reckoning wrote: I do feel a bit of pressure around that when I hear a lot of talk in various threads here about taking anit D's is perhaps not being the 'pure' recovery we are all looking for.
Hi and very good job! I am really happy for you that you have so much success in your quitting.
I have one suggestion for you. Put those feelings of preassure in the garbage bin and forget about it, pat yourself on your back and say good job me!! Dont worry about it. Dont worry about "others". You do you, and let others do them. Only you know whats best for you. Only you know the best road for you. And your road is not the perfect road for others. That does not mean your road is not the right and best road for you.
And peoples opinions changes all the time. I am one of the people that has "warned" against AD, the SSRi Lexapro (escitalopram). My doctor did a mistake, and left me in a state close to psychosis, with suicidal thoughts. I started with a low dosage. When I went back to my doctor and told her this did not feel right, she increased the dosage. Then all hell broke lose for me. All of it is on the warning labels for Lexapro. I learned that suicidal thoughts can be chemically created in humans that have never had them. I have a very weak memory from last winter. I can hardly remember last december. My doctor gave them to me and the road foreward was a shrink (specialist) was going to take over from her. The shrinks answer to my problems with Lexapro was more pills, a coctail of them. Stronger AD, with anti psychosis pills on the side. Then I got angry and asked him to f*ck off, and told him he did not know what the hell he was doing, and he was playing roulette with human lives. One of the problems with doctors is some of them are narcasistic with an entitelment problem. Some of them dont care about their patients, only their own reflextion in the mirror they are so inlove with, and think they are never EVER wrong. But I changed him out, and the next one, and the next one, and now I have a very good one that has helped me so much. He has been VERY valueble to me.
After this I was VERY against AD, and wrote very negative about it here. But my opinions on them have softened up, and I also read about people with success with them. I think its accurate to say that this is an experimental field. Some have no reactions at all to AD, a lot of people have good resaults from them, and a few, like me and
this poor woman , the resault was catastrophic. But again, its all written on the warning labels on the pills. All my symtoms is CLEARLY written on the package.
At the end of the day, its a road of feeling better. And if that includes AD for you, I have no right to critisize you for that. Its not a "less pure" road your on than I am on. Looking back at my own journey, its full of misstakes and things I would have done very differently if I was going to do it again.. Neighter one of us are perfect, and if your journey needs AD, then do AD! You know whats best for you.
Good luck and keep posting. Your journey is very valueble to a lot of people.. And its an interesting read!
Until next time.. God, I really have to learn to write shorter messages.. haha