First of all, thank you to anyone who reads this and replies. I posted this on Reddit but it seems that the cannabis withdrawal forum over there doesn't allow discussion like this. I am hoping someone or multiple people here can help me.
Good evening all,
I as of late have been having some bizarre experiences with quitting/reducing cannabis and CBD capsules. I assure you I will leave a Tl;Dr at the bottom.
I am a veteran who unfortunately served in Afghanistan about 11 years ago. I was diagnosed with PTSD in about 2009. I had some pretty terrible anxiety associated with my PTSD in about 2012 which slowly left me due to lifestyle modifications and CBT. I never felt that I quite got back to my baseline personality at any point in time nor was I ever free of the somatic symptoms I had developed due to anxiety such as muscle twitching, a chronic headache, and a low startle threshold.
Fast forward to about a year ago I was offered a cannabis prescription here in Canada. I was naive to what type of cannabis I should be using but eventually found that high THC strains amplified my stress ( I wouldn't use the term anxiety as I feel I rarely experience it). I began using a strain called "Shark Shock" which is relatively high cbd low thc. The THC in it was still quite noticeable but I found the combination tolerable. I would vapourize the cannabis before sleep. During this time period my supplier also started offering decarboxylated high CBD powder. It usually works out to be around 12-13% CBD and 0.4% THC. I started taking one capsule at night.
Fast forward to about 2.5 weeks ago and I started to realize that over the past few months my psychomotor skills such as typing were becoming problematic, I was also not as mentally sharp as I normally was. I felt that due to no other changes in my life physically, psychologically, or pharmacologically that I should assess my use of cannabis and possibly augment it.
I stopped vapourizing the Shark Shock before bed and began having more fulfilling and restorative sleep the next few nights. I then had a few nights of wild dreams which I expected due to REM rebound. After that, I began to feel my old somatic symptoms of anxiety begin to grow but not conscious psychological anxiety.
All last week I was feeling really lethargic and detached from my surroundings. This came to a peak on Thursday where I felt extremely "spaced out" for lack of a better term. My vision was blurry and I felt as if I was having some kind of psychological breakdown. This spawned a panic attack which I haven't had in years.
Since that night I have had a constant flow of anxiety that has peaks and valleys throughout the day but is none-the-less always brewing under the surface. This is extremely frustrating as this past year I have made so much progress with meditation, CBT, and really putting as much effort into curing my PTSD as possible. My last assessment from the VA was a diagnosis of "PTSD in remission" which is the best I can do as the VA and the DSM deem it a chronic illness.
I am currently sitting on a 3.9 GPA which I am incredibly nervous will evaporate if my anxiety stays the way it is. I haven't been able to study effectively for the past week.
I stopped taking the CBD the night of the panic attack. I can't tell at this point if it's helping or hindering, I took a tablet this morning and one this evening and I think it is alleviating some of the anxiety.
What would be an educated assumption from some of the more experienced individuals here. The timeline seems to indicate that the anxiety is likely from my system getting used to not having THC. Should I continue with CBD? I am interested in the benefits of CBD repairing atrophy of the hippocampus which seems to be commonly experienced by veterans such as myself.
Tl;Dr; Took cannabis for a year to treat PTSD, was working well, started noticing cognitive problems from it's use, stopped, now experiencing a lot of anxiety which is atypical for me.
Thank you.