I hope this post finds you very well. Before I start, I wanted to give a quick thanks to everybody who has contributed to the conversation and creation of this forum. You are ALL an incredible source of inspiration. Your words and experiences have reassured me that I am not alone on this journey. I truly wish you all the best as you realize your own individual goals.
I've been smoking cannabis/THC products for about 15 years. In that time, I always joked that I was a PhD level pothead. I grew, vaped, rolled, rosin-pressed, smoked kief, blunts, flower, shatter, whatever. During the past 15 years, I only took one (1) extended break from my beloved first love. On that particular occasion I stopped smoking so that I could pass a pre-employment drug test. I remember specifically that my initial plan was to pass, start working, and then BLAZE UP big time. It didn't take long for me to change my thinking from "a break" to simply, "I am quitting." It was one of the hardest things I've ever done and I managed to abstain for three (3) years. The first few weeks quitting were hell for me. I went through intense withdrawals with body sweats and lucid using dreams. I lost friends, got depressed, cried, questioned my reason for living, all that fun stuff.
So fast forward to present day, here I am trying to quit weed again. I got cocky during my initial sobriety and managed to fall off the wagon again. The reasons for me wanting to quit are very complex, but if I had to sum it up I'd simple say that it stopped being fun. Ironically, the first question on MA's 12 questions for potheads is, "Has smoking pot stopped being fun?" I have felt for some time that the cons outweigh the pros. I have been scared and in denial because I haven't wanted to honestly look myself in the mirror. Luckily for me, though, a series of misfortunes kinda caused me to hit another rock bottom where I was willing to change ANYTHING in my life to feel better, including weed.
On Monday night, 1/29/2018, I took my last puffs. On Tuesday, I packed away all my paraphernalia and removed it from my living space. I started a private quitting journal and joined this website. I am watching my diet and drinking tons of water. I am also exercising daily and have told two close family members that I am attempting to quit for accountability. Tonight will be about 72 hours weed free, which is actually an accomplishment when you abuse THC like I do. I am looking very forward to my first week, first month, six months, and then a year without. I have done this before, so I am aware of what to expect, but that does not make it any easier. I hope to find a psychologist soon and address some of the internal issues I have (self-esteem, etc) that I may have been attempting to numb.
I am always open for support, so if anybody reads this and needs to talk, feel free to reach out. While I know I can do this alone, I much rather cross the finish line together. My best to all of you. I will be posting updates here as I progress in hopes that they will motivate others who wish to do the same. Looking forward to talking to some of you.

Alex