Here we go again...

Postby Stevenpearce » Wed May 09, 2018 6:42 am

So here we are again, have once again fallen into the trap and become totally absorbed by weed.... I am not surprised that I am back on here and am annoyed with myself for not being stronger but it is what it is. I think I once got to about thirteen months or so but have have now been constantly smoking I think for 8 months (before that I had been socially smoking but not buying any) than I started to buy it again and before you know it I was smoking every day.

It’s not cool really being a secret smoker, creeping around etc and being stoned in front of my kids is really not cool.

Had first night off it last night and yes vivid dreams and proper sweats but having been through it once before I know it’s just a case of ‘toughing it out’ this time will be difficult though as no one knows that I am going through it again.

Would love to get some comments and advice as last quit this forum properly helped me out.

All the best
Stevenpearce
Full Member
 
Posts: 216
Joined: Thu Jun 06, 2013 5:41 am
Likes Received: 20


#1

Postby exstonerinhell » Wed May 09, 2018 12:58 pm

Good luck, man, I'm rooting for you!
exstonerinhell
Full Member
 
Posts: 128
Joined: Mon Mar 12, 2018 9:24 pm
Likes Received: 77

#2

Postby tokeless » Wed May 09, 2018 5:06 pm

Sometimes it takes more than one go.. Learn from your mistakes rather than repeating them is all I suggest. The quit is easier than staying quit.
tokeless
Senior Member
 
Posts: 1922
Joined: Thu May 08, 2008 5:17 pm
Likes Received: 224

#3

Postby George from UK » Wed May 09, 2018 5:32 pm

Good to have you back on board with us! I find taking fish oil, vitamin D3 and a multivitamin and mineral pills daily along with an exersize regime a real life saver, my friend.

One good idea i heard off here is to take a week off work to sleep alot if possible. May not be possible for you if not could you fake an illness?

Please keep us updating. Im 18 days off weed and alcohol and feeling awesome mate! except for night sweats i'd say i'm close to 100% back to "normal"

George
George from UK
Full Member
 
Posts: 158
Joined: Fri Jun 23, 2017 7:24 pm
Likes Received: 73

#4

Postby Stevenpearce » Wed May 09, 2018 5:51 pm

Thanks all, I sort of know what to expect but great to hear the support, I’m totally on my own here as no one knows I’ve got myself back into trouble! Night sweats are a challenge so will have big hot bath tonight and some coconut water. Night sweats I will need to remember to change my clothes when soaking, would love to know why they happen!!
Stevenpearce
Full Member
 
Posts: 216
Joined: Thu Jun 06, 2013 5:41 am
Likes Received: 20

#5

Postby Anxious_mary_420 » Thu May 10, 2018 3:33 pm

Good luck stevenpearce it's a crap time but you can do it just keep pushing through. I'm at 5 weeks and 6 days right now sleeping ok but very flat and anxious can't wait for this to be over. Ridiculous to think we have done this to ourselves isn't it. Stay strong you did it before and you can do it again x
Anxious_mary_420
Junior Member
 
Posts: 81
Joined: Mon Apr 23, 2018 8:33 pm
Likes Received: 41

#6

Postby Stevenpearce » Thu May 10, 2018 4:58 pm

No night sweats last night but crap sleep! That being said even when smoking I still wake up feeling dreadful and groggy so can’t complain! I so enjoy being clear headed - so weird that when I have weed it’s all I want to do is get away from a clear and concise mind! Crazy!!!
Stevenpearce
Full Member
 
Posts: 216
Joined: Thu Jun 06, 2013 5:41 am
Likes Received: 20

#7

Postby jage » Thu May 10, 2018 6:11 pm

Stevenpearce I'm back again too. Longest quit was 5 years. Fell into bad habits again for the past 2. Looks like you know what to expect. Good for you for recognizing the need to get off! My kids are the narcs in our house, so being high requires a lot of sneakiness that always made me feel like a loser. I just keep remembering that feeling when I want to start again. I'm in my 5th week without. I just wish my husband would join me. He refuses. Vigorous exercise will help you sleep better. Keep on keepin on!
jage
Full Member
 
Posts: 127
Joined: Wed Mar 14, 2007 5:50 am
Location: Northern Cali, USA
Likes Received: 10

#8

Postby Cali-Detroit » Thu May 10, 2018 8:55 pm

Hey Steven, I feel you and jage both on the guilt with the kids. I swore when my daughter was born 5 years ago, I would stop, as I didn't want to miss out on this time. I'm very sorry to say, that on the night my wife's water broke, I was not lying in bed next to her, but in my usual place in the garage, a mountain of ground up bud and my vaporizer tube in hand. It was past 2am. That memory just came to me moments before I started this response. Startling to say the least. Im on day 36 and plugging along. We've all the reasons in the world to do this, especially with children involved. Keep going man, you got this. I admire your 13 months! Im dreaming of that palace right now....
Cali-Detroit
Full Member
 
