Sexual experimentation

Postby Smiley_fatty » Tue Jan 30, 2018 9:26 pm

I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder.For past three months,i am having terrible thoughts about sexual experimentation when i was 12 years old.I experimented with my female cousin.It was same sex experimentation.I told her to touch my private part and i feel too much guilt and then i masturbated by lying down on her.Nothing much happened.But i feel extreme guilt.I am having questions that may be i raped her??
The second question that aroses everytime is "may be this experience caused some negative effects to her"????
May be because of me she experimented with other children????or may be she developed pornographic addiction????? :roll: :cry: i am literally stuck
I feel like a trap in my own thoughts.Please help!!!!
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Postby Richard@DecisionSkills » Wed Jan 31, 2018 2:14 am

To commit a crime, such as rape, you have to be mentally capable. This means you have to knowingly or intentionally commit an act. The reason 12 year olds aren’t arrested for experimenting, is because they are not mature mentally, i.e. not mentally capable. They can’t knowingly, because cognitively they are ignorant, immature, underdeveloped, etc.

Adult you is now trying to perform a mental magic trick, and transport your current mindset to impose your current moral values on your 12 year old self. Do you think that is fair? Do you really think you should hold a 12 year old child responsible for your current beliefs? And if so, why only your 12 year old self? Why not apply your current moral understanding to all of your previous behaviors?
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Postby Smiley_fatty » Wed Jan 31, 2018 6:14 pm

I don't know why,but when i try to focus on my studies,the thought pops in my head that you don't even desrve to think about your own self and youshiuld feel guilt over and over again.AND i am not focusing on my studies for past 2 months :cry: I know that i am not a criminal but still! sucks!
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Postby Kasper » Wed May 30, 2018 10:23 am

Holy A. FK I wish you kids would chill, Be lucky your not current monsters. Guilt is stronger than affliction. Children are incredibly resilient. worse things will happen to a child as he/she grows. sometimes rape is the first thing and psychologists connect everything bad in they life to that trauma to make a buck, which itself is cancerous because it reopens wounds. its manipulation. the ones with the right to blame they fkd up life on trauma is child sex slaves. nuf said. Do you parhaps feel the most guilt because you liked jizzn on little girl? if so you fkd 4 lyfe bro. now see that? I just introduced the possablity that parhaps you liked it. how do you know unless you relive it? DANGER your solidifying a toxic thought pattern. dont do it unless you ok with it, otherwise, for your benefit, shut up and shut down, and dont talk to that little girl about that sh** unless shes cool. if you think shes forgotten then leave it alone
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Postby DrPsychFeels » Wed May 30, 2018 6:53 pm

Does your cousin know you masturbated on her, or does she just think you rubbed up against her without knowing what was really going on?

Regardless, this sort of cousin experimentation is somewhat common. When innocently done like this, it's not seen as trauma.

Though if it still bothers you, it may be helpful for you to process the experience. There may be a deeper cause of your anxiety over it.
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