13 weeks today since i quit weed.
Hello all, so not too much change since my last weekly update really. I hardly ever think about going back on the weed. It's not that i never think about it at all, but it's generally a fleeting thought with little pull on me.
I suppose it's because of the length of time i smoked Marijuana for, i smoked it so long and so consistently day and night (20 plus years) that i truly know deep down there is nothing more i can gain from it. I truly took that ride to the very very very bitter end, lol.
I don't rest on my laurels though and i know i can never be complacent with weed. And i'm the sort of addict who could fall back into at anytime if i "just tried it once". Anyway, i suppose this is why (and i know this is the addict in me speaking) i don't kick myself too much for getting drunk once a week. Which links me nicely onto the next topic of Alcohol!...
...Alcohol, now i think about it I've been abusing alcohol even longer than cannabis. (and I've been abusing tobacco even longer that alcohol, but that's another story) Alcohol has been in my life since i was probably around, 15 years old. I didn't try weed until i was about 18 i think?! Maybe 17 at the youngest!
So anyway i'm still getting drunk once a week. I when i say drunk i mean; Black out, can't remember what i did last night drunk. i'm always at home doing this though so i limit the risk of endangering myself and others.
Now, i'm not proud of this and i'm aiming to rid myself of this addiction too. I'll probably need AA as i highly doubt i can conquer it alone. Anyway i think I've typed enough for this weekly update. Now just to proof read it, break it down into readable paragraphs and correct mistakes.
I hope you're all doing at least as well as i am. If i can do it i KNOW anyone can do it. I was a truly hopeless case with little hope in the beginning of my journey. And here i am. I know i'm always doing "sayings" but one I've never forgotten and still use this one with my alcohol and tobacco addition to this day...
"Never give up, giving up!"
Peace out brothers and sisters,
I'm sending you my prayers to get well and stay well!
George