Posts: 137
Joined: Sat May 05, 2018 9:45 pm
Likes Received: 89

#9

Postby Stevenpearce » Sat May 12, 2018 9:06 am

Thanks all for your kind words, things going OK so far (having quit before is helpful I think) but this time the night sweats only lasted for one night but I am having mad crazy vivid dreams which I quite like! Does me make feel tired but also makes me like I am more rested. When smoking I know it makes me lazy and everything is a chore, have got back my natural energy and most importantly got a lot more patience with every one. Feel bad for how I’ve put getting high above everything else, getting the kids to bed early so I can have ‘my time’ and hoping my wife goes to bed early so that I can have ‘my time’. Appreciate it’s proper selfish but amazed how when u r in that frame of mind it is completely justified.
Stevenpearce
Full Member
 
Posts: 216
Joined: Thu Jun 06, 2013 5:41 am
Likes Received: 20

#10

Postby Stevenpearce » Tue May 15, 2018 6:41 am

So far so good, I’m not counting days this time just taking it day by day. Yesterday had bad mood at work and a few colleagues who are not the most efficient got told a few home truths! That has nothing to do with weed tho as that stuff happened more when I was a smoker as my fuse was shorter!

Sleeping is going well I’ve acoided the night sweats this time but do feel generally tired, when I smoked tho I was in a constant fog so shouldn’t complain. Made a list of all the benefits (for me) if not smoking and it was quite long, the one to continue smoking was very short!

Hope you all having a great day and wish you all best for the week.
Stevenpearce
Full Member
 
Posts: 216
Joined: Thu Jun 06, 2013 5:41 am
Likes Received: 20

#11

Postby Wave » Tue May 15, 2018 9:42 pm

Good to hear you are making the positive choice, sure we shared a quit where I ended up failing!!! Made it about 16 months so far and feeling good for it.

I have quit and failed lots of times and feel you do learn a lot each time and is easier due to knowing what to expect. I have come to terms with the fact I can smoke anymore, have a couple of times this quit but felt terrible for 6-9 days after, just not worth it.

Yea when you actually take a step back smoking is not all the great.

Hope your good apart from this!
Wave
Preferred Member
 
Posts: 763
Joined: Sun Nov 18, 2012 9:47 am
Likes Received: 211

#12

Postby Stevenpearce » Fri May 18, 2018 7:13 am

Yes Wave how you going mate! When I came back on here I did wonder if you was still posting and from what I see you have given great advice to many other people on their journey! This quitting business is a chore same as when smoking it’s just a chore to keep high, I have to admit it’s hard to stop your brain telling you ‘you are ok now, relax, enjoy a spliff’

Have a great weekend mate!
Stevenpearce
Full Member
 
Posts: 216
Joined: Thu Jun 06, 2013 5:41 am
Likes Received: 20

#13

Postby Wave » Sat May 19, 2018 8:01 am

Stevenpearce wrote:This quitting business is a chore same as when smoking it’s just a chore to keep high, I have to admit it’s hard to stop your brain telling you ‘you are ok now, relax, enjoy a spliff’

Have a great weekend mate!


Cheers mate, yea it is hard but it is also hard work keeping everything together when your blazing, actually being able to remember stuff now is quite helpful and over time you want to do it less and less.

I am at 16 months which is pretty much the same amount of time when I failed on my longest quit, so always mindful I could fall back into it.

Hows the quit gone so far?
Wave
Preferred Member
 
Posts: 763
Joined: Sun Nov 18, 2012 9:47 am
Likes Received: 211

#14

Postby Stevenpearce » Sat May 19, 2018 1:31 pm

Wave wrote:
Stevenpearce wrote:This quitting business is a chore same as when smoking it’s just a chore to keep high, I have to admit it’s hard to stop your brain telling you ‘you are ok now, relax, enjoy a spliff’

Have a great weekend mate!


Cheers mate, yea it is hard but it is also hard work keeping everything together when your blazing, actually being able to remember stuff now is quite helpful and over time you want to do it less and less.

I am at 16 months which is pretty much the same amount of time when I failed on my longest quit, so always mindful I could fall back into it.

Hows the quit gone so far?


So far so good mate, this time I’ve only had one night of night sweats and have slept ok (previously insomnia really got me) my moods have been ok and I have been more pro active and helpful round the house etc. You are so right about keeping things together when blazing! It really is hard work! When you have fallen off the horse has it been straight back to full blazing or little bit then before you know it back to square one?
Stevenpearce
Full Member
 
Posts: 216
Joined: Thu Jun 06, 2013 5:41 am
Likes Received: 20


Next

Return to Addictions