee » Tue Feb 27, 2018 10:30 pm

Yes sir it gets better. Keep on the fight. This freedom is the best time of life.

Today I am 3 months weed free and 1 month alcohol free. I never thought I'd be writing this. I feel grateful but I need to be careful and don't get too complacent. It is a never ending fight but it gives a lot of rewards every day.

I salute you guys.

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Postby Bagobones » Mon Mar 12, 2018 10:41 pm

I am Norwegian so sorry for my bad english..

This is a nice idea for a thread. I did not plan on posting anything, just read a bit here for fun, and see if some of the old posters (like cleanofgreen) was still posting here. But I think this is an important thread here, so i decided to post to keep it alive.

I wrote that quote under exactly a year ago today. That weekend and the realisation that I was no longer a guy that was struggling with quitting anymore, just a nonsmoker was actually big for me. Its felt like that ever since. I am just a non smoker. I dont smoke weed or Camel Lights, or anything else for that matter..

26 Weeks 5 days

I am not a dude that has just quit smoking anymore. I am just a non smoker. I don´t smoke.

I stopped by a good old friend on Friday. A woman I use to think had a very clean, nice, cool apartment.

She use to be a real character back in the day. She still is. She got ADHD, and some massive tattoos. My country have some of the most hardcore B.A.S.E jumping crews, and my friend was part of one. B.A.S.E jumping is jumping off buildings and mountains with parachute. She is part of my old smoking crew. I had not seen her in a long time.

Seeing her and her apartment with sober eyes was a sad thing. It was a beautiful day on Friday. Sunny. She was wearing her one-piece comfy inn-door sofa outfit. Entering her apartment I was greeted with a really nice long hug, and a tired skinny face. The air in her apartment was really stuffed and smelled of old weed. This was before 12 pm, and all the blinds was closed, making it even more stuffed. I was invited in on a cafe latte, and to her surprise I turned down the ganja she passed to me.

After 20 minutes in her smoke filled "bat-cave", all I wanted was open her curtains, and open the door to her deck to let some fresh air and daylight inn. But I knew I could not do it, because of her paranoid head. I just wanted to force her to pull out her vacuum cleaner.. Where I 7 - 8 months ago was seeing a minimalist super-cool apartment, I now saw a sad, dusty, smelly, stuffed, stoner-cave.

The place and the woman had not changed during those months, I was the one who had changed.

After 30 minutes I was claustrophobic in there, so I started nagging her if we could go out to the park nearby and hang out. It was sunny and some people there. Or maybe we could take the city bikes and cruise around for a while, stop on some of the cafes to people watch over lunch? Or go take an Ashtanga yoga class?
But I knew the answer already. Her plan was to sit in her cave with the one-piece on the whole weekend while smoking and smoking and smoking.. I can´t hang out like that anymore. Maybe a few hours watching a movie at night.

15 years ago the same woman was happy sitting with her legs off a 1000 meter cliff in Trollveggen, smoking a few spliffs, before jumping off it. Now walking 2 minutes away from her apartment to a park was too scary for her.

Well anyways. I am still doing the same. My head feels pretty normal. I felt the last pieces of the puzzle fell into place when I read the book "The Mood Cure" by Julia Ross. You can see the book mentioned in Wave´s excellent thread here.

I was suspecting I was low on dopamine after all the weed and coffee for decades. I started taking some tyrosine, and eating a lot better, with more protein. It really made magic happen. A lot of my old motivation came back, and my brain fog lifted. My supplement stack at the moment is: Iron, multivitamin, fish-oil, magnesium, tyrosine and 5-HTP. On workout days I take protein powder, and not tyrosine. The protein powder is full of it.

The spring is closing inn full force, and I plan to enjoy it to the max. Lots of adventures planned. I have found a bike I will buy. So I plan to spend a lot of time in the forest on it, starting next week.

Well that´s about it for now..

I stuck my face out the window this morning and spring kissed me bang in my face.

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