3 months TODAY - not an april fools joke

Postby dirtySanchez » Sun Apr 01, 2018 10:44 am

Today is 3 months since I quit. Have been daily smoking for the last +8 year.

The first month was pretty normal. I thought this is not so hard.

On the second month started feeling anxious and depressed.

Start of the third month was really messed up. I didn't feel any emotions, I couldn't focus on anything, it was really hard for me to think. For example - I forgot which exercises I need to do (have been doing them daily for the last 1 year),
I really felt like I was retarded. Sometimes everything was like some "3D virtual game" - hard to describe with words. I had really hard time being around people - wasn't interested in conversation and nothing. Probably there was 1 in 10 days when I felt somehow better - like being at 3/10 happiness, otherwise, I was at 1,5/10 happiness.

Because I wasn't able to focus on work, it bothered me even more since I didn't get anything done. (i am a web developer)

Being in misery day in and day out, I somehow said to myself "if you are in this f**** state, then at least you can do some little progress on your work". I didn't set any goals or make plans. I just got in front of the computer and start working on different projects. Since then I am feeling a little better - like 5/10. Like somehow it distracted me from being all day in the PAWS.

The last days were good. I somehow feel that I have a lot more energy than I used to have when I was in the 1 month. I am more confident around people & somehow more attracted to the girls... I enjoy sex much more (on the other hand I also watch porn a lot less)

The things that helped me: (I think)
- Omega 3
- Vitamins (high quality)
- Meditation
- Bioenergetics (look up for Elliot Hulse on Youtube)
- Gym & exercise (every day)
- Going was long walk when I had the worst days
- Drinking a lot of water (obvious)

I know it is not over and there is a lot of room for improvement but the first time since quitting I can say that I am really looking forward to the next months.
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Postby Leo589 » Thu Dec 12, 2019 11:46 am

Congratulations for hitting that 3 month mark! way to go. hope you go much further :)
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Postby biohack9 » Thu Dec 12, 2019 3:31 pm

Leo589 wrote:Congratulations for hitting that 3 month mark! way to go. hope you go much further :)


Uh you do realize the date of that post right? He's actually at 2 years now and still struggling.

These long term 2-3+ cases of PAWS honestly scare the hell out of me.
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Postby Cthompson21 » Mon Dec 16, 2019 3:11 am

Sanchez if you read this send us an update. Hope you're doing okay.
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Postby biohack9 » Wed Dec 18, 2019 10:05 pm

Cthompson21 wrote:Sanchez if you read this send us an update. Hope you're doing okay.


If you read his post history he posted this last month:

dirtySanchez wrote:Here I am.. at 23 months... wondering why are PAWS still be present after all this time... fearing that maybe I have done parament damage to myself because of smoking heavily for 10 years straight while being in development (16 to 26 years old) and taking all kinds of drugs. Right now - I am under waves for the last 30 days straight. It sucks really. Brain fog, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, 0 libido, DR - it's still the same as it was at the beginning.

Posts like this are giving me the motivation that I am not alone in this. Really. It such a relief reading about the journey that took 3 years. It gives me hope and this is all it matters.
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Postby dirtySanchez » Tue Dec 31, 2019 11:12 am

Hey guys

Please go check the post I have just posted - I hope it will help you with your journey .viewtopic.php?t=107233&p=912458#p912458

Much love.
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